Re: [Meditation Society of America] Seeking, Finding, Floundering, Flowering
- Ted, ha ha, that;s true. Nothing like a good trauma to bring people together ;-)Sean, I'm having sympathy pains for you. I went riding for the first time in awhile last night and took a spill on a particularly difficult stunt and strained my wrist a little bit. I think the church experience provided a strong sense of values. It also fostered a desire and ability to empathize with others, be of service, and generally speaking bring something to my surroundings rather than take from them. For those elements, I am extremely appreciative.Candy----- Original Message -----From: TedSent: Thursday, August 30, 2007 6:49 AMSubject: Re: [Meditation Society of America] Seeking, Finding, Floundering, FloweringHi Sean, sorry about the hand. Hope you get better soon!
On one level it's always nice to share experiences but in this case
it's more like the comfort people have with each other after they live
through a disaster together.
I feel a great sadness for the Church (Christian Church in general)
because so many are so misled and have been for so long. The higher
one goes in "ministry" the more cynical people become. I've been up
in those lofty clouds once or twice and it was not pretty. Like in
the military or government or wherever, once someone reaches a
particular level the pressure is great to hold the line even when the
line is insane. Christian doctrine is structured in such a way as to
make courage look like rebellion, wimpiness look like faith,
questioning look like blasphemy and honest thinking like questioning
God himself. So when one has the courage to speak up, ask questions
and use the intellect one is given one is branded a rebel, a
reprobate, and/or a doubting Thomas. I have often been "one."
I look back on my time in Church wistfully, missing the fellowship and
friendship. I don't miss the judgmental attitudes, prejudice nor the
tension from worrying about saying the wrong thing. I lost my best
friend over one slip of a tongue when I used the *S* word while
watching a movie. I fell from grace when I simply exclaimed "Shit!"
Work day and night in service to the church and one word brings you
down in flames. You're either a saint or a sinner. Can't be both. Sad.
Motor mouth me. lol Or is it motor fingers? Oh well...
--- In email@example.com, sean tremblay
> I would assume this shared experience of you and Candy is a very
> Ted <txhandyman57@...> wrote: Hi, Candy.
> There's probably no other event that makes us consider, or reconsider,
> our faith than death. The bonds that tied me to Evangelical
> Christianity twanged one after the other through the nineties like
> too-tight guitar strings. Then my dad died and they all went. I
> didn't give up belief in God but I put distance between myself and
> things Christian.
> Time after time during my several decades in Evangelical circles my
> zeal was condemned and suppressed rather than supported. In ministry
> after ministry, try after try, I hit stone walls where there should
> have been loving hearts. I just kept coming back for more.
> That last crash I mentioned was the result of trusting "good Christian
> people" when I really knew better. Maybe my cynicism and lack of
> sincerity were too obvious. I played the "religion" card to try and
> build a foster care non-profit a couple years ago mostly because
> that's the only game in this town. Without the support of the
> religious community or that of the Good Ol' Boy club nothing happens
> here. I was a part of neither. I had been a part of the church club
> but I suppose my chips were not good any more.
> The Board of our non-profit terminated the services of a person who
> was supposed to do our fundraising. She was a volunteer--nobody was
> getting paid and we were putting all our money into the effort. The
> terminated volunteer turned on me and the corp, claimed wages not due,
> threatened law suits, even wrote letters to the paper with slanderous
> lies. Fortunately the paper didn't print them. I knew about them
> because she sent them to some other people who forwarded them to me.
> Anyway, the good Christian board members flew the coop, including some
> good Christian family members, and all the work and money and time
> spent on the effort died. My wife and I lost several thousand bucks
> but the worst of it is that kids were not ever helped by the project.
> Because the project was my dream I crashed and burned, too.
> In my turn-around, what I call my epiphany, I threw everything about
> faith out too, then approached from an entirely different angle. I'm
> still working things out as far as faith goes. That last post
> summarized what my basic conclusions are.
