Fic: " Losing You" (1/7) till ( 7/7) PG-13 [ Scott/Jean, Rogue/Logan, Storm/ Logan (Scott/Rogue)] REPOSTING!
It has been brought to my attention that the descriptions of the pairings
in this story was inadequate. Therefor here it is again with all the
pairings I could find ( well, almost). Im sorry for any misunderstanding the
bad pairing descriptions may have given.
Im very sorry for the reposing.
Warning: Character Death!
Thanks to Christina. Sorry, I forgot it before.
It is my birthday so don´t expect new fics till Sunday. Sorry.
Hope you enjoy Losing you
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Losing You By Nadja Lee 24/11/00
English is not my native language. Please forgive me my mistakes.
Disclaimer: X-men and all the characters here belong to Marvel , 20
Century Fox and I intend no infringement, this is a piece of amateur fan
fiction, and I make no money of it.
Only the original idea contained within this work is the property of the
author. Please do not copy this story to any website or archive without
permission of the author.
Timeline: Set after the movie
Universe: Set in the movie universe. Only the movie NOT the book that goes
Pairing: Scott/Jean, Slight Logan/Rogue, Slight Logan/Storm
Summary: Sabretooth takes Jean and Rogue prisoners and forces Scott to
choose who is to live- Jean or Rogue?
Archiving: Want, ASK, take, have.
Feedback: Yes, please. My e-mail address is neh@....
Dedicated to: My sisters favourite show, Angel. Hope you like!
Authors note: One of my first tries at a action story. Please, please
be gentle with me. Also please note that this story is in no way connected
with "Touching you", Holding you , "Needing You" or
Warning: Character Death!
Thanks to Christina for the Beta.
*mmmm * is telepathically thoughts spoken in the mind. mmmmm is
spoken out loud.
Im going to the mall to get a few things we need. You want to come? Jean asked Rogue as she saw her sitting alone in the kitchen this
Saturday morning. It was still early, 0832, so many in the Mansion wasnt up
yet. Jean was surprised that Rogue was awake considering that the students
had held a party last night which had lasted till way past 0300. Poor
Scott. He had been babysitting on the party and had first got to bed at 0500
after clean up. When Jean had awoken at 0800, Scott had grunted sleepily at
her and gone back to sleep.
Sure Rogue answered and got her cape. It had been a little over a
month since her ordeal at the Statue and to her joy Logan had returned last
night. Really bad timing with the party and all, something that Scott also
had complained about but he had been as happy to see their friend as the
rest of them. Maybe more since Logan had bought his beloved motorcycle back.
She had tried to fit in with the other students at the school but it was
hard. Scott had talked with them and explained her mutation for them, saying
they should be kind to her as he hadnt missed that almost all had
avoided her since she had touched Logan in his room. Kitty had been the first to
approach her since then and after that the other students had soon
followed. She had tried to opened up to the teachers but Logan´s distaste in
authorities which still sat in her, made it difficult. Especially with Scott.
Through Logan´s feelings she knew he didnt hate the other man, but
disagreed heavily on his methods and visa versa. She wished she had the courage
to approach Scott and talk with him to get to know him better. She
sometimes felt like he had built a prison up around himself through his inability
to really see other people. Sometimes she thought she saw the real Scott,
afraid to be alone, so desperate to be loved and yet so strong and
self-sacrificing, the latter two qualities he displayed time and time again on
missions and in his daily life.
Here we are, Jean said and parked the car. So early where they that
there were no others near by. Rogue liked Jean, but maybe that was a
leftover from Logan as well as she hardly knew the woman. Rogue and Jean existed
the car and walked towards the mall, through the large parking place.
Suddenly Jean stopped. Rogue stopped too and looked puzzled at her.
Someones here. Someone with hate on their mind. Hate and Her
eyes winded. murder!
What? Where??? Rogue asked confused and looked around. All she saw
was a old woman coming towards them, her steeps unsure. Her??? Rogue
asked disbelieving and nodded to the old woman.
No, but close by Jean whispered to Rogue as she scanned the area.
She still wasnt very trained in using her telepathical powers so it was
hard for her to locate the source of the thoughts and feelings she was
Can you help a old woman to the entrance, child? The woman asked
pleasantly to Rogue, her hand shaking as she pointed to the entrance.
