Fic: "Dust In The Wind" (1/1) PG-13 [Logan/Rogue]
- Dust In The Wind
By Nadja Lee
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: X-men and all the characters here belong to Marvel, 20 Century
Fox and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I
make no money of it.
Disclaimer: Dust In The Wind was sung by Kansas and belong to them, their
record company and anyone else who was a part of its making. I intend no
infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan fiction, and I make no money of it.
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permission of the author.
Timeline: Set in the movie universe. Long after the movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe; NOT the book which goes with it.
Summary: Logan says his final farewell to the woman he loved.
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. My e-mail address is neh@p...
The rain is pouring down but I dont feel it. I dont feel anything anymore.
Nothing but pain and an agonizing emptiness. I knew this day would come, from
the moment I met her I knew well part one day but this day still came too
soon. Way too soon. I wasnt ready to loose her; I dont think I ever will be.
The world doesnt change much in almost 100 years. Wars is fought, battles lost
and won, people is being born and die nothing changes but names. Names and
She kept me together, together and sane. Wrapped in her love I was never lost
and always where I wanted to be. God, I miss her so much it hurts. I feel like
my heart is breaking into a million pieces; like glass being shattered on the
I close my eyes and for just a moment in time I think back; I remember.
Remember her laugher, her smile, her eyes always filled with love just for me,
her kindness and compassion . her innocence which stayed with her all through
All my dreams were with her. She was my dream now I have nothing left. Dust in
the wind. All whats left is dust in the wind.
If I could bring her back I would no matter the price. Ill do anything to just
hold her a moment longer just a few more seconds just one more kiss Please I
need her so much
Everywhere I go I see her; I remember. Any brown-haired girl I see I have to
look at her face to assure me it isnt my love. My beloved Marie. All I ever
did was for her. All for her. All I am, all Ive become is thanks to her. She
saved me, brought me home. Without her Im lost, drifting aimlessly at sea. A
ship without its captain, a star without its light. For she was my light .
she was the light of my heart.
If only if only . dreams doesnt buy her more time, nothing can do that
anymore, not even me, no matter how much I want to. I can defeat all; all but
the enemy who took her from me; Death. She is the only one I never could
defeat. Not for others anyway. Me? I live forever. I have to Goddamn live
forever! Without her. I can imagine no crueller torture. An eternity . without
her love. Lost, cold and alone.
I cry but the rain washes my tears away. Ive reached the edge of the bridge
Im walking on and take forth the small crystal jar, which is all Ive left
now. I can understand her reasons; all her adult life she was denied touch. I
never touched her save to heal her though I did steal a few kisses that sent me
So I understand why she wanted to be burned and not put in a coffin. Her skin
was her prison; she was already in a coffin. She wanted to feel something
against her skin, even the licking of flames. Now, theres only one thing left
to do . setting her free forever.
I . I cant. I cant let go. I know shes gone. Logically I know this but my
heart refuses to believe it. If not the doctors had held me back I wouldnt
have allowed them to burn her in the first place though I had given my word to
her that her wishes would be followed. But she had looked so peaceful. Like an
Angel asleep. How could I let them hurt her?
This agony I feel inside, this pain beyond belief which is tearing me apart .
is this the price of love? I should have known itd come to this. Pain; always
pain. Though for her .for her Ill take any pain, any agony shes worth
everything I have to give. My life, my soul, my heart, my love .I laid them all
in her hands, safe in her small gloved hands.
All my tears are nothing but drops in an endless sea. All my years are nothing
but seconds in an endless row of years, of eternities. If only she was here
with me to ease my pain and wipe away my tears. If only
I fall to my knees on the cold, wet ground and cry so hard I feel I shall die.
I double over and feel like Im choking. I cant still be alive. No one who
feels this much pain as I do can survive . yet I do.
I hug the crystal jar close to me and the rain and my tears make it shine. Like
if her light still shines on me even if just for a second. Gods, I miss her. I
miss her so much. Please please, bring her back to me please, I need her . I
love her so much. I dont know how to go on without her
No, don't hang on . Dont. Just let go. I have to let go. Nothing lasts forever
but the earth and sky. Everything is slipping away Dust in the wind. All we
are is dust in the wind
I force myself to my feet and lean over the edge of the bridge. Its really a
beautiful spot with trees, clear blue water and the mountains in the
background. Shell have loved it.
I fight tears as I force myself to open the lid on the crystal jar and dust
flies to the wind.
Farewell, beloved. Farewell. No one could have loved you more than I did than
Ill always do till my dying day and beyond.
Rest easy now, darlin. Find peace and wait for me to join you so I can keep
the promise I gave you so many years ago . Ill take care of you forever and
far longer than that.
As I leave the bridge dust flies in the wind.
Everything is dust in the wind.
Everything is dust in the wind.
"The old dreams were good dreams. They never became a reality but I liked them."
- ' The Bridges of Madison County'