FIC: On Bluffing and It's Consequences: NC-17: Rogue, R/L
- Title: On Bluffing and It's Consequences
Codes: Rogue, Logan/Rogue
Rating: NC-17 (yeah, what a surprise, right?)
Summary: Rogue gets challenged, Logan gets amused, everyone has more fun
than I'm having tonight and no actual X-Men were harmed in the writing of
Author Notes: It's two thirty in the morning, I couldn't go clubbing due
to bad roads, and I'm re-reading the divine Nancey. What the heck do you
think's gonna happen to me? Soo not my fault, no sir. Partially due to
Diane Bellomo, smut writer extraordinaire, who had an interesting
discussion with me on how unfair health class really is in explaining
exactly where everything is and how it all works. Edited when I got up at
noon (late night, bad jenn).
Archiving: list and if I've given permission before.
Disclaimer: Oh God, Marvel, you let them do this, I promise never to write
another fanfic for X-Men again, unless specifically inspired. They aren't
mine, never will be unless I win the lottery, so I get my kicks the way I
can. Don't sue.
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I had a lot of fantasies 'bout how it'd go the first time Logan touched me.
More'n I can count, to be honest. But somehow, I missed this one.
Him just walking in to my room.
I had my own by then. In the adult wing, sort of small but comfortable and
I liked how remote it was. Jubes and Kitty and Bobby were off at college,
and I stayed here and did my degree in the library and on the internet
every day. Which worked out fine. My control was good but still--puttin'
myself in that kind of position (read; interaction) on a day to day basis
didn't appeal to me and I just wasn't that fond of crowds. Leftover
paranoias from my glove-and-bodysuit days, no question.
Logan was home more than he wasn't these days. Which maybe could be
attributed to the increasing number of women wandering 'round the mansion,
and more than a few I knew he slept with, no question. I'm not an idiot
and I'm his friend, even if he never talked about it to me. And I never
brought up the subject--I'm not a masochist, after all.
So he comes in, as usual, around ten and plops down on my bed--like he owns
it (little does he know he has a permanent lease on the fantasy
rights)--and gives me a long look. So I turn around on my desk chair.
"Movie?" I asked and he shook his head, but absently, like he wasn't paying
much attention to my question. "Got a hot date? Lost? Need to sharpen the
"Lay off the claws, baby. I'm thinkin'."
"Must be difficult--you don't do it often."
He growls but not--well, his heart didn't really seem to be in it. Which
was weird, but Logan's odd--hostile is what we like to call his *good*
mood. So I sat back in my chair and waited for him to decide what he
wanted to do. Though truth be told, I wasn't in the mood for a movie.
"Whatcha doin', anyway?" he asked, and I glanced at my desk.
"Homework." That sounded pathetic. I know.
"On Friday?" He made it sound like a crime or something--come to think of
it, in LA, I think it is.
"You have a better idea?"
Apparently, that stumped him somewhat and I started putting my papers up in
the desk and turned around to see him watching me again with that weird
expression that was three parts curiosity and one part interest and one
part somethin' else. So's okay, Logan, whatcha want here, anyway?
"Doncha ever get bored?"
That was the definition of my life, as a matter of fact. And I guess my
look must have sort of conveyed the idea, because he grunted something and
rested both elbows on his knees and gave me this long, serious
glare--Logan's unique version of concern.
"You're alone too much."
"And that's why you stopped by? Keep me company?"
A hint of a smile--ooh, not a normal Logan characteristic, lemme tell you.
So I looked back at him and tapped my fingers on my desk. Then,
frustrated, I shook my head at him and turned back to finish putting up my
"Don't you have someone you just gotta nail? There's a new teacher--"
And a groan, which was really cute--Logan's reputation precedes him always
among the new people at the school. I'd seen her lookin' at him.
"Contrary to popular belief," a glare at me, which I smiled serenely for,
"I don't sleep with every woman I meet."
