Patricia Eastwood … … … Turn yourself around
the last few weeks I have had cause to sit and examine my life. I have
looked closely at my thoughts and reactions and I realise that here is
an important lesson which would bear sharing.
For several years,
I would wake up of a morning and slide right in to 'protective mode'. I
would sit with my beaker of tea, mulling over yesterday's hurts. I
would examine each slight, every sharp comment, dwelling miserably on
how unhappy and misunderstood I was.
I would visualise possible
scenarios during the coming day and would rehearse a list of sharp
answers with which to meet what I was 'preparing myself for'. After an
hour or so, I would 'feel much better' and more awake, emerging from my
introspection with a small smile for the world. (Silly woman!)
see, my mind-set was such that I EXPECTED to be slighted. I would
examine all that was said to me with a jaundiced eye, sure-enough
finding 'digs' and sharp comments everywhere I looked. (As I said
before: 'Silly woman!')
When one switches a lamp on to give
light, one is using energy. Our thoughts and feelings are the same. They
use energy. Bodily energy. Spiritual energy.
As the light from the
lamp can be easily seen with our eyes and felt if one moves one's arm
too near to the bulb, so can our thoughts have energy which can be seen
and felt. At least, the effects of them can be seen and felt.
invited myself to feel miserable. I EXPECTED folk to be aiming barbed
comments at me, so that, when a conversation had no obvious barbs, I
would 'read between the lines' in my search for hidden meanings. More
often than not, I would lose a possibly productive relationship because
of my strangely barbed replies and my gloomy inner self. My reactions
gained physical strength and pushed nicer, happier folk away from me.
and working in an area closely surrounded by negative folk meant that
I, myself, was an easy target for those energies (monkey see, monkey do)
... However, the effect was not purely local. I could aim my dark
feelings at family members, living far away. Aim them at old friends
living in other parts of the country. Very soon I knew the cold 'truth'
... that I was unlovable and unwanted.
The saving, for me, came
when I found Spirit. I was gently guided into a course of
self-improvement which led me away from those introspective morning
sessions, which gradually helped me to 'lighten up' and 'get a life'.
in a very rare while, though, I find myself sitting with my morning
drink, beginning to 'think along the old lines'. I hastily give myself a
mental shake-up and say a quick prayer to the Archangels Michael and
Zadkiel, asking them to protect me from my own negativity. After all,
they protect me from outside negative influences, so why shouldn't they
protect me from old habits? I visualise myself radiating on a higher
energetic frequency and I'm smiling widely in seconds.
you have, say, an unlovable son-in-law, you can spend MUCH time
dwelling on this person's character failings. These thoughts can almost
take physical form. Your daughter will sense that you don't like him and
then will be torn between you both, unhappy and stressed. He will sense
your dislike and will react accordingly,
causing her even more
hurt. The situation will escalate to a degree whereby a family can split
over this and it all stems from your own inner problems.
can train yourself to throw the dislike out of your life if you care
enough for her to do so. Every time you think of him, visualise a pink
rose. 'Send' it to him in your mind. Know that this is a rose of
reconciliation and appeasement for your own dark feelings.
Slowly you will realise that he hurts you less and less.
Then you can start saying something good in your thoughts each time he appears within your mind:
'He's good to her'
'He's patient with the children'
'He works hard'
three months you will have turned yourself around. Life, in-family,
will be so much better that you will have cause to sit back and be
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