Re: Sam died
- Dear Carole,
please accept my deepest condolences on your loss of Sam. I am
Carole, I know the guilt you feel, so many of us do understand
as we have felt the same way.
I gave my Pebbles CoQ10 and I also missed doses because at that
time I was ill and was also an emotional mess because my other cat
Sachie had just died. Pebbles did not die from her heart disease, the
missed doses didn't cause heart failure. Pebbles died of cancer. So
of course then my mind turned to that and I thought if I had not
missed doses of her vitamins, if the vets hadn't stopped the herbs
and homeopathy (because we started western drug treatments and the
herbal vet said the herbs would not be effective now - which by the
way my Professor of Chinese Medicine does not agree and says you can
take both forms of medicine together), then Pebbles might not have
got cancer. I too went through the guilt.
Now six months on I see that Pebbles' body was just worn out
through life and her health went on a downhill slide when we lost our
Sachie. Pebbles had been doing well despite all her conditions, heart
disease, thyroid, kidneys, and bladder problems.
Pebbles death also showed me that there was nothing I could have
done to prevent Sachie's cancer, because Pebbles was seen regularly
by vets, weekly, fortnightly, monthly etc., with blood tests,
ultrasound, xrays throughout those terrible months since we lost our
Sachie and Pebbles' health was declining. She was hospitalized twice
since Sachie died and numerous vets saw her. No vet and no blood
test, xray etc picked up she was developing cancer, until the week
before she died when she stopped eating. It happened that she was
doing so well with the treatments for her heart, thyroid etc, that
the vet said we could go a couple of months before the next checkup.
In that time, the cancer progressed and no vet or test was able to
pick it up till it was too late. The same with my Sachie. Two weeks
before, the vet said she was fine at her six monthly routine checkup.
Two weeks later I took her to the vet and her kidneys were enlarged
from cancer. I am obsessive about my cats. I kept charts of Pebbles'
symptoms, food eaten, pills given, heart rate twice a day, and so on.
Looking back there was a subtle symptom but otherwise all seemed
well. Pebbles' cancer was a terrible shock as was Sachie's. With all
my care and I never missed routine checkups at the vets, there was
nothing I could do to save my girls.
I have gone on about my experiences, but I have done so because
I know and understand about guilt and I hope this may help you and
others who are also asking "why did this happen?", "what more could I
have done?" God Bless you.
--- In feline-heart@y..., "Carole" <Deepgreen@b...> wrote:
> I sometimes was too ill to give her the CoQ10 every day...could it
have been that??? I feel so terrible....her breathing was still bad
but she looked so much better....did I do it???? Carole