Dalai Lama sat down and began speaking. He was anecdotal and just
finding his stride. Then he felt the nakedness of his arm; it was minus
his mala beads. “Hmm, where is my rosary?” he posed. For the next thirty
seconds we witnessed a serene flurry of mind, thought, an assisting
monk ready for action, and His Holiness looking through his satchel for
his rosary. They were there. He pulled them out, smiling as everyone
does when the beads, or the keys, the letter, or anything else magically
is found. As he held them up he said, “Strong sense of ‘I’ arise in
that moment,” and he laughed his holiness-human laugh. It was the best
teaching he gave that session.
The moment was empty for all to see, empty in that each person
watching got it perfectly. Sunyata is that: empty so as to perfectly
meet a need. As such the perfect necessary arising does so and the need
is met. It was also precious because His Holiness automatically
displayed the intrinsic nature of Self. There are layers and levels of
identity from the just being formed, to immature, to maturing, to
amazing, to sublime and transcendent experienced as not-Self or
non-dual. The full range is the purposeful, planned, and orchestrated
development of conscious self-Self-SELF aware identity up to a profound
scale. This is why scriptures of the world report the layering or
emanations of divinity. The Vedas, Egyptian Pyramid texts, and Buddhist
tantras and sutras all speak of layers of identity born from one another
and returning into the greater absorbing One.
Brahman is the Absolute without attribute and ineffable. Yet Brahman
chooses to express which gives rise to Shiva, Vishnu, and Brahma, which
give rise to Shiva-Shakti, Krishna, and all diverse presentations of
life and form.
Similarly, Purusha is without other. It is pure omniscient
omnipresence yet it expresses so as to relate. This creates all other,
the intrinsic sense of self knowing, and the need to be. Those creations
of s/Self-knowing are:
- Ishvara-Awareness-as-Itself: cosmic and profound, unlimited – ONE-NON
- atman-soul-consciousness: pure and complete – a One,
- and jiva: self-awareness coming to know itself as a self, growing in
quality, capacity, skill, and virtue, through processes of doubt-trust,
love-hate, resolution-anger, desire-satiety, etc. Jiva is one that is
aware of multiplicity, pulled out in every direction in order to
eventually understand center and personal oneness. The diverse traits
that comprise the complexity of one’s identity lead one ultimately to
the recognition that “I am not these habits and desires, skills, and
loves. I am something more.” Now the one seeks the One.
The Egyptian presentations might or might not be more obvious.
- Nun is absolute, before all or anything. No-thing-ness, all potent potential contented, pure, wordless, unwordable.
Ultimately, Nun (Note: non, none, no – is this the original root of
all derivations of the same?) produces that which is necessary: the
serpent of creation and the impulsing seed of vibration as formulation.
Yet the vibration, called serpent, is not in any way other than Nun. Nun
is indivisible. Serpent is the undulating no-sound roaring vacuum of
potency. (like the human experience of a Lions’ Roar samadhi but on a
vastly smaller scale yet no less profound and perfectly wordless and
- The potent energies of Allness-NON (Nun) secrete, and Atum is. “Atum
is not different from Nun or the serpent, but is a part of them both as
only they exist.”1 Atum is “the All and Nothing.” The ancient Egyptian
texts state “I was alone in a state of inertness” but then Atum
projected himself out of inertness and is considered the first principle
of light. (I ponder birthlessness creating a birth-incarnation of a
universe, a big bang of creation, and thus the beginning of that which
we call existence-Life.) “He is the combined act that not only brings
himself into existence, but also everything else at the same time.”2
is the principle of becoming, now having birthed himself (who is
genderless). As such the scarab beetle now represents this eternal
arising and immersion or setting of Atum as and into creation. Khepera –
scarab beetle represents transformation, birth, rebirth, and the medium
this process requires: layers of densification, and the rolling wheel
(dung ball) of life. Atum now is ONE, identifiable while non-dual. Yet
this non-dual principle of profound Allness will set the wheel of
becoming in motion, thus Atum is that wheel (represented by the beetle
rolling the dung ball), is the beetle: a veiled ONE representing all
course and toiling expressions of One and Self, and Atum is that which
marks the lost and the found by being the first light. Only as such is
there also a first darkness, the beginning of forgetting the
wholeness-ONE that the Self is, and instead thinking oneself to be the
toiling course expression of being.
- “The becoming of Khepera by Atum was symbolized as either a primeval
mound, a bennu bird (phoenix) or as a Benben stone. As a primordial
hill, Atum was seen as the first land rising from the waters of the
Ultimately, Atum and each identified with oneself Self awaken.
Phoenix represents the burning ground of that process, the excruciating
and completely necessary self-immolation of one’s ideas of oneself. We
are not what we think, nor are we a set of reactions, habits, or
memories. We are light, Atum, arising and causing our own dawn. The
fiery illuminations of small self kindle the fires of insight. We begin
the process of realizing that there is no self. Phoenix-Atum-becoming
now is the son of transformation and rebirth. Nun (Non) has created
Atum-Ra, the sun/son, you and me as the divine light incarnate.
And Buddhist tantras and sutras are similar.
is Non-the unformulated and causless. Yet, (there always is the
proverbial “yet.”) the birthless, causless, and deathless creates,
moves, undulates, breathes, does.
- The non becomes.
- Samantabhadra-dri becomes the first buddha.
- One becomes five (primordial buddhas).
- Further defining or layering is through the process of three (kayas).
Emanations beget emanations, all for the purpose of Being expressing
as knowable. Consciousness is the plan and purpose of this universe or
multiverse of which we are a part. We are that consciousness, we are
that Nun, non, beginningless non-self SELF that now is known, and knows,
and thus can create in full knowing, which is awareness as vibrating
- Egyptian Wisdom Revealed: http://www.ancient-egyptian-wisdom-revealed.com/books/creation-mythology/
About Donna Mitchell-Moniak
Donna Mitchell-Moniak lives and meditates with residents at
Spirit Fire Meditative Retreat Center which she founded in 2003. The
Practice of Living Awareness is an outpouring of her heart-mind and
lifetimes of meditation practice in various disciplines. See
www.LivingAwarenessMeditation.net for meditations and free online
meditation training. See this blog or www.SpiritFire.com for more of her
written work and classes.
'May we live in peace without weeping. May our joy outline the lives we touch without ceasing. And may our love fill the world, angel wings tenderly beating.'