Nesusivedimai, aplinkos, kūryba, gerumas
Įsisuku į kūrybinę veiklą su kitais.
Įkėliau jau pora rodelių, filmukų http://www.ms.lt/tv/ kaip ruošiuos meno
parodai čia Čikagoje. Aprėpsiu visa ką savo gyvenime išmąsčiau. Paroda
vyks balandžio mėn. 1 d., Verbų sekmadienį, o tuo pačiu ir Užupio
nepriklausomybės dieną, kurią švęsime.
Sukūriau filmuką apie "nesusivedimus", tai yra, paradoksus. Juos rūšiuoju.
* Visumos savybės gali skirtis nuo dalių savybių.
* Prieštaravimas gali būti dalinio pobūdžio.
* Aprašymas gali suvaržyti laisvę.
* Dėmesys iškreipia vaizdą.
* Teiginys gali save paneigti.
* Apibrėžimas nepakankamai išbaigtas; arba niekinis, be pavyzdžių.
Žodžiu, tai keli žingsniai link jų rūšiavimo. Prie to dirbu va čia:
Dabar kuriu filmuką apie "aplinkas". Klausimas veikia kaip "egzistencinė"
aplinka. O kūryba patys įtakojame savo aplinką, tad ir save.
Donatas Anušauskas nufilmavo teniso kamuolį plūduriuojantį užtvankoje.
Tai mane įkvėpė pafilmuoti mokykloje, kur dirbu, mat juos užmauna ant
kėdžių kojų, kad nesusibraižytų medinės grindys. Kviečiu, kas turi teniso
ar kitokių kamuolių, prisijungti filmukais ar nuotraukomis ir kaip nors
Pridedu susirašinėjimą anglų kalba su filosofijos profesoriumi Bob
Lichtenbert. Jis Čikagoje vadovauja Ieškotojų klubui. Jis klausia, "Kaip
daugiausia gero nuveikti?"
Renku mūsų klausimus, kuriuos puoselėjame. Kviečiu į bendrą kūrybą
filmukais, nuotraukomis, dainomis ir mintimis.
I'm glad to think that you are in good health and good spirits, all things
considered! I pray for you.
Your question is or can be very central. So I hope we keep returning to
it. Indeed, if you allow, I would include it among people's questions
that I'm keeping in heart and mind as I work on my art show, which will be
in April at the South Side Community Art Center in Bronzeville. Some
other questions include:
* Rimas Morkunas: What mechanism rules this world?
* Audrone Anusauskiene: How can God create a seed which may lie dormant
and then spring to life in particular circumstances?
* Donatas Anusauskas: What do women want?
* Nashawne Ball: Why are systems designed for things to go wrong?
(Nashawne is my math student and we'll try to relate that to math).
* Virmantas Galdikas: How to express in words and images so that the
widest variety of people might understand that not others are at fault,
but that evil is found in the selfishness of each and every one of us,
which is a natural, undeleteable and necessary factor of life?
* Mario Torres: How is God going to finish his work (end the world)?
Note that these questions turn to be related. I suppose my own question is:
* Andrius Kulikauskas: How to pull together, flesh out and share all that
I have learned and all there is to know about everything, but especially,
God's point of view?
That's the subject of my art show! Our questions are a big help because
they challenge me, inspire me and serve as personally relevant reference
points, both experiencing them existentially and sharing them creatively.
Bob, thank you for your great answers to my questions. I'll add another
question to you:
* Why do you care to do the most good?
I tackled this as a six-year old. I realized that I was very happy,
blessed by loving parents and a utopian way-of-life growing up in Southern
California. I enjoyed an astounding mind. And I had a good seed, a
benevolent character. I understood that I would always be happy, but that
none of this was my own doing. I could have been born in Cambodia and
left to die. So my gifts were not meant to serve me, but to serve all
people. What would the starving African children or Cambodian children
want me to do?