> I do believe Jesus was who he said he was but not who the Church says
> he is. I believe there was a purpose to all he did, including his
> death, but I think it has something to do with things in the spiritual
> realm that we could never understand if we knew the particulars. I do
> not believe in the Christian version of Salvation, in that one must
> know Jesus. Neither do I believe Jesus intended for us to worship him
> directly but that he came to provide a compass heading towards God our
> Creator. I believe Gautama also gave us a compass heading towards God.
> "God" is, to me, the Creator, a universal consciousness who may have a
> body or may be a spirit who lives within spiritual beings or may be
> the universe itself of which we are a part. Most likely he's all and
> none, something far different than we can comprehend.
> I have been growing a friendship with a man who leads a Pure Land
> Buddhist Sangha who has been a great help to me. Pure Land Buddhism
> is, as he says, "Buddhism without the Christian-like elements taken
> out." He's help me recognize the universality of the Great Spirit,
> God, or Amida (The Buddha of my friend's Pure Land Sangha). The most
> excellent thing is that I can freely worship God and accept the truth
> of Jesus (from a gentile perspective, not as a Jewish wannabe like
> Christianity of the U.S.) and be a part of Buddhism too. Faith,
> truth, understanding, these are not arbitrary or relative, we can't
> "Pick and choose," but they are universal in nature. Faith and Truth
> speaks to the heart and each heart responds--or not--in a unique
> I, too, am a novice at meditation. In the beginning I tried to follow
> Christian Meditation, a la John Main, which was useful but not what I
> was seeking. I moved to Vipassana meditation and there I find the
> most direction. This is meditation from the Theravada tradition.
> Pure Land comes from Mahayana tradition, but in Buddhism there's no
> animosity or ill will between traditions like there is among assorted
> denominations and between Roman Catholicism and protestantism.
> Temples are often shared, teachers move back and forth, teachings
> shared. A Catholic would not fit in well in a Baptist church.
> Neither would a Buddhist. But I find acceptance (so far only
> virtually since there's no sangha around here) in fellowship with my
> Pure Land friend and others in other traditions even as I remain a
> Gentile follower of Jesus.
> Hmm... got off track. Meditation. The most important element in
> meditation to me is the effort to reach mindfulness. The key to
> living a quality life, I believe, is in our ability to be mindful, to
> live in the present. We learn to cut loose of so much baggage when we
> do that. This includes guilt, worry, fretting over the past and fear
> of death or the future.
> Thanks for sharing your story, Candy. It would seem there are many
> who are in a similar situation as you and I. I was rather saddened by
> the confusion, loss of faith, and sometimes bitterness and fierce
> anger in blogs and essays across the web when I researched for my
> book. Christianity is dissolving. Only the "McDonnald's"
> Mega-Churches are thriving because they've given up on any moral or
> ethical stand and are becoming joy joints and social clubs. Most
> main-line churches are drying up. There's several church buildings
> for sale in this little town, the churches just fell apart.
> My Pure Land friend believes we are on the verge of a more universal
> spirituality based on Truth and a clear understanding of the universal
> nature of faith. I hope he is right. I also hope the horrific
> problems in our society doesn't kill us all before we get there.
> So, I ramble again. 'Tis my nature. Blessings to you, Candy, and to
> all. This is the end of the first day of my 50th year on earth. I
> shall retire to my chamber and mourn my lost youth. lol
> --- In firstname.lastname@example.org, "C. Joubert"
> <redbrew@> wrote:
> > Ted,
> > Beautiful post, thank you for taking the time.
> > I share your background in evangelical christianity. I left
> organized religion because of being burned out (20 years of devout
> service) and shortly after released myself from all belief that rested
> in a need for salvation and a spiritual separation between myself and
> "God". At first, I remained interested in biblical scriptures but read
> them from a completely different perspective. But the background was
> so ingrained in me, that I needed to walk away from all things
> biblical to clear my mind and give myself a chance to breath
> unfiltered spiritual air.
> > I have looked into several other religions, such as Wicca, Buddhism,
> and most recently the LOA (law of attraction). In all of them I find
> things that feel good, resonate, and seem worthy of consideration. But
> in all of them I also bump up against a wall. Usually it is something
> arbitrary that seems to me completely out of place and unnecessary,
> like bad packaging on an otherwise decent product. But it planted the
> seeds of doubt and probably a bit of mistrust. [yeah, I know its the
> whole baby and bathwater thing].
