I was just reading a recent thread, which mentions issues like, why
consider liber al to be a tome to be adhered to; or some other
discussion about the varied value of the OTo to exist. I dont want to
mention names. If I start replying to lots of threads, I sound like
a know it all. I sure want to avoid that as my progress has revealed
to me how much I dont know.
All I can say is, many still need some sort of authority to tell them
what to do. This is understandable since change is scary and everyone
needs a helping hand now and then as well at different stages of life.
What most seem to not get is that Crowley wanted each person to
develop their OWN GNOSIS, not follow him or anything else.
I believe this is stated clearly through his works.
sure liber al looks like a rebelion against xianity as he knew it;
goddess knows what he railed against is the basis of the american
puritan based culture. but the same principles would apply to any
enforced oppressive regime/set of enforced rules/laws, no matter who
purports them or what scope of life it is in.
corporate culture and popular culture included.
Now I have been in the OTO for 19 years and yes bubba and his old
lady do come and go in different forms. but are they not valuable
becasue they teach us the way things are and the need for the idea of
Thelema to spread?
Now I sound to some like a dyed in the wool adherent.
I assure I have developed my own gnosis on my own terms even tho I
am unable to make it happen in the "real world" of materialism.
the best I can do there is throw rotten tomateos at WArren buffet's
ugly mug when he has some minimum wage lackey driving it around Omaha
on a huge billboard with a gas guzzling truck pulling it.
such is my anger about the oppressors.
some rail against the OTO becAsue they feel they are not "included."
Or feel it is a threat. Feel that it is another set of oppressions.
I have to say, there does seem to be some mainstream crap going on in
the OTO. I would like to see more talk and rhetoric against bringing
in mainstream culture ills when one joins. I realize these wouldn't
just disappear overnight but awareness is the only weapon
against "invasion" by "the enemy."
Mainstream ills would include, by my account, prejudice of any kind
whether it be racial, gender-based, economic level, looks prejudice,
anything not open minded. that's pretty broad and unspecific there
at the last.
I myself experienced the need to feel that, upon my decision to leave
behind the old conditioning, that I was allowed to and could actually
choose anything in teh way of behavior or thought or feeling. That
is seeming to be a necessary step in the throes of change, as that's
how it feels. Somethinglike teh OTO may seem, at that stage, to be
another set of restrictions. The feeling of freedom to do and think
and feel anything seems to protect the psyche against imminent feel
of threat of death or worse yet, non existence/limbo.Falling from the
tower is not a comfortable thing. Endurance of these trials tempers
the will. One stays on the familiar side of the Abyss or dares to
cross and fall in. I myself have fallen in many times. landing on
the other side presents its own set of challenges. and so it goes.
is it any wonder that most dont' try this? Or dont' know how?
Many in the MOE grades go in with a lot of hope and promise, and balk
when it comes to doing the hard work of change. we can only wish
them well on thier path. No one can reach in and change the
software/hardware in their brains for them, although many of us in
the counseling area wish we could. Change is uncomfortable, and not
for everyone.This is the main reason, I think, that an org like the
OTO would say it's an elite. Those who choose to divert from thier
conditioned lives are an elite in general society anyway. Change is
an uphill battle not all wish to do. And why should they, if they
are comfortable the way they are. I wish I had been comfortable the
way I was, it would have been easier. But I was not! And thus the
battle is enjoined.
sor stellae,still stuck in the enjoined wasteland of Nebraska
p.s. get me outta here!! for reals!!