Re: Starting Over 4
- --- In email@example.com, "Tony Osime"
> Hello Everyone,Dear Tonyji,
> This morning's meditation session reminded me of the problem of the
> inner voice. That self-talk that provides a constant commentary inside
> our heads. After over a year of not meditating, I had almost forgotten
> that it was one of the hurdles you had to clear to reach deeper levels
> of meditation.
> During today's session, I noticed that the inner voice did not have one
> character or personality but subtly different ones based on the topic
> and mood. What I did was to associate an appropriate face with each
> voice and simulate that face talking to me with the words of the inner
> voice. As the voice changed, I changed the face to make it more suitable
> for the voice.
> This approach had an interesting effect. I noticed that the strength of
> the inner voice lessened as I associated a face with the voice. The act
> of associating a face seemed to distance the voice from myself. It was
> as if I was disassociating the voice and my real self. My real self was
> more like an impartial observer. The voice was more like a reaction or
> commentary to different things.
> After doing this a few times I noticed that the last face was very close
> to my own real face. This was fascinating. It was like looking into a
> mirror and seeing yourself talking. The beauty of this was that it
> helped me really appreciate that my real or inner self was not voice but
> the watcher of the voice. My real or inner self did not care what the
> voice said, it just observed.
> It was a nice mediation session. I felt I had made some progress in self
> understanding. My inner sounds took on new, deeper tones giving me a
> sense that I had covered new ground. The session gave me a nice feeling
> of peace that I carried with me during the day. Whenever a disruptive
> situation arose, I could recreate the meditation feelings and this would
> bring a nice calmness to my responses.
> I am still happy with not being a slave to a particular technique or
> process in meditation. I sense that these were more of a distraction
> than I appreciated at the time. In a similar way I feel that our
> emotions are distractions to our natural state which is close to that
> observer state I experienced in today's meditation.
Beautiful! Witnessing that "...my real or inner self was not voice but
the watcher of the voice. My real or inner self did not care what the
voice said, it just observed." is a profound understanding. It seems
that your year off has given you great growth in meditation. Thanks
you for sharing.
Peace and blessings,