Except me, of course. Tell me another one, Logan. Unless he got voice
recordings of females in heat in his room, Logan didn't spend many nights
alone. Well, weekend nights, anyway. Well, okay, not recently. And with
him looking at me like that, I had pull up a defense and you know, I didn't
have one. Far's I can remember--damn, I hate to be wrong--it's been
Not that I'm gonna let me know I'm wrong. Girl's gotta have some pride.
"How long has it been since you've been laid?"
Logan's reaction wasn't exactly what I expected--no shock, no horror, no
embarrassment--oh yeah, he knows he's in my head and I got over feeling
delicate about the entire sex business a hell of a long time ago, about the
time I figured it wouldn't be in the near future I'd be getting any.
Circumstances changed--I could touch. But I didn't--mostly because datin'
a guy from school is like datin' my brother, and normal humans, as a rule,
are just a bit wary when they figure out the whole brain-sucking business
I'm capable of in the right circumstances.
"Why? You wanna rectify the situation or somethin'?"
Whoa. I blinked. And he grinned a little, leaning back on one elbow,
waiting for me to react. Back down. Do somethin' girly. Thinkin' he won.
Well, screw that. I stood up, giving him my most perfect smile, the smile
that can melt men at fifteen paces--so it's a look, don't touch kinda show,
I get my kicks where I can find 'em. Go figure.
"Sure. Got some condoms?"
A cocked eyebrow. Then reached under him, threw his wallet on the bed,
opened it up, and pulled out--three. Hmm...this wasn't goin' like I
thought. The gauntlet was damned well thrown and I set my teeth. No way
he was bluffin' me down--he damn well taught me to play poker and I've beat
him one game out of--er, thirty.
So I took two steps, dropped in his lap, and tried to look seductive. He
started laughing, damn him, laying back on the bed and fuck him, he was
just about dyin'. Bastard.
Better? I saw that in Basic Instinct (I think), thank you, and Michael
Douglas (Brad Pitt?) had that chick against a wall in less time than it
takes to spell Mississippi, so damn. Logan finally stopped laughing,
folded up his hands behind his head, and smirked.
So I thought it through--problem is, I only got male-perspective here on
how this goes, and Logan in my head wasn't exactly the pickiest guy on
earth when it came to pickin' up women. Frowned, then braced a hand on
either side of his shoulders, looked down at him. And you know, it's about
that time I realized he's gonna wait me out. He's really gonna wait for me
to back down. Ain't *no* way that was happening or my name's not Rogue. I
gotta name to live up to.
And he grinned up at me and I leaned down and kiss him. Hard. With
tongue, darn it, and wow, that was really fun. Made the whole notion of
basically exchanging saliva pretty understandable. But two hands braced on
my shoulders and levered me up. I won, yippee for Rogue, man-slayer
extraordinaire. And he probably saw it on my face, dirty bastard.
"That's not how you kiss, baby."
I wanted to remind him that I'd seen a hell of a lot of movies--and that
brief foray into porno besides--and that's exactly how it's supposed to go.
Ask Melanie Griffith.
"Okay," I told him, sitting up and crossing my arms over my chest. "You
taught me to kick the asses of half the muties at this school. You want it
done right, you can damn well show me how to do it."
"Works for me." And before I could really rethink the whole thing--okay,
so I wouldn't have rethought it much, that was *damned* fun, no
question--Logan sat up and took my wrists, pulling them down. I closed my
"Look at me."
"I thought you were supposed to keep your eyes closed." I was sure that's
how it went in the movies. Logan sighed--it's hilarious to see that, by
the way--and tilted my head up with one hand.
"Sure. Works like that. After you got a decent idea on trajectory, you
know. Don't wanna hit the ear or the nose or somethin', right?"
He had a good point. So I opened my eyes and he tilted my head a little,
leaned forward, and brushed his lips over mind. Softly. Once. And since
he seemed to be doing the actual trig calculations to make this thing
worked, I kept my eyes shut.
"Relax your mouth."
"What?" I opened my eyes and he shook his head. "You mean open it?"
"You're not tryin' to blow up a balloon, darlin'. Just relax--like you're
starin' at one of those boy bands you like so much."
