to pay for sins is FOREVER!!!
- "Let us . . . return to my tale about the
Omnipresent Okidanokh and my essence-friend
Gornahoor Harharkh who, by the way, was once
recognized by ordinary three-brained beings
everywhere as a 'great scientist,' but is
today no longer considered 'great'; indeed,
thanks to the fame of his own result, that
is to say, his son, he is now a 'HAS-BEEN'
or, as our dear Mullah Nasr Eddin sometimes
says in such cases, 'He is up to his neck
in an old American galosh.'
"Well, my boy, although I watched everything
that went on very attentively and everything
I saw was impressed in my essence 'pestolnootiarly,'
that is, forever, I could not now, however much I
might wish to do so, put into words a hundredth
part of what then took place in that small
fragment of an intraplanetary formation.
Nor shall I even try to do so, for I have
just thought of a way of actually showing it
all to you so that you too can soon be an
eyewitness of that astonishing cosmic process.
[pestolnooriarly ---> integration --->
integration is "forever" and is the
law-conformable consequence of the results
of the "inexpressible anguish" in Holy
"I was obliged to do this on account of the
SINS OF MY YOUTH. For when I was pardoned by
His Uni-Being Endlessness and allowed to
return to my native land, certain Sacred
Individuals DECIDED TO DEMAND OF ME THAT
THIS SACRED PROCESS BE PERFORMED OVER MY
ESSENCE, both as a PRECAUTION AGAINST MY
EVER AGAIN MANIFESTING MYSELF AS IN THE
DAYS OF MY YOUTH, and so that nothing
similar would recur in the Reason of most
of the Individuals dwelling at the Center of
the Great Universe."
--Gurdjieff, chapter 18
" . . . in the whole region of my spine
there began an intense, almost unbearable
itching and in the very center of my solar
plexus an equally unbearable colic, and after
a while these two mutually stimulating sensations
gave way suddenly to a peaceful inner state such
as I experienced in later life only once, when the
ceremony of the "GREAT INITIATION" into the
BROTHERHOOD of the "MAKERS OF BUTTER FROM AIR"
was performed over me."
--chapter 1, arousing of thought
> What do you mean by "abilities ofWhen we prepare ourselves as cadidates for
> negative clairvoyance" if you are
> refering to myself I am unconcious
> of it as I don't know what your
> talking about. Please help me........
> Yes, I have a special bond with
> James Wyly, we have been through a
> similar hell, for years and years,
> which is beyond description. There
> maybe others ways to this common
> ground that I am experiencing, but
> I do not know about them.
work in connection with the fourth way, in
connection with America, or Philadelphia,
City of Brotherly Love, then we must "forever"
sacrifice ordinary life of itself interests
as aims in themselves, that is to say, those
interests such as are at the expense of what
is higher in level and which always and in
everything cause ill being toward others and
evokes the same in response.
This is pestolnooriarly, and one cannot go back
after passing the point beyond which preparation
can no longer help. You are then Real "I" and
helping God, and so only God, no one or anything
else, can help you! The only way that another
can help you in terms of the 2nd Christ Commandment
is somehow or other assist in remembering your
own consciously egoistic connectedness and
obligation with God. This is what is meant by
that kind of agreement between those in true
masonic brotherhoods and, FOR THAT MATTER,
TRUE FOURTH WAY BROTHERHOODS, which are very
few in number, having to do with helping a
brother in need. This has nothing to do with
life of itself needs!
> I get clear revelations as rewardsTo want to go back to ordinary life of itself
> from hard work on myself, that's
> what formatory organizational types
> do not understand. This is like the
> wall trying to tell the tree how to
> make fruit.
> There is something else.
> I do know one thing, you have to give
> up the belief that you are ok and things
> are going to turn out alright, that is
> simply not the case. It would be a rare
> event for someone to take this step, but
> in my opinion it is the only way. A
> tremendous series of shocks may be
> necessary, which few people are willing to
> bare, or better yet who are not allowed to
> escape from.
interests as aims in themselves is involuntarily,
for further involution, to follow some corresponding
organic fate which usually leads to organic death.
If not organic, then psychological death. Either
way, it makes sense then that this will lead to
involuntary rebirth, or recurrence, into organic
life, in this life or the next, and the
corresponding fate that goes with it.
> There may be many other examples in ourAt the moment of awakening, it is a very simple
> daily lives - that change us or can create
> good for others. This is only a question,
> maybe a crazy one. Is "C" influence
> inclusive, maybe of this outside influence
> - I am not sure?
thing to surrender to higher influences, to the
Work, but to stay surrendered is an art, like
walking between snowflakes, like the art of Divine
War, like deadly invisible combat.
It is a way of life of throwing yourself over
the cliff and trusting in higher influences,
"In God We Trust," as the rope.
Everything for personal benefit in terms of
life of itself is empty and tasteless. Therefore,
personally distressing experiences in terms of
life of itself are of no more interest than
something we enjoy in connection with the outer
world of life and events.
Notice, for example, your ordinary life
conversations with "friends" and "relatives."
They have to do with personal preferences and
personal desires of every kind.
GURDJIEFF CAUTIONED "DON'T MIX"
Some might think that to remain subject to
higher influences as a way of life is a
mystical property achieved and lived only by
those in some monastic order. The tendency is
to mix spiritual desires with ordinary life
desires. The result of this then is that so-
called "spiritual" desires become reflections
of ordinary life desires colored with altruistic
and philanthropic sentimental-romantic-aristocrat
ideas, for example, about how things in the
world "ought to be."
> Each individual has to learn the WorkBeing a member of an order can be useful as
> and wake themselves up.
> Maybe you were in a group for 40 or
> 50 years with people who knew, but how
> is that going to help you now?
preparation, but if we do not recognize what
our machines hunger for, then how can we guard
ourselves outside the walls and security of the
Perpetual self-calming desires are constant.
We justify ourselves:
"This is what I need . . . .
I am hungry . . . .
I worked hard, so why not? I am horny;
I worked hard, so why not? I am unhappy . . . .
I worked hard . . . . so why not?"
"Certainly there is no harm and I owe it
to myself, I deserve it. What is one minute
out of 24 hours in order to take what is
certainly my rightful due? After all, it
is such a small thing . . . . really."
[James Wyly rubbs his hands together and
When you make a mistake and see your mistake,
can you say "no" to it next time?
When we are hungry we are quick to take the
bait. When we are full we do not strike, but
when hungry the hook and line vanish from
sight and we go with it hook, line and sinker!
Do not be dismayed by the making of mistakes
because mistakes are valuable to help us to
remember what to avoid. If you repeat the same
mistakes, then you are not observing and