Rogues eyes softened. She missed her own grandmother at home. She hadnt seen
her since all this started.
Of cause. Here, let me guide you. Rogue offered the woman her arm
which she gratefully took and they started walking towards the mall.
* Something is not right. Stay alert * Jeans voice rang in Rogues
* What can she do? Hit me with her cane?* Rogue thought back a little
amused. She had barely thought it before she felt a familiar sting in her back
and as she lost consciousness and fell down she thought, hoping Jean would
* Like Magneto did .Its a trap get .away...warn ..* As before
she almost immediately lost consciousness.
Rogue! Jean yelled as she saw her fall down and heard her thoughts.
Before her eyes the old woman transformed into a beautiful blue woman.
Mystique! Jean hissed and used her telekinesis to tear up a lamp
and throw it towards the other woman. Mystique neatly docked it and came at
her. Jean involuntary backed away and right into Sabretooth`s arms.
I always wanted a redhead! He growled.
* Professor, hear me! We are in trouble. Help us. Sabretooth . She
had been so concerned about what Sabretooth might do that she had overlooked
Mystique who gave her the same injection in the back as Rogue. She promptly
Jean!!! No!!!! Scott yelled and sat up in bed. Through their mental
link he had heard her plea to the Professor. He jumped out of bed, quickly
dressed and ran to the Professors office. His heart was pumping in fear
for Jean and his thoughts and feelings were in turmoil. Let her be ok.
Please let her be ok, he prayed as he ran through the corridors and into
I know, Scott. I have already checked on Magneto. Hes still in
prison so that means that Sabretooth and whoever he might have with him is
operating on their own. The older man looked sadly and concerned at Scott. And that is not a good thing. Eric Magneto has a sense of control
and a sense of honour.. As always when the Professor talked about Magneto,
his former friend and now enemy, his voice and eyes softened. but
Sabretooth has neither. He kills for the trill of it.
Have you been able to locate them? Scott asked concerned. He needed
to do something, anything to try and save her. He had to save her. He had
They are moving around right now so Cerebro cant pinpoint their
exact location When they stop I can find them.
Where is Marie??? Logan asked dangerously, his claws at the ready
as he burst into the office.
She was kidnapped, together with Jean Xavier said calmly, not the
least afraid of Logan´s eagerness to fight.
And what You sit around here and do nothing??? Your girlfriend is
gone as well. Logan yelled angrily at Scott.
I know that. Dont you think I know that? Scott yelled back,
anguish in his voice.
Stop this childish behaviour at once! It will not bring them back,
Xavier said sternly. Scott immediately backed down while Logan still stared
angrily at them. I cant locate them until they stand still. I´ll The phone ran in that moment and Logan growled in frustration.
Professor Xavier speaking. Charles said as he answered it and following
his telepathic impulses, put it on speakers.
Hey, Prof. If you want your girls back I suggest you tell your X-men
to meet me at Claremont Bridge tonight at five. Oh, and tell Cyclops hes
not to worry about his little lady. I´ll take good care of her. Real
good. Ha ha ha Still laughing, Sabretooth hung up.
You basted. You just keep your filthy hands of her, you hear? Scott
yelled furiously and Logan had to hold him back if not he was to smash the
intercom and phone system in rage.
Cool down, Cyke. He cant hear you. Logan said and as Scott
regained control, released him. Logan looked at the clock. Six hours and
counting. It was going to be a Hell of a day and the night didnt promise any
better. He just prayed Marie was ok.
Stay together Cyclops said as he, Storm and Wolverine began to walk
down the bridge. Fortunately, or not, depending on ones point of view, the
bridge was closed for repair so everything seemed quit.
I dont like this Storm said concerned and covered her and her
team-mates in a cloud of fog as Cyclops had asked her to.
I can smell something Logan said and they all stopped.
What? Cyclops asked concerned.
Fear, the word had barely escaped Logan´s lips before a terrible
sight meet them; In one of the towers of the bridge, they saw Jean and
Rogue. They were hung up by the hands on either side of one of the posts, up in
top of one tower. Should they fall, theyll fall several m´s down and
get killed on impact as they touched the water. They both seemed unhurt but
they were gagged so couldnt tell if it was true.
