Journal Entry - tosime
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Journal Entry - tosime
Date: July 06
Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Variation: Focus on breath
Time: 07:05 a.m.
Duration: 69 minutes (open)
Posture: Seated on chair
Body: Eyes closed, tongue tip to pallet, hands on knees-index finger
Condition: Dark room. Candles. Incense. Essential Oil - (Bergamot
+ water on burner). Bell (tried continuous ringing today).
Mind Chatter: Low.
Waves of bliss: None climaxed but a few attempts.
Experience: Unusual session.
Notes: Missed yesterday's session due to early morning meetings. Tried continuous ringing of the bell today - striking the bell repeatedly in quick succession compared to single strike then listening for the reverberation. It was different but not remarkable.
Immediately I started my session I had a flood of strong background white noise that drowned the normal sounds I hear during meditation. This was very unusual and hard to understand. Even after relaxing and waiting, the strong background sounds persisted. Eventually it reduced a little but came back as soon as I recognized that it had reduced. I had mixed feelings of frustration and curiosity. Frustration as my normal insights and waves were blocked, curiosity as to what is was and what it meant. I tried to reason it (continuous ringing of bell, missed session yesterday, thinking of right ear technique, something developing inside my mind, or a combination of these etc) but no real answer. I tried to feel for what was happening but nothing came up. I could feel the waves of bliss attempting to rise but they were choked off by the background noise. Strongly, mind chatter was low.
Earlier, just before starting my meditation, I startled a cat who had curled up on my balcony. I had opened the balcony glass door to let some fresh air in before I started my session (as I always do). The cat froze with an intent gaze to see what I would do. This attitude reminded me of the kind of focus I felt could be suitable for meditation.
Eventually I decided to end the session which I felt was not very productive.
Questions: Does anyone have an explanation for the unusual sounds today?
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> Journal Entry - tosimewithout
> Date: November 29 2003
> Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
> Time: 07:55 a.m.
> Duration: 38 minutes (open)
> Posture: Seated on chair
> Body: Eyes closed,
> - Hands on knees
> Room Condition: Darkened room
> - One candle
> - Incense
> - Essential Oil - (Gardenia + water on burner)
> - Full body stretch (3 times).
> - Struck the bell 3 times before starting
> Mind Chatter: Low
> Waves of bliss: None
> Experience: Good Session. First session after about a year
> Result: Recall Session - Getting used to the motions.
> Surprising easy to return to meditation. My body felt as if it were
> automatic pilot - simply did most of the usual things I did withvery
> little thinking on my part.and deeper
> Good physical relaxation. Moved quite quickly through deeper
> states of physical relaxation.slide
> Had the insight that my day to day thinking was like watching a
> show. Each slide would stop if I dwelt on it by thinking about it.If I
> did not, the next slide would appear. Most of my problemscome when I
> dwell too much on each passing thought. The progression ofthoughts is a
> natural process that I interfere with when I dwell too long onany
> particular thought. I should try relaxing more and allowing thethought
> process to take its natural course.Sg: nice to see the site come back to its intention.....