This is a cross post from the group, Escape From the Fellowship.
Here is a post by bulldogman77, who posted only twice on Escape from the Fellowship.
Deep down inside I always knew something was wrong from the moment I
first stepped into a fellowship church to the last day I was there.
Somehow I just forced myself to believe that it was the right thing
to be there but I always had this strange feeling that something was
wrong from the first time I heard stuff like "Oh brother that's just
the devil trying to take you back" to the fake forced fed miracles
of leg growing services and slaying of the spirit even all the times
we were told to disdain the world, your family, your friends etc...
and the fellowship experience was like a bad nightmare that sucked
up 20 years of my life, the only good I got out of it was my wife
and my kids. I wished I would have been stronger in my resistance
towards that pushy cult that I forced myself to become like, I felt
like I was trapped until I started to realize that I wasn't going
nowhere and began to see them for who they really are. Deep down
inside I always knew something was wrong I should have listened to
that inner voice that said don't do it. Now I see everything in a
different light I'm not as religious and judgmental and all the
things that I hated to be, the next time I get into a church it will
be one that is more sane and not so damn CULTISH!!! and finally, I
know that deep down inside there is a God and that's the weird thing
about it; is that I still feel a pull towards Him. I just don't
think I am ready for the church scene right now! and NO i'm not
looking for the perfect church I'm just at peace not belonging to
the fellowship. And to all you fellowship lurkers deep down inside
you have a feeling that something is wrong!
August 19, 2007