50Re: Meditation 24 x 7
- Nov 1, 2001Thank you for your encouraging words. I was
feeling dissapointed in myself with my lack of meditation
lately. Which just makes me feel worse. I will try to be
easy on myself and accept that I am where I need to be
right now. Even if that means that I'm not sitting in
meditation as often as I would like. Meditation isn't the
only area of my life where I feel I am not motivated
enough. It's a lot of the same areas that other people
are stuggling with too. Like eating better,
exercising, tacking care of things that I have been putting
off. I want to do these things but I don't do them.
Then I feel bad for being "lazy" which just makes me
depressed. I guess I have an old recording in my head which
says "You aren't trying hard enough." It's difficult
to just accept what is and to beleive that it will
happen when I am ready. I think I've always felt that
being hard on myself was the only way to get motivated.
But obviously that doesn't work. And as you said,
It's doing me more harm than good to beat myself up. I
am going to try and be patient and to keep my
intention clear and my focus on the present moment. Much
easier said then done! Maybe I need to come up with an
affirmation or mantra to say when my old recording starts in.
Something like, "Be patient. You are where you need to be."
Does anyone else out there have suggestions for
replacing your negative monologs?
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