Hmm. Seemed reasonable. I shut my eyes, relaxed my mouth--he didn't
complain so I guessed I got it right this time--and when he kissed me,
there was a brush of tongue across my lips, then just between. And I liked
that--wanted to do it again. Lifting my hand up, I slid my fingers over
his jaw and leaned forward--opened my eyes briefly to check the whole
trajectory thing, almost went cross-eyed, figured I was close enough--and
kissed him back. Tried what he did, heard an approving rumble of sorts,
and did it again. And I really liked it--I mean, let's face it, a couple
of billion teenagers across the world can't be wrong. Then he cupped my
face in both hands, tilting my head a little more, and pressed his tongue
between my lips and brushed across my teeth.
And wow, that was damned good. Something in me twisted a little at the
Movies helped. To get a good kiss in, teeth gotta move, I did know that
much. So I opened my mouth a little more and that was it, he had full
access and took advantage of it. Fingers slid in my hair, locking me in
place--no real necessity, maybe that was just to make sure I kept the right
position--and his tongue brushed mine, slowly traced the line of my
teeth--God, he was almost in my throat and I could hear myself making some
damned odd little sounds. Shifted a little closer, got an arm around his
back, and slid us straight together.
Oh yeah. This was fun.
After a way too short period of time, he pulled back, giving me this
slightly drugged look before the hazel all cleared up and he leaned back on
one arm. And all without meaning to, I pressed my fingers to my lips. So
*that* was what a kiss was supposed to be.
So I kissed Cody--yeah, I was sort of distracted by the
brain-sucking--oops, mutationally correct, 'life absorption' bit. Sort of
lost the point of the kiss when I started killin' him. So this was new.
Different. I liked it. So did he.
And he thought I was gonna just get up and declare the field his, after
that; I could read him like a book. Nope, sugar, I always win. Ask the
guys who are stupid enough to play board games with me.
"What next?" I crossed my arms and waited for him to stammer something and
push me off his lap. "Take off my shirt?"
"Aren't you supposed to do that?" I parried. Waited, watched him study me
again with that peculiar intensity. Oh, no Wolverine, buddy, you ain't
waitin' me out. You just pack up and go home--after another kiss, though.
Or two. My reward for winning.
But he levered himself up, fingers dropped to my shirt, and damned if he
didn't start unbuttoning the damned thing. When he got to my waist, he
glanced up at me, and I tried my most blase look, like men unbuttoned my
shirt every day and there wasn't nothin' to it. When he reached the end,
he took my wrists, raisin' them above my head, and slid it straight off and
tossed it behind me.
And I was getting sort of curious about this whole thing. So I looked down
at him and waited for him to back down. He grinned, sliding fingers in my
hair, kissed me--yeah, that was good, I knew I had to start doin' this more
often--and his other hand slid up and cupped my breast through my bra.
Oh *God* that felt good, and I leaned into it. Ran his thumb over the
nipple, reached behind me with one hand and undid the clasp--hey, I knew
how to do that, I was a real wonder at the late-night dorm parties--and let
it sink down to my elbows. So he was tryin' to see if mostly naked would
cut it. Nope, not me. I can beat him. I dropped my arms, let it fall in
my lap, picked it up casual as you please, and tossed it behind me.
And his mouth was doing odd things now to me--it was wet and hot and he was
pressing a little harder and the his tongue was a little more aggressive
and combined with his fingers on my breast--well, it was gettin' hard to
think. His hand slid to the back of my head, pressing even closer, and I
felt a sort of heat begin under my underwear, spreading up all over me. He
slid his hand to my other breast--and oh, God, that was good. And I moaned
something and he pulled his mouth back, giving me this satisfied smile.
Oh shit, I forgot. He's supposed to stop first.
"Aren't you wearing too many clothes?" That should get him. Damned well
should, telling him to commit to the moment and remove some significant
clothing. But all I got was a cocked eyebrow.