What do you think, great leader? Not bad, is it? Sabretooth said
with a leer as he amerced from the shadows.
Sabretooth! Cut them down. Now! Cyclops demanded angrily, hiding
his fear for their safety in a more known emotion; hate. Storm and Wolverine
stood on either site of him, Logan with his clews at the ready and Storm
ready to summon any of the forces of nature on Cyclops` signal.
Cant do that. You see, the handcuffs they are shall we say
special? First of all they cant be forcefully opened, they are made of the
same metal as Wolverines claws so even him cant cut through them.
He explained with a evil smile. He looked lustfully at Storm who backed a
step away from him. Not even Silver Top here can cut through them with
her lightning and neither can you, he nodded to Cyclops who had his right
hand at the controls of his visor.
What do you want? Cyclops asked coldly.
What do I want? Her He nodded to Storm.
Forget it, bub Logan said dangerously and moved to stand
protectively in front of the beautiful Goddess. Sabretooth laughed at his protective
but also possessive action.
You cant have her! Cyclops said determined.
Thats enough. This wasnt the plan. Mystique said as she came
forth from the shadows and looked with murder in her eyes at Logan.
Arent you dead? Logan said irritated. He hated having to do the
same job twice.
Well, I can fix that real quick Logan growled and jumped at her.
Logan, dont Cyclops said but too late. The two of them were
already locked in hand to hand combat.
Stop, or I`ll let one drop! Sabretooth threatened and held up a
hand held control panel. Logan drew away from Mystique who gave him a smile
for her victory.
Youre bluffing! Logan stated but drew back to stand besides
No, Im not. The handcuffs on the women can only be released by this
panel. But . He glanced with malice in his eyes at Cyclops. ..only
one of them can drop. When one fall the other will be locked in place and
cant fall. The one whos alive can be brought down by any of you as
the metal releases it hold on her.
What are you saying? Cyclops asked shocked, hoping to be wrong. Was
Its real simple. Who has always prevented Eric from succeeding? The
X-men. Who leads the X-men? Cyclops. Kill the leader and a new raises in
his place. Break the leader and you break the team. Mystique explained
simply. She saw the X-mens distress written in their faces. Oh, we
arent that cruel. Well even let you choose. So, whos it to be,
Cyclops? One dies and one lives. You decide.
God damn it! You cant do this Cyclops yelled frustrated. They
couldnt ask this of him. They just couldnt.
Of cause we can always let Sabretooth decide and then fight over the
life of the other one but shell be an afoul easy target up there and as
you can see Mystique nodded behind her as man came flying and landed
beside her we have a ally who can do the job very fast. Want to see
wholl get to her first? Storm or Michael here. She nodded to the young
mutant who had just landed.
Dont do this. Cyclops said pained and Storm heard something in
his voice she had never heard before; pleading.
Tick-tock Better think fast, hero. Sabretooth isnt the most
patient of men. Mystique taunted.
Why you Logan began furiously and advanced at her.
Ah ha, I wouldnt do that if I was you. No matter how fast you are
I can still push the button and one will fall. Sabretooth warned and
Logan backed down. He looked at Cyclops for ideas for he had none and saw the
other mans distress written in his position and tightening of his jaw.
Jean or Marie. He was glad he wasnt forced to choose. But if he where he
knew what he would choose. Marie. She was like the daughter he had never
had and he would die, kill or let anyone be killed for her. Even Dr. Jean
Grey who he was fond of. In time his desire for her could even have turned
Scott felt like he was in the middle of the worst nightmare of his life.
This was too much. They couldnt ask this of him. They just couldnt.