I note that a question can serve as "mental surroundings". Each week, as
I prepare for my art show, I'm making a video (in Lithuanian) of how I'm
making progress, and in doing so, I'm interacting with others creatively,
inspired as well by our questions. http://www.ms.lt/tv/ So this week's
theme is "surroundings". I note how much context a question can
introduce. In that sense, questions are "existential". They capture our
existence as a conceptual context that we experience (phenomenologically)
and may address (structurally). And, as we see above, our questions can
relate us and we can relate our questions, which indeed encourages us that
we can "know everything", know the full sweep of the questions we may take
Indeed, as I've been modeling God's mind as a room in the gallery, I've
noticed that one wall, into which everything resolves, will be a system of
A starting point:
* What do I truly wish for?
Which expands as four levels:
* Whether, What, How and Why we Care?
Pairs of levels make for six doubts addressed by counterquestions:
* Do I truly like this? How does it seem to me?
* Do I truly need this? What else should I be doing?
* Is this truly real? Would it make any difference?
* Is this truly problematic? What do I have control over?
* Is this truly reasonable? Am I able to consider the question?
* Is this truly wrong? Is this the way things should be?
All leading up to a question:
* Am I doing anything about this?
So there is a finite system of ideal questions that express our intellect
which I may portray as a glass cage from within which we may live. But
there is also a vast field of questions as each of us above is taking up
personally, which is related.
Anyways, as a child with boundless ambition, I realized that in the big
scheme of things, conquering, discovering, inventing, ruling all had their
limits, and to truly stand out, I would have to have ambition on a higher
I also realized that, say, if I chose to be a doctor, I might be able to
prolong my life endlessly, but that this would be a very sketchy pursuit
because, honestly, God can have me hit by a truck at any moment. So if I
have divine ambition, I should hope that it will please God and I might as
well depend on him, or at least on his benevolence, because otherwise I'm
doomed. So having extreme talents, I should take extreme risks and get to
the heart of the matter.
I thus resolved to "know everything ...and apply that knowledge usefully".
I thought that knowing everything would allow me to do anything, and at
the least, would let me know what I should do, as you are asking.
Next, I made a plan for self-education. I thought I should focus on
reading quicker and quicker, writing longer and longer, and doing as much
math as I could get my hands on. As for subjects, I thought I should
start with history, with what is already known, and start from the
beginning, and learn it all. I was amazed and disappointed that there
were no books on Mesopotamian history. So I settled for Egyptian history
and at the age of six I wrote a 28 page report based on three books. The
next year I wrote a 50 page report on insects, read an 800 page college
anthology on "African Cultures and Civilizations" and so on. All of this
of my own volition.
All throughout, I realized that I needed to be of extreme integrity and an
absolutely good person, caring of others, and ever appreciative of us all
as equals. Sometimes I think of each of us as different variations of
God's chess game, with Jesus being the winning line that actually gets
played, but with every possible line bearing on the course of the game.
We're each hypothetical Jesus's who went more or less off-course in ways
that may or may not be relevant.
I've also been in touch with God, who I addressed as that six-year old,
because I saw how I would need to think freely, allow that God may or may
not exist, and so venture into very dangerous territory. And so I offered
God a deal: Let me think freely, whatever I need to, in my quest to know
everything, and apply that knowledge usefully, and I will always believe
in you, regardless of what I come to know or think. We can say, I sold my
soul to God. And built in that "apply knowledge usefully" is the
assumption that at heart we are all equal, in some fundamental sense,
That is the tension in my life, that I was pulled by extreme circumstances
but also by a fundamental belief in our interchangeability. I'm just
doing what I should as the person-in-general who ended up in these
particular circumstances with these blessings.
I share my story wondering if it is all of our story, or potentially, just
as "falling in love" is a story that we may not all quite experience
fully, but yet we wish to think that we all could. If not in this world,
then in a subsequent one.
I'm trying to do in this world what might typically belong in a subsequent
world. I'm trying to build bridges between these two worlds and make them
seemless. I do feel that I live as if I was eternal, but with an
intensity of living that here and now.
So, of course, ever fostering my self-discipline to not have or watch
television. Currently, I'm trying to move away from Google News or NPR /
Fresh Air and instead read Google News in Spanish, say, or listen to more
educational videos in Math, etc. It's an ongoing process.
