1406RE: [Meditation Society of America] Journal Entry - November 25 - tosime
- Nov 25, 2002Journal Entry - tosime
Date: November 25
Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Time: 07:30 a.m.
Duration: 41 minutes (open)
Posture: Seated on chair
Body: Eyes closed,
- tongue tip to pallet,
- hands on knees-index finger touching thumb.
Room Condition: Darkened room
- One candle
- Incense - one stick
- Essential Oil - (Precious flowers+water on burner)
Pre-session: Ring Bell
- Sip of water
- Ear plugs
- full body stretch (3 times).
Previous day's influence: Nonduality digest post - American Beauty.
Mind Chatter: Medium.
Waves of bliss: None.
Experience: Very Good Session.
Result: Interesting session today - hard to put into words
Quote from post
"...I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes when
First off that one second isn't one second at all, it stretches on forever
ocean of time. For me, it was lying on my back at boy scout camp watching
falling stars, and yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street,
my grandmother's hands and the way her skin seemed like paper, and the first
time I saw my cousin Tony's brand new firebird. And Janie. And Janie. And
Carolyn. I guess I could be pretty pissed-off about what happened to me, but
it's hard to stay mad when there's so much Beauty in the world. Sometimes I
feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much, and my heart fills
up like a
balloon that's about to burst, and then I remember to relax and stop trying
hold onto it, and then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel
gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea
what I'm talking about, but don't worry, you will someday..."
-Lester Burnam from "American Beauty"
Normal start - allowed my mind to be free until my body had relaxed enough
for me to direct the meditation. Today I decided to find out how long this
takes, so when the inner sounds changed tone to signal the transition to the
next stage, I opened my eyes and looked at the clock. It was about 20
minutes into the session.
After closing my eyes, I realized that I had gone backwards about a minute
or so into the meditation. I had to wait for about a minute to get back to
the "take over" point. The change in tone happened again and I took control
The initial dialogue in American Beauty came up. It dawned on me that I was
very attached to my thoughts - as a running commentary. I said to myself,
"what if I became free of my attachments - what if I found the....[off
button]". I did not complete the thought since I had switched off the
running commentary. I felt like I was floating in zero gravity. I also
noticed a pleasant feeling of release in my stomach area as if a normal
tightness was suddenly released. I then decided (without the usual
commentary) to release the attachment to my body. Creative ideas popped up
(work related). This gave me the realization that these ideas were already
in my mind but it took the release of attachment to my thoughts to release
or see the ideas.
After I released the attachment to my physical body, it felt as if it was
moving of its own accord. I felt a series of involuntary movements almost
like a slow gentle dance - it felt very strange.
The whole experience was a little overwhelming so I decided to come out of
my meditation - quite a lot to think about. Or quite a lot to not think
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