> > At my core, essentially, I reached a point where I believed I had
> everything I need...that I was born into or with a perfection of
> spirit that while unrealized (tongue in cheek for Jeff there ;-), is
> nevertheless there, growing, and pulsing in everything I do. I felt no
> need to 'search for a path'. In fact, I was content to let truths
> present themselves to me in whatever way they would. My focus was on
> enjoying life and my physical experience, which included a lot of
> outdoor/nature related activities.
> > Two things sort of catapulted me into searching again. The first was
> my mentioned need to present something for my daughter.
> > But along with that has been the unsettling results of physical
> changes in my body after childbirth. I used to be an extremely
> articulate, organized, and verbally expressive person. I have won
> awards, promotions, refunds, pay raises, positions, responsibilities,
> etc., directly resulting from my ability to articulate myself verbally
> and in written form. Since my daughter's birth, however, I have
> experienced foggy thinking, forgetfulness, and funny quirks in my
> basic personality. I still have to double read my emails 3-4 times to
> catch all my mistakes, where I think one word and type a similar but
> completely different one. I have lost count the number of times I have
> lost keys, locked myself out of the house, or other such
> mental/physical small trainwrecks. Extremely frustrating for me. It
> was sort of like having the one person I could really depend on (ME!)
> become undependable. I started feeling vulnerabilities and weaknesses
> inch upon me...and there is where my fears of how I parent and what I
> pass on to my daughter spiritually began to pop up.
> > The second, and most recent event, was the death of a soldier
> serving with my husband in Iraq. I attended the memorial and the
> experience was both the most beautiful and most horrible thing I have
> ever experienced. I have experienced death of loved ones before, but
> this was like experiencing the death of my spouse, as the man who died
> and my husband were very close, did the same job, ate meals together,
> used the same equipment, traveled the same roads, every day. That it
> was him (and others) who died that day was a bit of a coin toss.
> Everything in the memorial, except the man's name, was nearly exactly
> as it would have been if my husband were the one gone. Long short, I
> found myself extremely disturbed by this passing. I would stand at the
> man's grave on a weekly basis and grieve and wonder how his mother
> could prevent herself from tearing at the dirt to retrieve her son.
> > So there, in that place, I began to wrestle again with the eternal
> and my place in it. I found some measure of peace by simply choosing
> to believe. To believe that he wasn't gone. To believe that while I
> can't define what IT is out there, I can believe it is peaceful,
> joyful, and never-ending - for him...and therefore for me.
> > When I use meditation (I am a complete beginner) I love the calmness
> of mind and restfulness it brings. When I read the post a few days ago
> about meeting the true me, the essence that I am, along with Jeff's
> description of Realization, it brought tears of hope - while I had not
> even realized I was missing hope.
> > So there is a small piece of my experience. Thank you for sharing
> your truths. I really enjoyed reading your post.
> > One thing I find great pleasure in is the way my daughter responds
> to me sitting quietly. While I follow Chopra's advise to not limit the
> natural energy and enthusiasm of children under the age of 5 by
> expecting them to follow a meditation routine, I love that she
> naturally wants to sit next to me and share my connection to all
> > While I still feel struggles and strains of the physical, there is
> an undercurrent of trust, faith, knowledge, love, and belief that
> there is no wrong path or choice. I am free, whole, and perfect. I
> > Candy
> > ----- Original Message -----
> > From: Ted
> > To: email@example.com
> > Sent: Wednesday, August 29, 2007 9:18 AM
> > Subject: [Meditation Society of America] Seeking, Finding,
> Floundering, Flowering
> > OK, the heading is a bit lame but what can I say? ...this is a really
> > long thought... just a warning. lol I think I'll post it on my blog,
> > too. So anyway....
> > Candy, thanks for the comments on keeping kids. It's a shame how so
> > few realize it's the kids that do the saving. Many more kids would
> > find homes if people understood that.
