"2 Corinthians 12:9 - Part 1" by Joseph Y. Lee
- 2 Corinthians 12:9
"My Missions Trip to East Asia 2002"
By Joseph Yosuk Lee
"Young Adult Life"
It was May of 2001 when I lost my job as an electrical
engineer in Silicon Valley. It was a huge disappointment.
They did not tell me why I was laid off. I had made many
friends at Chrontel. I thought that God could use me to
speak about my faith to my Chinese friends at Chrontel,
but the Lord took my job away. I did not understand why
I lost my job. I really felt that I could do some
serious engineering work at Chrontel before I was laid
off. I thought it was a mistake on part of Chrontel to
lay me off when they had trained me to be a competent
engineer. They just told me that I worked hard, I was
a nice person, and I was a good physicist.
I lost tremendous confidence in my abilities as an
electrical engineer. At the time, I was having a number
of interviews all over Silicon Valley. I received tons
of phone calls from recruiters and human resources, and
yet I was not able to land myself a job. Silicon Valley
was having a recession during the middle of the year
2001. People were getting laid off left and right. I
knew six brothers at KCPC (Korean Central Presbyterian
Church) in San Francisco who lost their jobs. Young
Adult Ministry in Silicon Valley was having enough
problems just to find enough time to come to church.
And then they all had to struggle further to keep their
jobs. So I prayed to the Lord that all of the Young
Adults at KCPC who lost their jobs would find another
job. Thus, the Lord answered my prayers, and they all
found new jobs. I praised the Lord when all of my
friends found other jobs.
After I got rejected at a number of interviews, I
started to pray to God honestly and yelled in my anger
and frustration. I was dumping all of my problems and
frustrations onto our Lord.
"Lord, I am sick and tired of praying to You! I am
tired of praying to You for every detail of my life!
Why can’t You provide all of my needs so that I do
not have to pray to You every time?! I am so
frustrated with You, Lord! I am so tired of prayer!
I felt like I have to pray to You because I know
that I am weak and pitiful! Can You let me stop
praying to You for every detail of my life! Why
can’t You leave me alone?! Why can’t You save my
father?! I am tired praying to You and am begging
You to show mercy on me!"
It was the end of August of 2001. I was going to
have an interview with Boeing in Southern California.
I really did not want to leave KCPC when the Boeing
job would be located in Southern California, and I
dumped all of my frustrations on the Lord again. I
did not want to move down to Southern California,
when I was starting to make some friends at KCPC.
Even though I wanted to stay at KCPC, I prayed to
the Lord that He would help me get the job at Boeing.
Boeing was kind enough to rent a car for me from LAX
for the interview. As I drove from LAX to Irvine, I
wanted to see a sister in Christ who was a good
friend to me. She is not a Korean or a Korean-
American. Initially, I did not want a romantic
relationship with her, as I had prayed for a Korean-
speaking and English-speaking Christian wife. We had
coffee together, and she was a good friend. She always
remembered my birthday while other brothers have
forgotten my own. I have decided not to care whether
anyone remembers my birthday. I really did like her
as a friend. After we chatted for an hour at the
coffee shop at Irvine Marketplace, I went back to
my grandmother’s home at Irvine. I slept for many
hours before I had my interview with Boeing.
It was a 6 to 7 hour interview. I was exhausted by
the end of the 6th hour. It was a long and tough
process. I used up so much of my energy trying to
prove to the people at Boeing that I should get
the job. I wanted to do my best during the interview,
as I knew Pastor Ryan Kim had prayed so hard for me.
I also wanted to be a good witness to my non-
Christian father and mother by acting responsibly
in terms of finding a job and being able to support
myself. After the interview was over, I was relieved
and drove directly to LAX to come home to San Jose.
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