"Fix it." Then kissed me again--God, he's good at this--and I reached
between us, found the buttons on his shirt, began trying to get them
undone--but his fingers were moving in lazy circles around my nipple and
that and the whole kissing business was messing with my head big-time. So
I ripped a few. Several. All. He has lots of shirts, Xavier has a lot of
money, we'll survive. Using both hands, I got it down and off, found the
undershirt--is an undershirt the equivalent in underclothes to a woman's
bra?--and started lifting it up. He broke from my mouth to let me pull it
off, then slid an arm around my back and pulled me flat down on the bed on
top of him.
"What next?" he asked, giving me that lazy smile. Oh fuck--well, no, not
that, at least I didn't think so. We were in Foreplay Mode. So be it. I
thought it through, then slid my knee between his legs and ground down a
little. He groaned softly. "Good choice. I'll show you something else,
And they say lessons are boring. Bah, take one of Logan's classes on
With really practiced ease, he rolled me on my back, getting my legs apart
at the same time and making himself comfortable between them---and
God--that felt good, especially when he began a slow rocking that really
just did some things to all that warmth down there. Slid a hand into my
hair, kissed me again, and I got an arm around his back and pulled him
against me--tried to think how I should position my legs to get maximum
effect, before he moved his mouth down to my neck and there was this steady
growling that just made everything in me twist all in knots that were
really persistent in pointing out that this was something I should be doing
*a lot* more often.
He was licking all the skin in sight, then caught it between his teeth,
bearing down, which arched my spine up and hard and he growled even more,
hands dropping to my hips and he lifted his head.
"Just follow my lead." And then his mouth was doing all those lovely
things to my shoulder and I followed the directions of his hands, and
*damn* that did it all right. Got all those pesky female parts that only a
good mirror and some flexibility will ever let you actually see matched up
nicely with all those highly visible parts that men have. I heard myself
begin to moan and I reached down, grabbing a hold of his ass--hey, remember
whose memories I got here? My language use is obvious in that context--and
pressed him to me and he groaned something, sliding up to my ear, running
his tongue just inside.
"Like that, do you?"
Who wouldn't? Our species obviously had a good reason to want to procreate
so much. Before I could answer, he lifted his head, looking into my eyes.
"You'll like this too."
Then a slow slide down--not far, not enough to stop that nice rhythm we had
going on downstairs--and his mouth, very hot, very wet, very, very damned
nice--slid down my chest and to one breast. Circled the nipple with his
tongue, and yes, he was right, I did like that and decided that possibly
this rated right up there with the rocking and didn't want him stop either
one. One leg around his thigh secured the former--the latter was achieved
by sliding my hand down to his head and anchoring there.
He may have laughed against my skin, but damned if I cared.
It was delicious and all those hot feelings were jumping in intensity and
there was a burn in my jeans--too tight, too uncomfortable, and I was
getting the impression I could have some fun with less clothing southward.
I shifted my hips, not certain how I should achieve it without stopping
either of the two activities that were dragging out the damndest sounds
from me--and Logan, I've never heard him sound like that before either.
Sucked on one nipple--that was it, less in the area of denim we had to
have. I reached down, got to my waist, started undoing my jeans--not easy
as it sounds with most of that wonderfully hard, flat stomach blocking my
access--and Logan caught my hands and pinned them to the bed.
"Just a sec." Damn, he moved down, running his tongue over my bare
stomach, biting my waist--mmm, that was definitely nice--then dropped both
hands to my jeans, got my underwear at the same time, and pulled both off
in an extremely skilled motion that left my feet still in midair. Without
missing a beat, he ran both hands over my thighs, sliding my feet to the
bed, and pushed my legs apart.
"Relax," he said, and ran his fingers across my stomach, sliding them
oh-so-casually between my legs. "This'll be fun."
It was hot and white and utterly beyond belief good and--
"Oh *damn* Logan," I heard myself moan and shut my eyes tight, trying to
breath regularly. Before I could really take that in, I felt his hair
brush the inside of my thighs and something warm and wet and hard was
sliding over my entire--er, area. Then a finger slid inside of me and my
hips almost left the bed. "What--God, don't stop, sugar, please--are you
"You took health class," he murmured, then slid his tongue over a sensitive
spot that dragged a moan out of me and my heels dug into the bed, back
arching, which he really seemed to like, and that growl--oh fuck, that was
good. "Figure it out."