> > Your words, Candy, struck a chord with me. A couple of years ago I
> > fell apart. The uglies of life jumped right up and bit me in two. Up
> > until that point I'd held on to a faith in God though I'd abandoned
> > the doctrinal goofiness of my former years long ago. But then the
> > whole world came crashing down. My catch-phrase became, "Life sucks
> > and then you die."
> > But then there were the kids. Month after month I sank lower. The
> > only thing on this earth that kept me breathing was the love of my
> > kids. Our bonds go very deep. Unfortunately my pessimism was rubbing
> > off on them. They picked up the phrase "Life sucks and then yo die"
> > too. It sounds bad coming from a five-year-old. Eventually I reached
> > a point of total confusion. Then I became fearful of death and at the
> > same time developed a paranoid feeling that I was about to die.
> > Psychologists probably have all kinds of "syndromes" to describe me.
> > All I knew was that I was screwed up. That "white light" you spoke
> > about had gone out for me.
> > One year ago I hit 49. I realized I was far past my mid-life and I
> > had no clue. Worse, I had kids who clung to my every word and my
> > every word was nothing but pessimism. I absolutely had to find Truth
> > so I could leave them something, something to hang on to, when I was
> > gone. And I was sure I would be gone. I quit all my other projects,
> > abandoned housework, and leaped into an examination of life, truth,
> > God, and all that. I wanted not to fear death but more than that I
> > wanted to know my kids had Truth.
> > You said you "...feel some level of responsibility to present a
> > coherent thought process on what mommy believes." That nails how I
> > felt. What I came up with, what I discovered, completely
> > revolutionized my life, my thought processes, my attitudes, and is
> > slowly revolutionizing my family as well. In the words of Sidharta
> > Gautuama, and Jesus, and elsewhere, I finally found Truth and
> > understanding. It's simple, direct, and entirely applicable to
> > everyone, no matter where they are in belief or faith. I sound like a
> > Guru, don't I? lol
> > Here, briefly, are the points I have discovered (at least as brief as
> > one with Energizer Bunny Syndrome can be):
> > 1. There are truths available for the knowing and then there is Truth
> > that we cannot in our finite state ever comprehend. Jeff wrote: "We
> > 'find' ourselves in this human form - not knowing how or why or for
> > what purpose, if any. The rational, linear way of thinking does not
> > allow for, and cannot grasp infinity, first cause, no beginning, no
> > end, eternity...." Absolutely.
> > 2. Unable to discover Truth fully ourselves, we are being presumptuous
> > and self-righteous to impose the partial-truths we have adopted as our
> > "religion" upon others. We can share, discuss, debate, but it is
> > wrong in my opinion to insist someone follow the same creeds. Of
> > course I'm referring primarily to Evangelical Christianity of which I
> > was once an adherent and zealot. But many religions share the same
> > "exclusivity" factor. As a rule, Buddhism doesn't. I am slowly
> > drifting in that direction.
> > 3. There is yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Yesterday includes the
> > whole history of the universe up until one moment ago. We have no way
> > to view, comprehend, or grasp all those trillions of events nor even
> > are we able to look back at our own life objectively. Tomorrow, is of
> > course, also out of reach. Like Jeff said, we're linear, stuck in
> > time. Infinity in either direction is beyond our comprehension. The
> > present, however, what is right now, we can grasp.
> > We must, therefore, live in the present. We must be Mindful, to use a
> > good Buddhist term. We must let yesterday be, turn loose of it
> > however we can, by forgiving, by accepting, by bidding it farewell.
> > And we must not fret over tomorrow, either the day to come or the
> > second after our last breath. If we choose to live in the present
> > moment and in this moment make the right choices tomorrow will take
> > care of itself.
> > 4. But what are the "Right" choices? How do we know? If we can't
> > know God, if we can't nail down all those universal absolutes, aren't
> > we adrift in not-knowing? Not exactly. Remember I said there are
> > truths we can know. They are there, right under our noses, if we only
> > look for them. Actually, it's only one truth and that truth is, in
> > fact, an absolute. It is called Love.
> > Jeff wrote, "The answers to these questions (if we persist in pursuing
> > them...for whatever reason) come in a way that we do not expect. It is
> > more that they dissolve as meaningless in the 'big' picture, and are
> > replaced with...a startling wisdom that is found in the matrix
> > of...Love. It comes and gets us." Great words!
