All In Your Mind
By Nadja Lee 1/31/03
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: X-men and all the characters here belong to Marvel, 20 Century Fox and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it.
Only the original idea contained within this work is the property of the author. Please do not copy this story to any website or archive without permission of the author.
Timeline: Set after the X-men movie.
Universe: Movie. ONLY movie! AU
Romance: Scott/Jean, Logan/Rogue
Summary: A mind is such a fragile thing to hold
.and it might be even more devastating to lose than a heart
8 continuing drabbles.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. My e-mail address is nadjalee@...
Warnings: Sadness, madness. Are drabbles cause for a warning? *G*
Authors notes: For Sorciere because this is her plotbunny. Love you, sweetie
Thanks much to Karen for great and very fast beta! *greatest hug*
Each drabble is exactly 100 words long.
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He smiles when she enters the room. He always smiles when shes near. She looks stunning today, he doesnt know the colours on her dress, but it suits her. Its a short summer dress, her hair is hanging loose and her eyes are smiling at him.
Jean, he smiles at her and kisses her before he takes her hand and guides her to the dinner table he had just left. He kisses the top of her head as she sits down before sitting across from her. For a long time he just looks at her, getting lost in her eyes.
He starts to tell her about his day and she listens interested, offers support in the right places. Then he asks about her day, and she tells him of her classes and hospital routines. He loves just to sit still and listen to her voice; it feels almost like a caress against his skin.
He finishes his meal and notices hers remains untouched. Concerned he asks if shes okay, she smiles and assures him shes just not hungry. He suggests a walk outside in the fine weather but she says she prefers to just stay inside and be near him.
He smiles happily at her.
I love you, he says softly with all his heart and he knows he has spoken no truer words. She completes him and makes him whole. Her presence is all around him, fills his every sense. Its like they share a common heart, mind and soul. Never has he felt so complete before.
She smiles warmly and says she loves him too. Warmth and love spreads through his body and he smiles. Everything is right with the world when shes near him. Everythings perfect when shes in his world.
Everything is like it should be.
Logan watches from the doorway to Scotts room and the scene that plays out before him. Pain and sympathy cuts through his heart. Hes not sure why he keeps coming by here. He has begun a new life, found a new love
found a home. Why torture himself with scenes from the past? A past he cant change and cant undo?
He hears her name, a name only Scott now speaks and he almost winces. Only he now speaks that name with that much joy and happiness
none of the others can bear to say it. It hurts way too much.
He knows he should go. Scott doesnt seem to notice him, but then he rarely does. Yet something in him makes him stay and look at the painful scene playing out before his eyes.
He remembers one time, right after it had happened, he had tried to reach Scott, had tried to speak to him but to no use.
Xavier had claimed this was better for him, but Logan wasnt sure. He wouldnt want this
he would have preferred the truth and somehow he thought Scott would too.
On the other hand, the truth is often painful and could be devastating.
lets go home. We can visit him some other time
this is one of his bad days, Rogue says and lays a gentle hand on Logans arm. He puts his arms around her and pulls her close as he kisses the top of her hair. Maybe thats why he comes here
to remind himself of how lucky he has been
how lucky he is to have found love like this.
Its all in his mind, Logan says and shakes his head with sadness as he turns to go.
Let him stay there
hes happy there; hes loved there. Outside it
hell break, Rogue says.
Logan knows shes right; they tried it once. The coldness became too much for him, the loss of her presence, her very being
He had become so used to always being with her, being a part of her that he no longer knew how not to be.
Logan shakes his head. Xavier could talk for hours about her greatness, but Xavier hadnt been the one she had given everything for and therefore had left Scott like this
that had been Logan.
Lets go home, darlin, Logan whispers and holds her hand. She knows how he feels and sensing his distress, hugs him.
He holds her close for a while.
I love you, he says softly and he knows he has spoken no truer words. She makes him whole. Never has he felt so complete before; he has found home.
And he wonders if thats what Scott feels and suddenly he understands why he cant let go because hes not sure he would be able to either.
With one last look at the man sitting alone by the table, an empty chair and an uneaten meal across from him, Logan walks with Rogue out of the room and out of the psychiatric hospital.