- Date: November 7, 2002
Duration 55 minutes (open)
Position: sitting cross-legged on the bed, eyes closed, hands resting
Technique: Body and breath awareness; chanted OM silently
Mind chatter was medium today. My concentration would teeter back and
forth from very focused to lost in thought, but I was able to notice
this and bring my awareness back after only a few breaths. When I
would find myself getting sidetracked by a thought I would trace it
back to the point of where I lost my focus. Was it a sound, a body
sensation, a smell, another thought? I found it easiest to maintain
my concentration when I focused my awareness on several things at
once; the sound of my breath going in and out, my lungs expanding and
contracting, the blackness I see when my eyes are closed, chanting OM
on the out breath, and overall sensation of my body. Complete
awareness of all these things would only last a breath or two before
a thought would come up.
Several times I felt the urge to end my session and so I asked
myself "are you ready to end?" This prompted me to keep going. I
wanted to make sure I came out of my meditation consciously and
slowly. Today's session was the longest I have had.
- Hi Eve,
The sound you can hear comes up not only during meditation but at any time
you become present enough to "listen" to yourself.
I have found I have up to 5 or more different voices depending on the
situation and my frame of mind. My typical voice is a logical, reasoning
type of person - a bit like a college professor I think! I sometimes have
the voice of child-like astonishment. A very long time ago (over 25 years) I
was very surprised to hear a dark, mysterious, frightening voice telling me
to stop playing mind games and go to sleep.
As you get to know your different voices you get a better picture of your
frame of mind at the time. The next stage might involve switching voices
when you need a different way of looking at a situation. A further stage
still might be inventing a new voice to achieve a desired effect. But maybe
that is going too far in the wrong direction. Keeping it simple might be a
better approach. If it happens we notice a change in voice at any time we
can simply take that into account.