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FIC: Love Letters 04 - Big Bang (1/1) [PG-13] {L/R}

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    NOTE: Okay, the series is done. I had the end written, just not these little middle ones. If you re really impatient and don t want to wait for me to post them
    Message 1 of 1 , Sep 30, 2000
      NOTE: Okay, the series is done. I had the end written, just not these little
      middle ones. If you're really impatient and don't want to wait for me to
      post them all . . . go to http://www.diebin.com/xmen/loveletters.html
      They're all there. :)


      Title: Big Bang (1/1)
      Author: Diebin
      Email: diebin@...
      Series: Love Letters - http://www.diebin.com/xmen/loveletters.html
      Pairing: Logan/Rogue
      Rated: PG-13
      Summery: Logan finally explains some things.
      Archive: All lists
      Disclaimer: Not mine.


      February 28th
      Laughlin City, Canada

      Hey Marie,

      Well, I found myself back in the place where it all started. And being here
      I guess kinda made me think that maybe it was about time I say some things
      that are long overdue. I mean, I've been running around like my tail's on
      fire for almost a year . . . and I sat down today and tried to figure out
      what my excuse was.

      I know you're probably not going to like hearing it, because I know that no
      girls really like to hear this, but it's true. I didn't want to hurt you. I
      know a lot of people use that as an excuse to be a coward--but it was true,
      Marie. I didn't want to hurt you, but I did want to do things that were
      going to hurt you.

      I had to leave, Marie. I had to leave. I needed time to think, to get used
      to it, because my head wasn't very clear and although we would have tried,
      how long do you think it would have been before I was frustrated or
      distracted or just wasn't thinking, and slipped and kissed you? God, I know
      I can heal--it was so tempting. It was so tempting to stay and just touch
      you, little touches that wouldn't have hurt me in the beginning . . .

      It would have happened, and the touches would have gotten longer, and before
      we knew what was going on I would have been in your head again, or you in
      mine . . . or what I wanted most--I wanted your mind all linked with mine
      again. Because then I could have touched you, and everything else be damned.

      I would have died, Marie. So maybe I left so I wouldn't hurt me too.

      I know it's just going to piss you off more to hear it, but I had to say it.
      Because--because I'm getting tired of running, and I miss you, and I want to
      try. I want to try to be what you need me to be. I'll mess up some, but god
      Marie, just let me try.
      I understand you're probably going to need some time to think, so I'll just
      leave you alone for a month or so, just give you a chance to think it over.
      And just--try to understand, Marie. Try to understand how much I love you.

      And I promise. I promise--if we can work it out, I promise I won't ever run
      away from you again. I can't promise I won't leave once in a while, because
      sometimes I just need to. But I'll never run away.

      Do you understand what I'm offering you, Marie? I'll never run away again.

      I'm sorry I didn't manage to buy you anything this time, but I've spent the
      past week trying to decide if I should write this or not. But I need you,
      Marie, and I'll do anything you need me to if we can make it work, somehow.

      So--just think about it. And we'll talk sometime.

      Miss ya darling.



      Kitty was more than a little surprised to find Jubilee huddled in the
      hallway, her headphones on and her entire CD collection stacked next to her.

      The girl didn't seem to notice her, but when Kitty reached for their
      doorhandle, Jubilee's hand shot out and grabbed her leg. "I wouldn't."

      "Oh jeez." Leaning down and lifting one ear of Jubilee's headphones up,
      Kitty let out a sigh. "Let me guess. Package day?"

      Jubilee winced and Kitty jumped as something crashed into the door, followed
      by a string of curses that sounded like they were in german. "Package day,"
      Jubilee confirmed, putting an arm on her CD's protectively. "Minus the


      "I hope you don't have any breakables," Jubilee said cheerfully. "Cuz if you
      do, I suspect our lovely demure little roommate has probably broken them by

      Kitty rolled her eyes and dropped to the ground as Jubilee pulled her
      headphones down around her neck and tossed her hair back from her face.
      "What the hell did she get in the mail?"

      Jubilee shrugged. "Just a letter. I think Logan tried to get all touchy
      feely on her or something, though, and she's just pissed. I dunno, he
      probably pulled a guy thing and told her he left to protect her or

      Kitty sunk her head into her hands. "You think he's that stupid? He's
      supposed to know her, isn't he?"

      "He's a man," Jubilee replied with all the easy confidence of a teenager.
      "You know how they've got that thing about hurting us . . . like they should
      get to decide how our lives go based on what they think hurts us."

      Another shrill curse made both jump as something distinctly heavy struck the

      And then it jerked open, and Kitty scrambled out of the way as Rogue strode
      out, looking perfectly composed for someone who'd been hurling obscenities
      around a second before.

      "Men are idiots," she exclaimed by way of explanation when Kitty raised an
      eyebrow at her.

      "Oh." Jubilee shot Kitty a warning glance before she could say anything
      else, which was probably a good idea based on the glint in Rogue's eyes.

      Jubilee, however, didn't seem too excited to head her own advice. "So, no

      Rogue snarled. "I don't want to talk about it."

      "Good plan," Kitty cut in quickly, pinching Jubilee's arm and causing her
      mouth to snap shut before she could say anything else.

      "I'm going to see the baby," Rogue announced, the glint in her eyes daring
      anyone to comment.

      Her roommates kept very quiet.

      "Okay then." Still grinding her teeth, Rogue stalked off down the hallway,
      muttering to herself.

      "Think she's got the letter on her?" Jubilee whispered. "Or do you think

      "Jubilee!" Kitty tried to sound appalled. "We are not reading her private
      mail. And that is final."

      "Oh, c'mon." Standing, Jubilee gathered her CD's into her arms and wandered
      back into the room. "Don't you think we have a right to find out just how
      long she's going to be acting like this?"

      Kitty just snorted, but she had to admit--it was awful tempting.

      After all, someone had to look after Rogue until Logan got bored of playing
      footise with pen and paper and got his ass back where it belonged.


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