How would he ever be able to live with himself, knowing he had killed a
person? On the other hand it was better to save one than loose both. Forbidden
thoughts came to his mind. I love Jean and I barely know Marie. Jean is 33
and have lived a good life while Marie is just a child of 17 with her whole
life in front of her. Jean has a family and the prospect of a good future
with children while Marie has no family wholl claim her and she will
never have children as none can touch her. Jean is an X-man and fights for the
cause while Marie is a student whose powers we cant use in a fight as
shell get as affected by the person she absorbs as he will be wounded by
her hands. I love Jean. I need Jean. If I choose Jean, Marie will die and
Logan will hate me if not outright kill me in rage. If I choose Marie, I`ll
never be able to live with myself again. All those thoughts ran through
Scotts brain in under a minute and he came to one conclusion; he couldnt
choose. No matter which choice he made, hell regret it. He now saw how
smart this set-up really was; no matter what he said, if he made a choice or
not, one would die and it would be his fault.
Decide hero. Times running out Mystique said hardly. Scott
looked desperately at Storm and Logan, hoping they had a plan or some way out of
this that he hadnt thought of.
I sorry, my friend. I cant help you this time, Storm admitted
sadly, tears coming to her eyes as she knew as he did that no matter what,
they would loose a friend tonight. Scott looked at Logan.
I .Choose Marie! Logan grunted pained. He didnt want Jean to
die yet he wanted Marie to live. He had made tough decisions in his life yet
none as hard as the one Scott was facing; Save your lover and kill a
student or kill your lover and save a student.
* Scott, are you ok?* Jeans mental voice came weak through his chaotic
* Jean! Oh, dear God. Thank Heavens. Are you ok? I I dont know what
to do. Help me.* His thoughts flew to her over the distance between them.
* Open your mind to me. Itll be faster for me to know what is happening
that way.* Just hearing her voice again brought some sense of peace to
him. He did as she asked and let her mental fingers gently probed his mind. He
felt her shook and fear as she understood their situation.
* We both know what you must do.* Jeans voice came to him but she had
cut their report off. He couldnt read her feelings yet she could read his.
* I cant choose! Dont ask it of me.* Scott thought desperately.
* I´ll never do that, love. Never. Thats why I have chosen for you.*
It took Scott a few seconds to realise what she meant.
* No!!! Jean, dont do it. I need you. I love you. Dont leave me.*
She read his sadness and anguish and he felt her melancholic smile.
* I have to, dont you see? She deserves so much from life. I have felt
and seen all I wished to see. I have found you. I found my one true love.
She has yet to do that.* With her thought came a sense of love, sadness and
acceptance of her fate.
* Dont. Please dont* Scott begged desperately.
* Im sorry.* She thought sadly and Scott raised his eyes to look at
her. The others did the same and Jean undid her handcuffs with her telekinetic
powers and started to fall to the ground with great speed, knowing that
Marie was now safe.
* Noooo!* Scott screamed mentally and physically and ran to the side
of the bridge. Storm started to fly to Jeans aid but Michael interfered
and they started to fight. Logan jumped at Sabretooth and seemed a light
* Jean, please .I love you.* Scott thought and saw that she was falling
into the ocean. If it had been hard ground he might have been able to
soften her fall with his eye beams but not in water. With her speed she would
hit the water like it was concrete.
* Scott, open your eyes and look at me. Really look at me.* Jean sent to
him and this time he felt fear and sadness from her. Her mental control was
slipping. If only she had been more trained then she might have been able
to levitate herself down.
* No!!! I cant do that*
* Scott, Im going to die. At least let me decide how to go. Do this.
For me.* Jean sent to him, her panic growing as she neared the water.
* Nooo!* Scott sent in anguish. He couldnt do what she asked. He couldnt kill her. He looked over the railing and so wished for a miracle. He
saw Storm and Michael fight but he couldnt shoot Michael with his deadly
blasts without wounding, maybe killing Storm as well.
* Love, I dont want to die like this. Let me die with you. As a part of
you. Itll be fast and painless.* Even as she sent the thought Scott
sensed her doubt.
* I I cant.* Scott thought pained, tears running down his face. A
mental command was said and Scotts visor was torn off. He immediately
closed his eyes.
* Dont do this, Jean. Dont let me do this* He begged even as he felt
his mind weakening under her mental demand.
* Im sorry, Scott. Im afraid. This way will be less .painful.*
Even her mental voice held tears.
* Dont * He felt himself slipping and even as he fought her he knew
he was loosing. Against his will his eyes was forced opened and he could see
her fall again. The next minutes ran as in slow-motion for Scott. He saw
and felt the energy leaving his eyes and run down towards Jeans falling
* I love you, Scott. Please forgive me for this.* Jean sent softly.
