Prayers for me and Maggie, Please
I have brought my cat, Dame Maggie, home to die. I ask your good
prayers that God's will may happen swiftly and with as little pain as
possible for her.
I would, as a monk, apologize for how much I love this cat, how dear
she is to me, had I not the strongest assurances that God gave her to
me and that keeping her after I took vows was His will. First
Cardinal Law, then my superior here, Father Anselm and later Abbot
Hugh gave me permission to keep her. Few have ever had such certainty
that one beautiful cat and one stray monk were God's gift to each
I got her 6 months before I was diagnosed with HIV. She has been wih
me through everything. For a LONG time, I thought I would go first,
so I let my heart go without reserve. For some time, however, it has
been distressingly apparent that she was growing older and olde and I
am not even sick yet. I have been sure for quite a while that I WOULD
have to lose her, but hard as that is, I am so glad that she will
never have to lose me, never have to worry where I've gone if I am
hospitalized, etc. This is easier for her and for that I am deeply
grateful to our merciful God.
I know that I never want my heart to break like this again, not out
of cowardice, but because another attachment this great would just be
wrong for a monk. This is one of the things celibacy is supposed to
free one's heart from. An exception was made for my dear Maggie, and
there will never be another exception.
God's mercy is so great and I love learning to say: "Jesus, I trust
in You!" even when my heart is breaking and a wordless and innocent
kitty is in pain. I trust Him. His mercy is so infinite, His greatest
attribute. Please pray for that Divine Mercy, which is His Will, for
Maggie, and me and all of us.
Love and prayers,