> > In my search I discovered that there's a thread that runs through
> > hundreds of belief systems from the staunchest atheists to the most
> > hard-nosed fundamentalists of whatever religion. That thread, though
> > written in many forms, is this: "do unto others as you would have them
> > do unto you." At the very bottom, the most solid foundation of all
> > our societies, so many of our laws, there lies this foundation which
> > is, in fact, an expression of love. We call it the "Golden Rule."
> > Many people have recognized what I discovered, that the words of Jesus
> > and the words of Gautama are virtually identical. How could this be
> > possible? How could a Jewish Messiah and a teacher in Asia, entirely
> > and absolutely removed from each other by time, space, distance,
> > belief and culture, wind up espousing identical values? It is
> > possible because neither Jesus nor Gautama were "inventing" anything.
> > Gautama did not claim to be a god, merely an individual who had been
> > enlightened. Jesus continuously said his words were not his own but
> > were his Father's. Ah-hah!
> > Here's something we can latch on to. Love. But what of it? What is
> > love? That, my friend, is the right question. The answer is, love,
> > as taught by so many understanding and enlightened souls, including
> > the Buddha and the Christ, is a choice. It is not an emotion, a
> > feeling, or a sensation. Those may go along with the choice but in
> > the end the love spoken of by the great Masters is more, far more than
> > feelings. In fact, in most instances the act of love must come long
> > before the feeling of love is realized.
> > An evangelist in 17th Century America, Charles Finney, taught
> > extensively on what he called the "Law of Benevolence." No matter how
> > Calvinistic Finney might have been in his faith he was right on target
> > with this teaching. Gautama, Jesus, so many others, tell us that the
> > way we should live when we live in this moment is to live by the Law
> > of Benevolence, the law of love. This "law" has many facets, many
> > faces, and there's not room here (even with my rambling) to go into
> > them. But it is this law, the two great commandments of Jesus, the
> > Eight Fold Path of Gautama, that dictate how we should live.
> > I actually wrote a book about all I discovered. In it I lay out what
> > I call The Way, a very simple plan to discard self in favor of others,
> > to put others' needs ahead of self, to treat others better than self,
> > to love enemies and offer complete and total forgiveness to all. When
> > I completed the book I began to practice these things as precisely as
> > I could. That was when my life was completely revolutionized.
> > So, down here at the bottom I return to your statement, Candy, about
> > your need to present some coherent thought process to your child.
> > Once I had made these conclusions I began to teach them to my children
> > and to my wife. We've had "Sunday School" on occasion where I've
> > taught the words of Jesus right alongside the Eight Fold Path. In
> > daily prayer, Bible reading (we're going through the Gospels) and
> > short meditation I continue to teach the universal truth of Love and
> > how it applies.
> > I do not attempt to instill them with dogma nor to indoctrinate them
> > with doctrine. In the end they'll have to find their own place in
> > faith. When they get older I will guide them as much as they let me
> > but their trek is their own. What I do, instead, is point out the
> > Truth of Love. In the beginning I had to open up to them the mistakes
> > I made, apologize to them for my lousy attitudes, explain to them how
> > I should have acted, and reveal to them the best course of action
> > according to the Law of Benevolence (I love that Finney phrase).
> > These are all, of course, just words. They have no meaning if my kids
> > do not see them in action in my life. Not only did I feel the need to
> > point to my failures and ask forgiveness but I also have realized the
> > responsibility I have now to live according to The Way and show
> > rather than tell how it works. Where once I would talk ugly about
> > political figures whom I believed were bad for the country (I was an
> > avid contributer to the Letters column of our local paper) now I tell
> > them I was ugly and wrong for doing that and now I pray for those
> > individuals. Where once I was a know-it-all sometimes I explain that
> > I don't know anything other than love is of the most important.
