Om Namo Bhagavate Sivanandaya!
Om Namo Bhagavate Chidanandaya!
Om Namo Bhagavate Krishnanandaya!
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Yours in the service of Gurudev,
A CONFESSION: The date was 11 December, 1958. In the
Satsang hall tonight, a youth of about twenty-five
years was ushered in by Swami Chidanandaji--one
Suresh Chandra--whom the Master knew some years ago
as a "problem child", and who today had voluntarily
come forward to atone for his past sins and talk with
honest pride about the great change for the better
that had overtaken him.
The Master welcomed him as "Pundit Suresh", and with
a bewitching smile blessed him profusely. Suresh
informed the Master that he was now a graduate (B.A.)
and was studying privately for the M.A. He was
presently teaching at Rishikesh in a secondary
Today he was emboldened to come into the Master's
He began: "So here I am, Gurudev. Let me read to you
from my written confessional statement in Hindi,
which I had kept ready several months ago, waiting
for an opportunity of expressing it."
Suresh Chandra read the long scroll in high-flown
Hindi, with a heavy heart and tearful eyes, but with
faith and confidence in himself, oblivious of
everyone except the Master.
"Gurudev, thou knowest me since several years when I
was considered a problem child, a 'lost son', a do-
nothing, roaming about in the streets, irresponsible,
disobedient and quarrelsome. I was a vagabond,
deserving of every epithet. It was thy Grace that
saved me, and next, Swami Chidanandaji's.
"Thy Ashram, as the name implies, is a place which
affords refuge to rogues and saints alike, and to
those who seek spiritual bliss. My parents had driven
me out of home as useless. My brothers and sisters
looked upon me with contempt. I would not go to
school and loafed about with do-nothings. Food and
shelter thy Holiness gave me.
"I was given some work to do in the Ashram kitchen
but my childish pranks and mischievous habits
continued. Even here I was a veritable nuisance.
Swami Chidanandaji chided me many times, stopping my
food and even driving me out of the premises in
wintry cold and scorching heat. But I continued to be
a blockhead. Swami Chidanandaji, with his motherly
affection, always let me back with a prayer: 'Let me
hope you will do better next time'.
"As an urchin I had no imagination to gauge the
greatness of a sage like 'Bada Swamiji'. Together
with other street boys I used to criticise him,
ridicule him and indulge in mimicry, like stroking
his belly. I played all sorts of pranks, both big and
"Another very bad habit in which I was an expert was
throwing stones at monkeys and dogs and lynching
them. On a fateful day, while I was thus wasting my
time and energy, harassing the poor beasts and
throwing stones at them, I was quite unmindful of my
surroundings and the consequences of my foolish play.
"Suddenly I heard a passer-by shouting at me
forcefully, 'Stop, you devil! You have hurt Bada
Swamiji.' And he pounced upon me with a stick.
Gurudev was at that time proceeding from his quarters
to the office for the day's work. From a distance I
could see him bleeding from his forehead and somebody
wiping the blood off. Even in that condition, Gurudev
appeared cool and kind to the faults of others. He
asked the man not to beat me and beckoned me to
"A salt eater of the Ashram and a servant of his that
I was, I felt very much ashamed of my evil act, and
for once felt deeply that I deserved and will suffer
as a penance any indictment and punishment that Bada
"And what do you think his 'punishment' was? A pat on
my back, a few sweetmeats from a satchel he was
carrying, and a sermon for future guidance-'child,
behave better. Don't waste your precious time and
energy in this way. Do something useful.'
"This incident was the turning point in my life and
career. It was God-sent. Ashamed and repentant, I at
once returned to my home and mother and resolved that
I shall be an ideal boy, man and citizen. I shall go
back to school and attend to my studies zealously. I
prostrated to Bada Swamiji and Chota Swamiji.
"Off and on I used to come from Rishikesh to render
small services to Swami Chidanandaji and seek his
advice and guidance, which he always gave
ungrudgingly. My faith in both the Swamijis began to
grow greater. By their Grace I not only passed the
matriculation but also the B.A. with distinction. And
now I am a teacher and efficient in many arts and
crafts. My poverty-stricken family is much better
off. I earn a good salary and have a good reputation.
My students and comrades respect me. All glory to the
two Swamijis who, by their sweet ways and divine
prayers, wrought this change in me!"
There was pin-drop silence in the Satsang hall as Sri
Suresh Chandra read out his story in deliberate
tones. The Master was very happy to listen to this
confessional statement and account straight from
Suresh Chandra's mouth, without any reservations. He
hailed Suresh and called him over to himself from the
dais. With downcast eyes Suresh prostrated at the
Master's feet and asked for forgiveness for his sins
and failings of the past. He assured the Master that
he was now on the right spiritual path and only
craved for his blessings to strengthen his resolves.
The loving Master, ever ready and willing, blessed
him vociferously, wishing him "still greater success
in all his ventures." He prayed for the prosperity,
health, long life, peace and eternal bliss of Suresh
and his family. He then invited Suresh to wind up his
beautiful 'oration' with his amusing comics and
dramatic acting, which the latter did to the great
delight of all. The audience, too, raised their hands
to bless him from the core of their hearts.
"If anyone injures you, forgive him and forget the
injury done by him. You will gain immense spiritual
strength." - Swami Sivananda
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