Thank you for your reply SG. I'm not trying to develop paranormal abilities. In March I learned about Reiki from a friend on the internet. I used to believe stuff which can be proofed by scientific experiments than. One day I felt the energy in my hands. I didn't know what to do with it. My daughter was going to have an eye surgery. I put my hand on her eye. After a week her surgery was cancelled. She was all better. The doctor couldn't explain. Than I went for a vacation in Turkey. I felt two earthquakes right before they happened. I was so scared to conctact with a astral entity, I stop meditating. I call it meditating but it might be something else. I lye down. The energy fills my body in about a few seconds. I cannot feel my body, it gets all numb. I just feel my hills and behind my head. Some thoughts come and go. And after a few munites its all quite. And I feel very happy. If I close my eyes, I fall asleep in 10 munites. If I keep my eyes open, I can stay there half an hour and fall asleep and wake up after an hour or so. I'm doing chakra cleaning exercises now. I started meditating 4 weeks ago. I can see the auras. I can hear much better. ( When I'm washing my hands, I can hear popping soap bubbles) I can understand what my boy friend thinking. Or I should say it just comes to my mind what he was thinking, eventhought when I was not thinking what he is thinking. I become a vegeterian and I'm trying to find a volunteer job.
I don't need paranormal abilities. I just want to love people and help them and I can do this the way I am. There are just things happening. Should I let them happen? Should I do meditation exercises, raising kundalini exercises or do I need a teacher to do them properly? I don't want to hurt myself but I don't want to stop this(whatever is this, either cleaning up or awakining). Because I'm already a happier and better person.