9176Re: the reasons for Reason
- Feb 9, 2004Dear Gavin,
Thank you very much for sharing this so openly with me; and
I'm ever so glad to hear that in the end this new medicine turned-up
My situation is different from yours', and has to do with rheumatics/
arthritis and muscles, but thank-Heaven I'm very "mobile" and even
can walk my (fortunately very obedient) dogs...
There have-been/still-are periods however, in which I suddenly simply
can't "lift-up" small things like f.i. a cup or a glass or a pencil.
As you might have read in my former posts, it's only recently (since
a year or-so) that I have come to take a look over the "wall"
of "pure-logical-reasoning", but although I still do feel "amazed" by
this newly-discovered-world, I feel very grateful and happy!
There is SO much to read and to think and to learn for me...
It's "questions, questions, questions", but also great TRUST!
I have NO idea where this "knowing" to be walking in the right
direction suddenly came from... You?
How does one come to change from a life-long "no-nonsense-agnostic"
to a searcher for God and Gnosis?...
Not because of "pain", as that was already there...
What do you think?
In the meantime I can't help to still feel a little uneasy to have
brought this "pain-subject" on the List, being afraid to "bother"
people. Can you understand?
On the other hand I would very much like to talk with you about this
for-once off-list. If you also might would feel for talking, you're
very welcome on my e-mail-adress. If not, I also could understand!
With Warm Regards,
--- In email@example.com, "Gavin Riggott" <wu@n...> wrote:
> > Thank you SO much, dear Mike, for responding and understanding!
> > (To tell you the truth: I immediately regretted to have mentioned
> > this)...
> Don't regret it, Jach, sometimes it's good to get these things off
> chest or out in the open. I have a neurological condition called
> is slowly eating away at my nervous system. This causes me many
> the main one being an almost total loss of balance, but also
> disease. Imagine heart-burn so bad it makes you vomit (and when
> it's black due to slight internal bleeding where stomach acid has
> The only way to stop this was to eat - if there was food into my
> digest, the problem was lessened. This caused me to put on weight,
> is one of the things that potentially makes reflux worse. It was a
> circle. I tried various medications, but at best they only made it
> to sleep; I was still in regular pain. Although not depressed as
> did make life bleak and I frequently questioned the point of
> live in this body. Fortunately, just recently a new medication has
> developed that has almost totally cured the problem. Almost, but
> quite - I still have be very careful with what and when I eat, but
> intake is now both stable and healthy (now if only I can summon the
> motivation to do some sort of exercise... ).
> However, I now consider my suffering a blessing... in a sense. In
> sense, it's suffering and therefore a curse, but in the narrower
> has caused me to question my axioms about the universe. My
> me grounded. I talk with Taoism and Zen inclined friends who often
> common stance that our "fall" into the physical world is simply a
> part of the human situation and not really a problem. I
> myself drifting towards this view, but then I come face-to-face with
> suffering, in my oppinion the greatest mystery of all, and find the
> "natural" view lacking in credibility. If I hadn't have got this
> where would I be now? Would I be a Taoist? Or even a non-religious
> materialist? I don't know, but I find it hard to see how I would
> to Gnosticism without it. So in that respect, there is at least
> to be greatful for, a small piece of light in the darkness. I
> to presume to understand your situation, but perhaps your
> some something in common?
> Gavin Riggott
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