412Journal Entry - tosime
- Jun 5, 2002Journal Entry - tosime
Date: June 05
Type: (1) Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Type: (2) Chi Kung
Variation: Focus on heart beat and breath
Time: 6:55 a.m.
Duration: (1) 69 minutes (open)
Duration: (2) 20 minutes (timed)
Posture: (1) Seated on chair, eyes closed, tongue to pallet
Posture: (2) Standing (Zhan Zhuang)
Condition: (1) Dark room. Candles. Incense. Essential Oil - Bergamot
(in burner). Bell.
Condition: (2) Normal room.
Experience: Efficient Session.
Insights: (a) When/how to end a session. Meditation duration is often
determined by external things such as appointments or having to go to
work. ideally the meditation itself should determine the duration of
the meditation. So I try to have at least one session a week where
there is no external constraint on meditation time. This is based on
a realization that some 'events' in meditation happen after a certain
period of time. If it happens to be 45 minutes and all my sessions
are 15 minutes, I could go for years without experiencing
that 'event'. Most times my sessions come to a natural end - I have
an inner sense that it is time to arise. However there are times
(like today) when I am not absolutely certain if it is a natural lull
or it is time to end. What I do is simulate coming to an end in my
mind and see if I naturally come to an end or if my meditation picks
up again and continues. By simulating, I simply act out coming to an
end in my mind; bringing my attention to my conscious mind, opening
my eyes, stretching, stopping my watch etc - all the things I would
normally do if I were to bring my session to an end (without any
physical movement). Today, even before I finished the simulation, I
went back into my meditation - it was a natural lull rather than a
time to end.
Other Insights: 1) Seeing sounds - giving a visual interpretation
to inner sounds
2) Confirming responses - positive body reactions
3) Monkey mind - how to acknowledge and learn
from distracting thoughts
Questions: Why do natural lulls happen in meditation? How can we
interpret them? How often do they happen? What is the best response?
PS - Could others please post their journal entries.
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