> > Finally, considering that this board is dedicated to meditation, let
> > me conclude my ridiculously long post by saying all I'd learned and my
> > choice to put these things into practice never quite came together
> > until I began to meditate regularly. I spoke of meditation in my book
> > even before I had begun the process myself. Once I did I discovered
> > that meditation is a place where everything comes together. In
> > practicing a form of Vipassana meditation, relying upon the
> > instructions of the Buddha, I learn mindfulness, find clarity, and
> > experience renewal, even when my mindful meditation turns out to be
> > being mindful of my lack of mindfulness.
> > Every day is precious. When we are mindful we recognize this even
> > more. In meditation we observe the "now" and ourselves in it. Then
> > in our lives we recognize the preciousness of all we have, whatever
> > those things are. The importance of the Law of Benevolence grows more
> > clear all the time. Today, we live. Today we love. Today, we are.
> > If I can get this understanding across to my children I will have
> > accomplished my greatest purpose.
> > Selah.
> > ... ok, class dismissed. hahaha....
> > Ted
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- to state briefly man in india we call manushan.manas meaning
mind.meditation aims at stilling the mind.by chanting one mantra and
slowly driving out all other thoughts and finally the mantra also
the mind becomes blank.having started TM thirty years back with a
mantra,initially i felt euphoric and felt thats it.but slowly there
was a feeling of dissatisfaction.i now feel mind is like any other
organ like hand or feet or eyes or ears.since this mind is involved
in almost all the sensory perceptions in recalling recollecting or
in some way it has slowly become a master and has gone crazy acting
without stop and trying to lead the person than just being an
instrument.yes while we are able to use it constructively to
analyse.judge conclude and plan we are helpless to switch it off
when not required.the children do not think much.a butterfly chase
can make them more happy than a great property.i think we have lost
the ability to switch off the mind.now the gr88 question is
fine...but how to switch off?in my opinion it is not that difficult
either.from ecckhart tolles power of now,i realised always being
focussed on anything that we are engaged at the moment...at this
very moment..and bringing the mind constantly back to whatever we
are doing now..( not asking for much isnt it?)..not thinking about
the consequences or results or fretting about why we have not done
this yesterday or any other thought interfering...just be
here...now..100% is one thing.
secondly when we are not doing anything ..just observing what our
thoughts.mind is unable to think when looked at.
the gap in thoughts could be only couple of seconds but it is a
start..and i think ..as i read here earlier not seeking just
watching.. watchingintently to catch a thought...
--- In firstname.lastname@example.org, sean tremblay
>not see themselves as such. The way of many teachers is the way of
> Jeff ,
> I have had many teachers in some most unlikely places. Most did
being open to all around you, and aware of the inate knowlege
possed by many from all walks of life, there are truly wise sages
amoungst us. What ever blockage I am currently feeling I have to
work it out on my own. My reluctance to submit my will to anouther
comes from the fact that I have met many charlotains as well as
sages, A point in case I am a pretty smart dude and I could concoct
some line of bull shit and even make myself believe it! even derive
a sense of deep satifaction from it, then the next step I could
affect a manner of speach in the style of David Carridine and walk
around calmly despencing my knowlege. At this point I could even
develope a fallowing, but I would not do that nor have it done to me!
> But the great sages are out thier and I just have ro Tune MyDial Back In
> P/S I likke the qoutes from J.C. truly a great master I alwaysdug his work
> Jeff Belyea <jeff@...> wrote:
> There is so much information
> and insight into your perspective
> in the short paragraph you wrote,
> that it will be impossible to be
> brief in reply...but I'll try.
> One other thing: I'll also try
> not to sound "preachy". There
> was a teacher who used anologies
> in his really beautiful teachings,
> and I draw upon them often -
> because they are so on point.
> Unfortunately, the church has
> created such a trainwreck of
> what this particular master
> taught that many people have
> "thrown the baby out with the
> bathwater". (You and I have each
> used this expression).
> He is reported to have said that,
> "Only as child do you enter the
> Kingdom of Heaven". And as you
> have written, it is the lightness
> of being that a child knows that
> we miss as life coerces us into
> worry and stress and obligation.
