- Date: November 15, 2002
Time: 8:00am, 45 minutes (open)
Position: Sitting on bed, cross-legged, eyes closed, hands resting on
Technique: body and breath awareness
Good session today. Returned to my garden of eden. Mind chatter was
medium to low and concentration was good. I guess I must have reached
a very relaxed state because I noticed that I wasn't sitting still,
but swaying in a sort of circular motion. Even though I was aware of
this I didn't feel like I was controlling the movement. At one point
my body began leaning forward to almost a 90-degree angle to my body
and I had to consciously pull myself backward because I was afraid I
would fall off the bed.
I was very focused on the sound of my breath. An image came to me of
a baby in utero. I thought that the internal sound I hear of my
breath going in and out must be the same as what a baby might here in
it's mother's womb. It was very calming.
Came out of session consciously but quickly.
- Hi Eve,
The sound you can hear comes up not only during meditation but at any time
you become present enough to "listen" to yourself.
I have found I have up to 5 or more different voices depending on the
situation and my frame of mind. My typical voice is a logical, reasoning
type of person - a bit like a college professor I think! I sometimes have
the voice of child-like astonishment. A very long time ago (over 25 years) I
was very surprised to hear a dark, mysterious, frightening voice telling me
to stop playing mind games and go to sleep.
As you get to know your different voices you get a better picture of your
frame of mind at the time. The next stage might involve switching voices
when you need a different way of looking at a situation. A further stage
still might be inventing a new voice to achieve a desired effect. But maybe
that is going too far in the wrong direction. Keeping it simple might be a
better approach. If it happens we notice a change in voice at any time we
can simply take that into account.