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  • astro4u2001
    Dear Bob, Thank you for your response. I cannot do totally silent, sitting still meditation. There are ugly faces & scarey beings that haunt me & it s not
    Message 1 of 197 , Oct 14, 2001
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      Dear Bob,<br> Thank you for your response. I
      cannot do totally silent, sitting still meditation.
      There are ugly faces & scarey beings that haunt me &
      it's not pleasurable or helpful. I want to jump up &
      go do something else or turn on the TV or radio for
      company. I feel panicky or filled with anxiety & distress
      & fear.<br><br>I've been able to do some forms of
      concentration but only with a voiced-tape on for guidance while
      lying down under the covers in the daytime & while
      chanting for a few minutes at a time. But that's about
      all. <br><br>I've tried affirmations & protection
      techniques & even sanskrit mantras for well-being, peace,
      etc. As long as I'm chanting I'm okay. But the minute
      I stop & there's silence or darkness, I can't stay
      still & do it anymore. <br><br>I also feel guilty I
      can't stay still in silence or in the dark with eyes
      closed as it makes me feel I'm a coward or afraid of
      something that really can't harm me. Nevertheless I feel
      terror & fear anyway & try to run away from it.
      <br><br>I think it's myself or my deeper feelings I'm
      running or hiding from & that makes me feel like a coward
      too. So the guilt keeps piling up & gets me further
      away from meditating in silence. Even meditation music
      on in the background doesn't help. <br><br>Lately,
      I've gotten so disgusted with myself, I stopped doing
      even the chanting. I'm also feeling a lot of lack of
      motivation or incentive to live & get on with life,
      especially since the 9/11 events. So that's a great part of
      it too. Maybe that's part of my guilt & fear. I
      don't really know. It's confusing.
      <br><br>Blessings,<br>Lananda (Astro)
    • eveneon
      ... me.... I am so glad for ... Hi Lora, I would suggest visitng the website for the meditation society http://www.meditationsociety.com/. There are lots of
      Message 197 of 197 , Jun 9, 2002
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        --- In meditationsocietyofamerica@y..., "Lora_T" <candlelady123@j...>
        wrote:
        >I have never meditated ever... i appreciate any help you can give
        me.... I am so glad for
        > this meditation group...Thanks for starting it.. Lora T

        Hi Lora,
        I would suggest visitng the website for the meditation society
        http://www.meditationsociety.com/. There are lots of techniques
        listed there. Try a few different ones until you find one that is
        easy to follow. Perhaps the first thing to try is to just sit in a
        quiet place, close your eyes, and focus on the sound and feeling of
        breath. Just breathe natually. Notice your thoughts, but don't hang
        onto them. Just watch them come and go. Watch and listen.

        I hope this helps. Meditation can seem difficult when you are first
        starting out (and even after you have been doing it a while for that
        matter). Just try it and be patient and perserve. The hardest part is
        the actual committment to sit down and do it. Just sitting quietly
        and watching your breath is more beneficial than you may imagine.

        Eve
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