> The good news is that there is
> a Truth that sets you free...and
> returns you to the garden - that
> lightness of being, as a nearly
> constant state of Being. Life
> will still through an occasionally
> curve ball, a shot of adrenalin,
> and a temporary rush of negativity -
> but once the Truth is discovered,
> these are only momentary flashes
> with no residual. Kind of the
> reverse of what you mention as
> glimpses into the lightness, in
> a life that lacks the lightness
> of Being - it is a lightness of
> Being with glimpses into the
> negativity the world bombards
> us with daily.
> It is possible to rise above the
> circumstances and enjoy a fullness
> of joy as a way of life.
> Some people seem to never experience
> the angst of uneasiness and longing
> for the light, but those who do find
> that is just doesn't go away. And so,
> we find ourselves "seeking". We try
> meditation and yoga, and attempt to
> pump ourselves up with resolve to
> be grateful and appreciative of
> the beauty that surrounds us every
> day in nature, music, relationships,
> and even commerce. But to resolve
> never seems to last - until...
> "When the student is ready, the
> teacher appears." The "teacher" can
> take many forms, and that light
> can come on when least expected.
> It seems to ALWAYS come as a rush
> of sudden wisdom.
> We seem more removed as time passes,
> and your keen polymorphic (a 25
> center word that I don't have a
> chance to use often) insight into the
> parallels of actually seeing the edges
> of objects more distinctly is a
> powerful reflection of that sense
> of separation and longing for
> For me, it became a desparate
> search, until I was willing to
> lose my life to/or find it. That
> doesn't have to be the case, but
> there seems to come a point where
> the longing becomes all consuming
> for some.
> (The following is necessarily
> subjective and offered as opinion.
> We can only teach from our own
> experiences, and there may others
> here who will offer other approaches...
> If you find yourself approaching that
> consuming level of inquiry...pitch your camp
> at one sight. Find a teacher. Accept
> the teaching of someone who has
> made the journey, and who is willing
> to be your guide.
> Your heart will resonate from the
> sound of their voice, the content
> of their teaching, or even a book
> they have written - even their
> photograph. If your teacher happens
> to be in nature, it may be to
> magic of sunrises or sunsets that
> will speak to you. You get the idea.
> Meditation seems to be a pretty
> common gateway to the garden to
> which you wish to return. Patience
> is virtue when it comes to this.
> (I know that's not your strongest
> virtue, and it may require some
> time in the patience gym).
> More later.
> Love, as always,
> --- In email@example.com, sean tremblay
> <bethjams9@> wrote:
> > Jeff,
> > I've had a revelationion this morning, something I have been
> trying to articulate. In life I guess I've gleened some insights
> about people and things. I've been to the bottom of the ocean and
> around the world, I've played cards with prostitutes, drank cheap
> wine with bums, flown with CEO's in private jets and dined with
> millionairs. All these things have taught me something, but thier
> also something I've lost, something I've wittnessed with my kids.seem
> It's a lightness of being, I remember it well, that garden of eden
> but I can't seem to get back to it, I catch glimpses of it. With
> every pain felt or experienced or witnessed it seems I have grown
> harder and denser like the callouses of my hands. The worlds edges
> that define the boundry of objects in view seem sharper. And the
> yoga and meditaion under the wise tutorage of my wife just don't
> to be enough, I supose I need to spend more time with my kids andsuppose
> rediscover the joy of finding butterfly eggs or a tree
> > frog or simply hanging out and realy enjoying chocolate milk.
> > Jeff Belyea <jeff@> wrote:
> > Hey Sean, I love your humor
> > and your colorful play of words.
> > Email and online discussions
> > do tend to flatten the tone,
> > and often tongue-in-check
> > humor can sound sarcastic,
> > and beside the point. But...
> > You seem to be one of those
> > writers who layers their prose
> > with several meanings. Some
> > are good at reading this, and
> > some miss all but the superficial
> > layer. Not to worry. It's all
> > perfect.
> > Love, as always,
> > Jeff
> > --- In firstname.lastname@example.org, sean tremblay
> > <bethjams9@> wrote:
> > >
> > > I guess thats what I was trying to say.....thanks Jeff. I
> > have a courser manner of putting it and a bit crass as well, but
> > thats my humor of couse nobody can hear the inflections of tone
> > voice. There are those out there who seek to lead others and
> > are those out there who seek to be lead.. hence drugged monkeysand
> > organ grinders.humanity
> > > I do supose it's not my role to correct this it's as as
> > itself, and the Buddha cautioned against taking anybodies word asought".
