17700A Bad Meditation Can Be A Good Meditation
- Jun 30, 2011In response to a recent post that indicated that
a meditation had a "bad" effect on the poster, a
member has suggested that we again share this.......
A Bad Meditation Can Be A Good Meditation
You're sitting comfortably in your favorite spot,
all is well, you're calm, cool, and collected. You
start to meditate, perhaps repeating a mantra, and
then you find you just can't concentrate. Let's say
that you intend to say OM over and over. What
sometimes happens is that after you say OM a few
times, your inner chatterer starts making comments.
It may go like this "Om sounds like home. Boy,
wouldn't it be nice to buy a new home." And then
it continues "They just built a few new homes in
New Jersey. If I take the turnpike I can get there
pretty quickly. But there may be a lot of traffic.
I might get stuck in it for hours", and so on, and
so on. So, there you are, not just not experiencing
OM, but now you're in gridlock and starting to feel
road rage! Then, you realize that you've lost your
concentration and instead of just returning to
meditating on OM, your inner chatterer starts
chastising you with statements like "You can't meditate!
You're no good! You're incompetent!' and so on.
Then it starts filling you with self-pity things
like "I suffer so. If only I could control my mind,
but I can't and never will." Of course, this is even
further away from OM than driving on the turnpike.
But there is also something very good happening as
well, and it may prove to be far more beneficial in
the long run than if you would have had a meditation
that included visions of heaven and feelings of bliss.
There is an awareness, a consciousness within you that
is a silent Witness to everything your senses react
with, your mind thinks, and your emotions feel. It has
been witnessing since you were born. When you were a
baby and couldn't judge, compare, or comment in any
way about anything, it was already witnessing. As a
matter of fact, this Witness is your only hope of
eternal life. Your body will drop. Your thoughts and
emotions will stop. These things have never had any
permanence whatsoever. The only thing about them that
never changes is that they are always changing. Our
Witness is the only part of us that has been changeless
and is the only part of us that has the possibility
of surviving death.You are not your body, you are not
your emotions, you are not your mind. The Witness is
the Real Self. When you meditate it is the Witness who
will recognize that you have stopped concentrating,
or are distracted, or are demeaning yourself. You then
can stop it and direct your consciousness to what
is appropriate. This is Real Self-control.
This puts you in the position of benefiting greatly
when your attempt at meditation "fails". You will
begin to recognize not just that you have lost your
concentration, but what caused you to divert your
attention. Sometimes you will be able to become aware
of habitual behaviors that have distracted you. For
instance, sounds or other physical sensations may cause
you to tense up or get emotional. Certain type thoughts
or emotions, like lustful ones, may lead to diverting
your focus. When these subconscious reactivities come
to the surface under the light of the Witness, you
will be free from their power.
There is no doubt that if you realized that your head
has been hurting because you have been banging it
against a wall, you would stop doing it. And your
pain would disappear. Similarly, when you cease reacting
to the conscious and subconscious distractions that
have been banging you around, your concentration will
be firm and your meditation will flow freely to you,
infinitely and eternally. These are the good things
bad meditations present to you. Most importantly, they
almost force you to seek refuge in your Witness, and
the more you do, the more you realize and experience
the reality of your union with the pure consciousness
that is your real identity. And your suffering ends.
So, when you are having a "bad" meditation, it is a
tremendous opportunity to learn and evolve. All the
things that have been interfering with your at-oneness
with your Witness will be laid bare before you.
Therefore, when you're having any type meditation,
it's "good" and leads to the inevitable living happily
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