Well, yeah, I took health class--but lemme tell you, good ole Cyke didn't
cover any of this by a long-shot. I twisted underneath him when he brushed
it again, sliding a second finger inside of me, just twisting that heat all
up more. I started panting, heard myself say some really odd
things--"please, sugar, you're wonderful, keep it up, *damn* that's good,
that's sooo good, Logan, don't stop, don't fucking *stop*"--and since he
didn't seem interested in stopping, either because of my encouragement or
because he was getting a kick out of seeing me squirm, I left up to
interpretation. Behind my lids, everything was white hot and so damned
good I felt myself begin to shudder.
And I wanted more--bracing a hand on the bed, I reached down, catching his
free hand splayed on my stomach, got his attention. A questioning glance.
"You--you're wearing too many clothes," I finally managed, trying to keep
from whining. "Take em off."
"You got it." Logan, by the way, stripped it record time, dropping back on
the bed on top of me--good position, I got to do all that rhythmic rubbing
that was just--wow. And he kissed me, and the new taste sort of startled
me and he drew back.
"That's what I taste like?" I frowned, running my tongue over my lips. He
"I like it."
That was good to hear. I might wanna request a repeat performance later.
"What's next?" Though I was hoping the whole foreplay business was
upgrading--damn, movies just don't show how good this feels. Logan rubbed
against me again, kissed me hard enough to bruise my lips and I bit his
tongue, feeling that low growl that was doing as much as anything else to
make all those inner knots tighten. Without thinking about it, I reached
out and snagged a condom from its last known position--okay, so I groped a
little, Logan had a point about the whole seeing for trajectory thing--and
I slid both arms around him and opened it above his back, tossing the foil.
He plucked it from my hand, slid up to his knees, and I got a good look of
Well, it was interesting. Large, but generally like the movies. No
surprises there. And this part I knew--legs open, slide in, we're good to
go. But Logan, once the thing was on, simply leaned over and kissed me
again, sliding between my legs without any penetration at all, and I began
to grind against him, like he showed me, and he growled into my mouth.
"You ready?" he whispered against my lips and I nodded frantically, locking
an ankle behind his knee and trying to just force the issue along. "You've
never done this--"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know the drill," I panted. "Just do it, baby."
"That's enthusiasm for ya." And he kissed me again, bracing a hand beside
my shoulder, then lifted his head and looked into my eyes.
When he thrust into me--I thought I'd die. All that heat and twisting did
a major jump and everything went hot and starry in front of my eyes and I
bit down on my lip at the stretch--didn't hurt, but damn, I'm twenty, and
about a mile ahead of ready. A soft hand caressed my face and we stared at
each other and I could see the strain it was having on him to not move.
"Oh yeah." Oh *fucking* yeah, this was good. Better than good. Great.
Spectacular. Never been better in my fucking life. Slid a leg around his,
pressed him against me, drew his head down for a kiss. "Get to it."
"Good to know I got your support."
A slow slide out, then another thrust that I could almost feel in my throat
and I whimpered something, and he did it again. Slowly set up a rhythm
that matched very nicely the one used earlier--see how lessons build on
each other?--and rocked steadily into me.
All those knots tightened fast--so fast I was having trouble getting a
clear breath, could hear my heartbeat pounding in my ears, and locked an
arm around his neck while he revisited all that sensitive skin on my throat
and shoulders. Oooh, yeah, this was something I could do for the rest of
"Good girl," he murmured against my ear, biting it, then looked in my face
again. "That's it, Marie, baby, come on, you're close--"
Close? The building was increasing and my whole body ached with it, all
that heat and that tingle like an electric current between us and I stared
up at him, grinding up to hear him groan and whisper something against my
skin, and everything in me suddenly tightened amazingly--so good and so hot
and God, Logan--
"Logan, please, I'm--" I was beginning to shake and my nails anchored
themselves in his back. Logan growled, sliding a hand to my face, staring
in my eyes, teeth locked. "I'm--"
"Baby, let it happen, come on--you're so close, let me take you
there--that's it, honey, you've got it," a breath against my ear and I
couldn't look away from him while he held my face in place, watching every
reaction he dragged out of me, every moan. "That's it, Marie--" Another
convulsive shudder that he echoed and he sped up and everything went bright
white when my orgasm hit me out of nowhere, all heat and light and it just
took everything. "Yes, Marie!"