> > value even his. I of course don't have the patience of the Buddha
> > > But I am glad we got the ball rolling again and thier are some
> > real discusions taking place
> > > Thanks guy's
> > >
> > > Jeff Belyea <jeff@> wrote:
> > > I hope to add clarity here
> > > and not confusion...
> > >
> > > While it is ultimately true
> > > that there is no seeking and
> > > nothing to be sought...it is
> > > a matter of timing.
> > >
> > > When we are stirred by the
> > > sense of unhappiness or "something
> > > missing" in our lives, we do
> > > initially seek an ineffable
> > > "something" to satisfy the longing
> > > for contentment and happiness.
> > >
> > > Often, that occurs to us as
> > > a new job, new car, bigger house,
> > > bigger muscles, success on our
> > > terms, new relationships, and so on.
> > >
> > > But when we achieve any or all
> > > of these "things", we find that
> > > the longing remains and we hear
> > > the old refrain, "Is this all there
> > > is?"...and we're back on the search,
> > > again.
> > >
> > > However, as tough as it may be
> > > to swallow, the paradox is that
> > > we must give up the search (the
> > > seduction as Sean described it)
> > > and come to a place of absolute
> > > surrender of the search, the
> > > desires, the longing. We must
> > > give it all up and just stop.
> > >
> > > It is here, at the stop sign,
> > > that the magic may happen. We
> > > have "seeded" our magic garden
> > > earlier with the search. To stay
> > > with this metaphor, we must now
> > > wait silently while the growth
> > > begins without our conscious
> > > knowledge. Any attempt to peek
> > > too soon destroys the potential
> > > fruit (or veggie) of Awakening.
> > >
> > > This timing aspect causes a lot
> > > of confusion and discouragement -
> > > especially when those who are
> > > not authentic in their "teaching"
> > > speak and write about not seeking.
> > >
> > > The curriculum runs: Seeking, Not
> > > Seeking, SURPRISE! The surprise
> > > is beyond anything we could think
> > > or imagine, beyond description,
> > > a joy unspeakable, a peace beyond
> > > understanding. Of course, we cannot
> > > seek it in advance, because IT
> > > does not yield to concept or idea.
> > >
> > > This is not the same as saying
> > > that IT does not exist or IT is
> > > some mental fabrication and opium
> > > of the masses (or spritually
> > > drugged monkies on minimum wage
> > > for an organ grinder).
> > >
> > > Too long already. Hope there's
> > > something here of clarity.
> > >
> > > Jeff
> > >
> > >
> > > --- In email@example.com, Sandeep
> > > <sandeep1960@> wrote:
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > sean tremblay wrote:
> > > > > Sandeep,
> > > > > Anouther great reply
> > > > > I think what I am getting at is there is a seduction in
> > > this
> > > > > THING and having possesion of it.
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > *The very sense of "something-to-be-sought" call it THING or
> > Self,
> > > or
> > > > Enlightenment or happiness
> > > > constructs the sense of "you-the-seeker-of-the-defined-
> > > >fills
> > > > The perpetuating of the sense of "something-to-be-sought"
> > > perpetuates
> > > > the sense of "you-the-seeker-of-the-defined-sought".
> > > >
> > > > The term being used is sense of..........as no such
> > > > actually takes place.
> > > > *
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > > I like to use the terms of dependent and independent
> > > that
> > > > > kinda jives with me
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > > The dependent reality as you know is the cause and efect
> > response
> > > that
> > > > > causes suffering, and alienation, raises questions and
> > > the
> > > > > blanks.... I'ts the filling in the blanks part that may
> > > person
> > > > > to manufacture an answer that may or may not lead to
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > *Is there anything as independent reality?
> > > >
> > > > Is there anything really independent .......aka.......that
> > > is not
> > > > dependent on........... which it is supposed to be
> > > > *
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > >
> > > > > *//*__,_._,__
> > > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
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