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    Title: The One Sure Thing Author: Victoria P. [victoria_p@att.net] Summary: Response to Blyss s S/R/L love triangle challenge. Disclaimer: The X-Men are owned
    Message 1 of 1 , Feb 7, 2001
      Title: The One Sure Thing
      Author: Victoria P. [victoria_p@...]
      Summary: Response to Blyss's S/R/L love triangle challenge.
      Disclaimer: The X-Men are owned by Marvel Entertainment Group & 20th Century
      Fox. No infringement on any copyright is intended by the fan-written
      Rating: PG
      Archive: Just drop me a note to let me know.
      Feedback: The monkey is hungry! Feed the monkey!
      Notes: Listen to the song "Inconsolable" by Jonatha Brooke while you read. I
      was inspired by Diana's "Poison Ivy," which was a killer fic.

      Thanks to Pete, Jen, Meg, Dot -- you gusys (sic) are the best!


      The One Sure Thing


      When does a thought become a look? A look become a touch? A touch, a kiss?


      In the case of the girl, Rogue, a touch or a kiss was deadly. Under the
      right circumstances, a look could be deadly, too.

      He'd thought too much, then looked too long, and that's when the darkness
      came. He was convinced.

      Looking leads to touching -- brief caresses of her mahogany hair; the silky
      glide of silver over his fingers. The touch of a friend, a mentor, a
      confidante. Somehow, some way, it became the touch of a lover.


      She never guessed. A telepath, how could she have ever believed she'd be the
      last to know? Yet he hid from her his straying thoughts, the way ruby quartz
      hid his straying eyes.

      And the girl, Rogue... she had always been resentful, both attracted and
      repelled -- guilty looks from her were nothing new. She accepted them with a
      sigh, long ago learning that the girl's love for a man she herself had no
      interest in would always be a barrier between them. She never expected her
      own lover to be the one to breach the girl's defenses and steal a piece of
      her heart.

      She ignored his dreams -- the girl was beautiful, growing more so every day.
      We are not responsible for our dreams, she told herself. And so she never
      saw that sometimes, dreams hold the keys to waking life.


      The girl, Rogue. She had given her heart long ago, and had it handed back to
      her, broken, by his gruff refusal to see that she would be happy only so
      long as he was by her side. His will as adamant as the metal lining his
      bones, he told her she deserved more. He lied, told her he didn't love
      her -- looked her in the eye and *lied* -- for her own good.

      And Scott knew just how to make it better. He took her for long rides
      through the gently burnished woods that ran along the estate. He allowed her
      to talk his ear off, cry on his shoulder.


      When does a hug become an embrace? A brief touch evolve into a lingering

      How does a heart broken by one man suddenly find room for another, who will
      only break it further?


      The soft golden light of the autumn sun glinted off his ruby lenses. She
      wished she could see his eyes, wished she could know for sure when he pulled
      her into his arms that first time that it wasn't pity that drove him. She
      didn't want his pity. She wanted his lips -- yes, there, she thought, as he
      pressed them to her neck through her scarf. And then his warmth against her
      pale skin, skin that hadn't been touched in years.

      A brief caress that reassured her, of all the things he felt, pity wasn't
      one of them. Desire, need, fear, guilt. For her. All for her. Then he pulled
      away, aghast at what he'd done.

      The small betrayal that would lead to greater ones, as the days got shorter
      and the nights grew long.

      A brush of his hand down her lycra-clad back in the gym led to more than a
      kiss, bodies entwined against the lockers, both daring and furtive in their
      passion. Never exceeding the limitations imposed by her deadly skin; never
      moving beyond that last barrier that would qualify them, in her mind, as
      committing adultery.

      She recognized the lies even as she told them to herself. She recognized the
      truth that she was using him, using his burgeoning feelings for her, to keep
      from feeling sorry for herself, to replace the love she'd been denied.

      She told herself daily that there would be no more. This time she'd be
      strong enough to say no, and there would be no next time.

      He told himself he would avoid her. He was in love with Jean, a beautiful
      woman who had never strayed from him, even though he swore she sometimes
      dreamed of another. The man with the metal bones. The man who held the key
      to Rogue's heart, though he himself had managed to sneak in through the

      And not only did they betray the ones whose hearts they held, they forswore
      their vows to stay apart.

      Need, lust, fear, guilt. Thought, look, touch, kiss. A natural progression.


      And then they were discovered, undone. A simple thing -- a scarf left in the
      wrong place, smelling of his light cologne.

      For Scott and Jean, an argument, a confession, a penance. And finally, a
      wary reconciliation.

      For the girl, Rogue, a shamefaced apology, a full measure of self-loathing,
      a raft of regrets. And finally, a self-imposed exile.

      She held herself apart from everyone, nursing a heart now twice-broken.
      Scarred by her inability to resist and her loathing of the girl in the
      mirror, who could use a man's love for her to ruin his life, make him break
      every promise that made him who he was.


      And then the return.

      His senses attuned to the girl's every nuance -- sight, sound, touch, taste,
      smell -- especially smell -- he found her easily enough.

      In the woods.

      In the arms of her lover, the man who found need and lust and fear
      overwhelming love and honor and compassion for the first time in his life.

      And Rogue, who hated herself for letting him love her, resigned herself to
      losing once again the man whom she loved.

      A fight, a flash of metal, a spurt of blood, the screams of the girl on
      whose behalf it took place. Jean, the twice-betrayed wife, the doctor,
      staunching the flow of blood from her unfaithful husband's side. Saving his
      life as their marriage died.

      And Logan, no, Wolverine, the animal rage in control, grabbed the girl --
      his mate -- and looked into her dark, haunted eyes.

      He backed her up against a tree.


      "I love you," she whispered through tears. No fear, just the desire to have
      it all be over.

      "Why?" he demanded again, claws unsheathed and slashing the wood behind her.

      "You don't love me."

      His lie.

      "And he does."

      Her eyes dropped. "He does."

      "I do."

      His truth.

      "Still?" Fear, now.



      "Because I love you." Understanding lit the girl's haunted eyes. "But not
      now. And not here."


      "Someday. You'll know. You'll wait."

      "I'll wait."

      And he was gone, leaving her with one sure thing amid all the doubt and
      heartbreak she'd sown.


      Scott recovered physically. Jean left to start a new life.

      Rogue remained. She waited for the one sure thing. Alone.





      "Fool! said my muse to me, look in thy heart, and write." Sir Philip Sidney


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