594Journal Entry - tosime
- Jul 1, 2002Posting your meditation journal here is an excellent opportunity to
share your meditation experience so others can learn from your
insights and reflect on their own practice. You will find that
posting a journal is a good motivator for regular, progressive
meditation. Please use any format you wish. Feel free to ask
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avoid a mind commentary that anticipates posting a journal entry as
this can distract from your meditation session. Avoid judging your
sessions based on what you read posted by others.
Journal Entry - tosime
Date: July 01
Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Variation: Focus on breath
Time: 08:30 a.m.
Duration: 55 minutes (open)
Posture: Seated on chair
Body: Eyes closed, tongue tip to pallet, hands on knees-index finger
Condition: Dark room. Candles. Incense. Essential Oil (Bergamot
+ water on burner). Bell.
Mind Chatter: Low.
Waves of bliss: 2-3 light waves (not induced).
Experience: Good session.
Notes: Missed yesterday's session slept late, woke late and could
not get a good time during the day. While there were opportunities to
meditate, from experience I sensed that the session would not be
worth doing. (i.e. I had just eaten, was tired, had appointments or
there were other distractions).
Notes: The smell of burning brought me out of meditation to blow out
the candle of my oil burner. The water/oil had dried up. Went back to
meditation and continued where I left off surprised at how easy it
was to continue. An ideal setup for meditation is more a state of
Notes: Explored involuntary body actions during meditation. Today
these included; a sudden deep breath, drooling, light spasm in arm,
sudden itch. Concluded that these were all signs of deepening
relaxation my body is working normally.
Insights: Reducing mind chatter. The quality of attention to mind
chatter can help eliminate it. During my last meditation I thought
that switching from mind chatter to the meditation helped to deepen
the meditation. I realize now that it was not so much the switch but
the quality of attention that eliminated the mind chatter and
deepened the meditation.
Snip from last session: " From this experience I wondered if I could
use a similar technique for channeling mind chatter to go deeper into
meditation. With this realization all mind chatter stopped instantly!
It was funny I was almost laughing. It was as if all the mind
chatter had run away to hide from instant destruction. Even when I
feed thoughts, the mind chatter would not hook onto the thought to
start threads of chatter. Eventually they came out and I tried it "
What happened here was that when I decided to try this technique, my
mind went into a particular kind of focus, which eliminated the mind
chatter. I was so surprised that I did not appreciate the kind of
focus. The problem I have is that I can only sense this kind of focus
based on the results. The focus does not really feel very different
from other times during the meditation. I will probably have to watch
and maybe develop a better sense for it. It is as if you have a panel
of buttons in front of you and you press one and see the good effect
but since each button feels like all the others you cannot be sure
which one it was. To try to recognize the button, I developed an
analogy. I imagined I was in a field watching for rabbits to pop up
their heads. I knew they were burrowed underground. I had to be
perfectly still, fully focused without tension in case I missed one
of the rabbits. I had to gaze at the whole field without moving my
head or eyes.
Insight: Meditation is like putting our minds into a neutral gear so
that we can process a shift in control from our "egoic" side to
our "intuitive" side - (I am not sure which are the right words to
use here). It is as if we are growing the connections during
Questions: Can we develop our intuition by thinking through analogy
rather than reasoning? How would this work?
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