I think having extreme, divine ambition makes it seem silly to just "do
more good" as if it was accumulating points. Quality trumps quantity.
Jesus healed hundreds, maybe thousands, but his divine integrity impacted
billions of people on a much deeper level, and shaped our world. Millions
of us likewise participate through our integrity in that impacting and
shaping, although we are unseen. Bob, you and your Seekers impact me, at
least a bit, and that counts for a lot. Maybe we'll impact somebody who
impacts many more, or much more deeply or vividly. That's how God
operates, so that nobody in particular can claim the credit, and so the
glory goes to God.
So another question is:
* What is good? and who defines it?
Myself, as a puny human, I believe that it is good for knowledge to be
tangible, to be accessible, so that we don't have to believe, or rather,
we can take leaps of faith that are as small as we like. That's what I
think Jesus meant by the "poor-in-spirit". The "rich-in-spirit" are the
martyrs, who are willing to say "I believe" and follow blindly. But the
"poor-in-spirit" are the skeptical, the minimalists, the near-sighted like
me, who want each step to be evident, like rocks for crossing a river. I
think that is Jesus' preferred vision which his Father overruled, so that
rather than have Jesus be accepted alive (as some did), they got to accept
him dead ("good news" for the wicked). OK, if that's what it takes, but
I'd prefer to go back to what Jesus was doing.
And that's about establishing a culture of learning, growing, living
forever, here and now. The activity of an eternal life on this transitory
Since 1996, in developing "good will exercises" by which we might follow
the truth of the heart rather than the truth of the world, and then
through Minciu Sodas, organizing independent thinkers, I've basically
worked towards such a culture. In a small way, we succeeded, and our
Pyramid of Peace in Kenya in 2008, http://www.pyramidofpeace.net was a
very meaningful but fleeting example. In general, we weren't there for
each other sufficiently for me to spark a viable business, one that could
pay a modest wage and recover my debts that I incurred.
Reflecting on that, and starting fresh, I realized that I should be
self-centered and focus completely on my own quests, which I had never
neglected, but yet I had always tried to make Minciu Sodas work by serving
others, and yet I believe that my own quests are most important and I
myself am most dedicated.
I realized that God's point of view was relevant to all of the structures
that I had documented in studying the conceptual limits of our mind. God
had always been there for me, I had a ever warmer love for him. And I
concluded that the reason that I lived on the edge in so many ways that
others didn't was because I always had safety in God. That's let me
question my heart, or engage gangs or end up bankrupt. Others don't "buy
that pearl" and treating each other as independent thinkers, of more or
less maturity, yet ultimately equals, is too slow of a way for people to
grow. The impetus to "grow up" is too weak.
What drives me now is a very close collaboration with God, a deeply
natural investigation of what is truly central in pulling everything
together, and an unleashing of my creative potential. I'm discovering
(tentatively, hopefully) that I might best engage others on a creative
level, interacting towards a culture of creativity. I have content to
give meaning to our creative energies, and can include us based on our
questions, whatever we wish to explore, and which can inspire our
creativity. I suppose and learn, writing to you, and thinking of my other
co-creators, that "creation" is how we engage and shape our
"surroundings". I've been discussing with Audrone Anusauskiene, and
including God in that discussion, about how God's creation is a creation
of freedom that creates both life and its surroundings on equal terms, or
we may say, co-evolves them. The DNA in my heart and toe and brain are
all the same! and those cells are more like your cells than they are like
each other. So the DNA instruction is not more or less important than the
variety of chemical baths that it gets placed in. (Although the latter may
be harder to imagine.) Together they trigger the outcome. Love and life
likewise complement each other.
Donatas Anusauskas sent me video of a tennis ball floating in a gully.
