Fic: "She's My Sin" PG-13 (1/1) [Scott/Kitty]
- Shes My Sin
By Nadja Lee 08/12/01
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: X-men and all the characters here belong to Marvel, 20 Century Fox and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it.
Only the original idea contained within this work is the property of the author. Please do not copy this story to any website or archive without permission of the author.
Timeline: Set in the movie universe. After the movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe; NOT the book which goes with it.
Summary: Scott thinks about Kitty and his feelings for her.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. My e-mail address is neh@....
Sequel/series: Comparison piece to More Than That. Part 3 in Forbidden Love series that started with More Than That followed by Tell Him.
Dedicated to Leah with love and thanks. And, of course, to Sorcieré. Youre *my* sin, babe, and I love you for it *G*
When I enter class and see her sitting there, smiling so sweetly at me, my heart starts to beat faster in my chest and I have to stop myself from going to her and take her in my arms.
I know I shouldnt feel this, I know its wrong but fact is Im in love with a student and not just any student, a minor. This is wrong. I shouldnt feel this. I try not to. Shes only 17 but to me shes the words most beautiful woman. Her eyes, her hair, her lips her image haunts my day and plagues my night.
She came to the school two years ago. I noticed her at once. Not just because of her beauty for she was beautiful even then but because of her golden heart. Ive never met a girl as sweet and caring as she. She seemed too good, too pure to be real. I feared to touch her in fear shell break like fragile crystal and disappear. But she didnt disappear. She stayed. She stayed . and I fell in love. I broke a teachers most sacred rule; never ever fall for a student.
I know its wrong, God, I know it but I cant help it. I cant stop my feelings. No matter what Ill always love her. Nothing can destroy that and nothing can change that. In class she shows her brilliance, her skills and every time she answers correctly I feel so proud. I give her top grades because in my classes, mathematics and physics, shes my best student. But even if she wasnt I doubt I could ever give her below a B. And I know thats why a teacher should never love a student.
I remember when Jean let her fail her class. I was furious. I talked with Kitty and she was so down and sad that it cut my heart like a knife had been stuck into it. I wanted to take her in my arms and comfort her. Instead I promptly left for Jeans office. I had to contain myself from blasting her door open as I entered and demanded an explanation. Jean had looked strangely at me and said she needed to know what she had to explain first. I told her she had let Kitty fail her class. I told her how brilliant, amazing and wonderful she was in so high tones that Jean had ached an eyebrow questionably at me. I hurried to end my complain by saying that she couldnt let Kitty fail. That I wouldnt allow it. Jean had looked shocked at me and icily told me it was none of my concern but since I insisted on being so annoying she would show me why she let her fail. And Jean showed me Kittys rapports. Jean teaches English literature and as I read through Kittys reports I saw that she suffers from severe dyslexia. I was sad that she had never told me, I was mad at Jean for failing her for it and inside I was glad to know this because that meant that Kitty would need me, really need me. Jean is a modern woman, she can do everything herself and though I praise myself for being a modern man I need a woman who needs me. I tried to argue on Kittys behalf but I could see that letting her pass would be unfair to the others and wouldnt help her. So I was forced to let it go.
Two years two years and my love for her have still not faded. I fear it never will. Loving her is the sweetest torture Ive ever experienced but I wouldnt give it up for anything in the world.
I know I shouldnt love her, shouldnt think of her, shouldnt desire her but I cant stop I try to but I cant. Ive made up my mind to break up with Jean. Its unfair to us both that we should stay together when my heart will always belong to another no matter how forbidden she is to me.
Its strange to think that someone so pure and innocent, so much an Angel in everything she does can be my greatest sin for my sin she is. Shes always on my mind and for her Ill go through Hell. For her Ill go to Hell. For her Ill break every commandment, every rule. For her Ill break my word, Ill lay down my life, Ill go through fire and ice there is nothing I wouldnt do for her.
I wish to tell her this. I long for her in my arms, I long for the taste of her sweet kisses. But I mustnt say anything. I mustnt let her know my feelings. She can never know. Never. If I told her shell feel obligated to say she returns my affections, shell feel trapped; pushed into something she doesnt wish for. And God knows Ill rather die than hurt her.
So she must never know.