* I forgive you. I love you so much. I I cant do this without you*
Scotts unhappy thoughts reached her and she sent a last wave of love
through their link to him.
* I´ll love you. Always*
* And I you.* Scott thought and saw his energy beam nearing her.
* Dont leave me!* He yelled mentally and psychically in anguish
but it was too late. His blasts reached her and Scott doubled over on the
ground in pain as their link was totally opened as she lost control and so
transmitted her feelings to him. The pain was intense but left quickly.
* Love .You* Her thoughts, the last she had thought on this world,
reached him a few minutes after her form disappeared in a blaze of fire.
* Dont leave me,* he thought miserably but it was too late. Where her
loving presence had always been in his mind there was only emptiness. A
emptiness so cold it drove him to the edge of madness.
* Jean* He yelled so loud he was sure every telepath and person in a
100 miles radius had heard him. He hung his head in defeat. She was truly
gone. He had killed her. He had killed the only woman the only person who
had truly loved him.
Scott Scott help me with Marie! Storms voice brought him out
of the darkness of his mind and he slowly got up from the ground. Looking
with his hands he found his visor and put it on. He saw Storm coming with
Marie in her arms and when Storm landed, took the frightened young woman from
her arms and guided her to the side. He wished he felt something in that
moment but he didnt. He just felt...empty as if the reality of it all had
yet to hit him. He saw that Michael was out cold, probably from Storms
lightning bolts. Logan still had trouble with Sabretooth as they were
equally strong and both had healing factor.
Logan, move away from him. Now! Scott commanded as a ice-cold rage
took him. Logan moved away from Sabretooth and Scott came towards him, his
visor glowing a dangerous red.
Was this your idea? Scott asked, his voice so cold and hard that
Storm barely recognised it.
Yes, I Sabretooth began but never got to say anything else. A
beam of red energy set on full intensity burned him to a crisp.
Ahhhhhhh Sabretooth cried out in agony as he burned up. A terrible
silence fell over the battlefield as he was gone, nothing but ashes to the
That was for Jean. Scott said lowly, but his voice held no emotions.
Scott! By the Light of the Goddess, what have you done? Ororo
Victor!! Mystique cried and looked ready to jump at Scott.
Go ahead, I`ll blast you down where you stand. Scott said coldly
and Mystique drew back from the venom in his voice. She turned into a strong
man and carried Michael away from the scene.
I`ll be back to avenge Victor. She promised as she went away.
Try and you die. Scott promised with just as much certainty as she
had uttered her threat. When the four X-men where alone, Rogue nestled
against Logan´s chest, crying, and Storm and Logan looked troubled at Scott,
a unnatural stillness fell over the bridge.
Scott, is Jean . Storm began softly. Scott looked at her, his
emotions as unreadable as ever.
Shes ..gone. Shes gone. It was as if he came out from a trace
and tears started to run down his cheeks.
Shes truly gone. He sank to his knees on the bridge and cried
for the first time in as long as he could remember. He felt like his world
was crumbling and his heart was breaking in a million pieces.
Scott Summers sat in his office Saturday night a little over two. This
morning he had been too tired to talk to Jean and now she was no more. His
grip around his Bourbon glass tightened and his eyes began to water again. Oh,
Jean. Why did you have to leave me all alone again? He tried to picture
her for him; her eyes, her hair, her face but all he saw was himself blasting
her, killing her. With a suddenness which surprised even himself he threw
the glass against the wall and it broke in a 1000 pieces reminding him of
the way his heart felt right now. He picked up a picture of Jean standing on
his desk. She was smiling at him, looking so happy and trustful. And he
had betrayed that trust. He had killed the light in her eyes. Him and only
him. He let himself sink to the floor of the office and cried. Cried so hard,
he thought he should die. The moon bathed him in its silver light through
the office window, and from a distance it looked like he was praying which
he might was. Praying to get Jean back or praying to join her, no one knew.
Soon the stars gave way for the sunlight but this morning brought no
warmth and no light to Scotts life for his heart was dead and his life was
empty. He was alone. Alone and cold.
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