And so then I made a video of the bottoms of the chairs where I teach, as
they are covered with tennis balls so they don't scratch the wooden
floors. It turns out Mario Torres used to play tennis in a wheel chair
and so I took some great video of him, he's an actor. And as he banged
two tennis balls together and talked about the world ending in nuclear
war, it seemed like those were planets in his hand. Or I rolled tennis
balls down the stairs and they might be "ideas" of some sort. Or I
videoed Zenonas Anusauskas through Skype and he pretended to catch and
throw. But this shows that our creative unconscious may help us think in
terms of our surroundings. I'm writing a novel in Lithuanian about two
students who switch their surroundings. As if a person may be identified
with their circumstances. Anyways, maybe the most good you can do is to
play, and then relate it back to what you care about, and support such a
In summary, how can a person do the most good? Answers include:
* Appreciate the good you have received, the gifts from beyond you, the
one who loves you more than you love yourself; recognize your God
* Accept God's benevolence; don't worry about the wrong problems
* Know everything; or simply, know absolutely, as best you can; and
ultimately, know as your God knows
* Take charge of your education
* Hold yourself to the highest standard of integrity and goodness
* Engage God, develop your relationship, your friendship
* Invest yourself in God, be willing to go down with him in flames
* Be true to yourself, your most basic beliefs, and shine
* Foster your self-discipline
* Work on small, practical problems, help others, learn rapidly
* Be excellent and let God and others worry about magnifying or scaling
* Live on the edge, or close to it, get comfortable there
* Appreciate our human condition as a guide to what we can wish for, above
and beyond what God wishes for, which is thus especially meaningful
* Play creatively with others
* Be sensitive and responsive to others' needs
* Be personal
* Be a leader and so open up opportunity for others
* Work towards a culture that bridges this world with the one beyond
It's very freeing to get to know others who are less fortunate and learn
how difficult or ineffective or hopeless it is to help them, but also, how
often they don't necessarily need that much, maybe simply moral support.
I feel it's important to help in small ways, but because I do, and because
I have, and because I'm aware of what it means to live in different
standards of living, I know that the abstract questions that I'm working
on are indeed what I should focus on. I suppose likewise in your case,
too. Your work with Seekers is very important and I think fruitful, too.
I'm growing stronger and I'm inclined to be more personal than I was in
Minciu Sodas. Your letter was very personal and allowed me to be
Bob, you're a leader and that opens up opportunity for others. That's
very important, to allow others to integrate around you, and build on your
work in their own way, even as you do what you yourself need to do. I
struggle with that.
I think your work is also part of building those bridges with the ideals,
the values, the activities that make sense in a world greater than this
one. If we can simply interact with each other as such a culture, then we
have done "enough" good.
I sometimes feel sad that we're all like stars that are accelerating away
from each other! and so a culture is impossible. But your letter makes me
> Hi again Andrius,------------------------
> Thanks for your questions. I was hoping for more in the
> way of answers. You yourself have done much good in your life,
> especially with your ingenious saving of lives in Africa in
> exchange for cell-phone minutes.
> But I will try to answer your questions for now.
> I am much hoping to find some sort of answer. Maybe I
> am looking for an easy way to do a lot.
> So far I have mostly worked with large and small community
> organizations. I have also helped out one-on-one in such areas
> as tutoring and clean-ups and volunteers, but I feel rather
> limited by this and hope to do more good. I have also
> tried to do good by my journal on the meaning of life.
> However, I do not get much feedback on this and the number of
> my subscribers is now pitiful after once being high.
> The results have been mixed. I did do some good for the
> area, but I also got much opposition, much of it needless or
> due to my inexperi- ence. I put in much time and did not make
> a big difference. However, then I did inspire some people to
> become active in their communities for years.
> All I can do is to think more about this and ask others.
> So far both have been dead-ends for the last few years.
> If I did find some answer, I would be overjoyed, but I
> would immediately try to think of ways to do more good for
> others for their sake.
> After two heart recent surgeries, I am recovering nicely at
> home finally. I hope all is well with you.
> Thank you for your question.
> Do you intend to find an answer?
> In your life, what tentative answer have you come up with so far?
> How has that worked for you?
> What is your plan for coming up with an answer?
> What would you do if you had an answer?
> Hi Andrius,
> Do you have any thoughts on how a person can do the most
> good with their life?