"Oh *God*, yes!" I heard myself scream, and Logan covered my mouth, taking
in whatever else I was going to say, and suddenly, he growled--a different
growl, deep in his chest, making my whole body react--and he thrust into me
once, hard and I felt him finally release.
We lay still for awhile, both breathing shakily, and I wrapped both arms
around Logan's back to keep him in place, slicked with sweat. But too
damned soon, he rolled off beside me, lifting his head on one hand and
giving me a lazy, replete smile.
I'd say so. Beat homework big time. Rolling on my side, I looked at him.
"Can we do it again?"
He cocked one eyebrow, giving my body a long look, heat flaring in his
"You won't be able to walk tomorrow."
"You can keep me company, then."
"I can handle that." And a slow, different smile, and he kissed me,
dragging me against him. Burying my head against his chest, I smiled to
myself, closing my eyes--
--oh fuck, he won. He didn't back down.
"You win," I mumbled, enjoying the feel of his skin against my cheek. I
could be pretty comfortable like this for awhile. Maybe a few years--were
we really needed as X-Men anytime soon?
"I called your bluff and you went through with it."
A pause and then fingers slid restlessly through my hair.
"Who said I wanted you to back down?"
I almost sat up, but his hand anchored me in place, and I drew a breath,
letting it out slowly. Thinking this through.
I thought some more.
A longer pause, and I was suddenly--suddenly worried, even with that nice
afterglow that was still making my bones liquid, and damn, what the hell
was I thinkin', askin' him that? But the slow stroking of my hair didn't
decrease and there was a long sigh.
"Because I figured I'd waited long enough."
I blinked, readjusted my thinking. Logan half sat up--keeping a grip on
me, like I was gonna go runnin' which was tempting except well, I *really*
wanted to try this again, no question--pulled the blankets out from under
us, got us both comfortably beneath, then drew me back down, sliding a hand
slowly down my bare back. Like a cat, I arched into it.
Then spoke, very softly, very sleepily, and very smugly.
"After all, I didn't wander up here at ten on a Friday night to play
That's when it hit me, and I did get myself up this time, stared down at
"You planned it." Looked into his face, didn't read anything contrary to
that, plopped back down--on his chest, of course, very comfortable--and
decided that all this thinking was just interfering and decided I'd worry
about it tomorrow.
"'Specially carrying condoms."
"You just like bein' prepared," I told him rebelliously.
A rumbling laugh.
"Go to sleep. You can twist your head around it later--maybe I'll wake you
up and show you a few more things. If you're interested."
More things? That was a damned good offer and I mumbled something, curling
down a little more, felt him draw the blanket over me, pulling me closer.
"Maybe we could do this regularly." Because I liked it. It was fun.
Really. Only reason.
"I could live with that."
I paused, considered.
"Maybe--not with anyone else. At all." Because that would just be weird,
you know? Only reason. Weird.
"Good idea. I'm for that."
Hmmm. And I was getting sleepy and that lovely throbbing in my groin was
fading softly, leaving all this contentment behind and the fingers stroking
my hair were leading me down a path to comfortable warm darkness. I
struggled a little against it--I'm a fan of clarification.
"Anyone else at all."
Almost there-couldn't keep my eyes open, and I felt his lips brush my hair,
A soft, exasperated sigh, and his hand slid across my cheek.
"Baby, yes. Regularly, no one else, and shit, Marie, you can be dense, you
need it spelled out?" A pause, a soft laugh that rumbled through him and
opened my eyes wide. "Rest up. You're gonna need it. I'll spell it out
when you wake up. Small words. You're a smart girl, you'll figure it
And you know, I could live with that too. Letting my eyes close, I drifted
--When I watch that scene I do not think "Oh, he's such a good father