Fic: "Shes Gonna Make It" ( 1/1) PG-13 [Scott/Jean]
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By Nadja Lee 11/09/02
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: X-men and all the characters here belong to Marvel, 20 Century Fox and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it.
Disclaimer: Shes Gonna Make It was sung by Garth Brooks and belong to him, his record company and song writers and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it.
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Timeline: Set in the movie universe. After movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe; NOT the book which goes with it.
Summary: After Scott and Jeans break-up it becomes clear through Logan and Ororo that shes gonna make it while he never will.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. My e-mail address is nadjalee2000@...
Sequel/series: Part of Thoughts which includes Tears On My Cheeks, Who Needs You Anyway? and The Charm Of A Woman. This series doesnt have a continuing plotline but are stories written with the same flow and style. You therefore do not need to read the earlier stories, as they have nothing plotwise to do with this one.
Thanks to Estelle for the beta.
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Shes gonna make it; no question about that. Shes strong and confident. It was her choice to begin their relationship and it was her decision to end it. Yeah, shes gonna make it; I doubt he ever will.
She has strength, a will to carry on; she looks to the future and doesnt drawl on the past. She can pick up the pieces by herself; the broken pieces of her heart will not cut her up inside .no, theyll melt together and shell find someone new.
Sometimes I do catch a glimmer of sadness or pain in her eyes but then she stands up and blinks the tears she refuses to let fall away and gives me a beautiful smile. Shes strong, shell move on .never looking back. Yeah, shes gonna make it.
Shes a survivor but more than that; shes a fighter. She has fought most of her life; for her career and her status. She is used to having respect and full control over everything she touches. Shes the embodiment of a modern woman; strong, confident, smart, independent .alone by choice only until she wants someone but she can get by alone; shes strong she doesnt need anyone.
Looking at her you cant help but admire her, love her and want her but she wont let you catch her. Shes free and she enjoys her wings. Shes like a bird; you can only hold it in your hand for a short while then you have to let it go or youll strangle it. Shes the impossible dream you cant hold on to after the passing of dawn.
One day when shes ready shell settle down, shell do all the things she wants to but in her own sweet time. No one can hold her down or bind her. Shes free like the bird.
And thats why I know shes gonna make it.
It pains my heart but I know this for sure; hell never make it. First I was hopeful that time would heal a broken heart but now I see it wont. When you love too deeply and too much you end up being unable to let go.
A dream has ended but he cant find a new one to put in its place. Drawling on the past only increases his pain at the loss he has suffered. He hides his pain well, he always did but I see it, I know its there. Its alright to hurt but everyone needs to move on or the hurt will stay forever.
The fact that she manages so well without him only cuts him deeper. He thought he could bind her with his love that she would need him but now he sees he was the one who needed her.
His heart is like broken glass laying shattered on the floor, the pieces cut painfully into his flesh. Each memory is a new piece that cuts deeper. Broken hearts can heal if you let them, given enough time. Time he has but the will to do so Im not so sure about.
Strength is many things; often holding on is good but not now. Let go, just let go. Theres nothing else to do. Respect the choices she has made, honour the love she gave and then move on. Dont love this deeply ..no one loves this deeply these days .no one but he. No matter whom he would have chosen to lay his love on they would have let him down eventually because no one loves this deeply these days.
The passing of time and the changed seasons have helped a little, his pain isnt so clear anymore but I feel it all the same. I wish I could help him with his pain but its his pain to deal with; I have no right to tread there.
She hasnt changed, it wasnt her. He knew how she was and still he loved her; he loved her because of what she was. He loved her strength and her independence her freedom and her desire to fly free. But those are dangerous traits to love in another because it ended like it always must; she broke free and flew away and he was left with nothing but a broken heart. No, this isnt on her, it was never her fault. She never asked him to love this deeply. Its not on him either; he cant help but to love so completely; with all his being and all his soul but theres a reason why no one does that anymore .when you give your soul away be sure you can either get it back or get theirs in return. He never made any demands for either and so lost it all.
Shes strong, shes free so I know; shes gonna make it. He loved too deeply, he tried to put a wild bird in a cage but you can never tame a wild animal; theyll always long for the wild and always wish to fly free.
He gave it all with no way to get back what he gave; he cared too much, loved too deeply; gave too much .made a great gamble and he lost.
And thats why I know shes gonna make it .he never will.