non CRF : Messages of support - Oh my!
- Hi everyone,
I have just started sending thank you notes to everyone who wrote to
me after Pebbles passed. Oh my! There are hundreds. I am on so many groups,
and the number of messages have surrounded and filled me with such love and
I am finding myself moving slowly at this time. Grief is heavy and I
am so tired. But I have read and re-read each and every message and I am so
thankful for each and every one. I am replying to a few a day. So by the
end of the year (smile!) I will probably have replied to everyone. I set
myself this goal with Sachie and did not achieve it. The sheer number of
messages from all the groups I am on became a project in itself. But what a
lovely project! I may not achieve it with Pebbles' messages either, and I
know you all understand, but it gives me something to do also that is
positive for me.
After Sachie passed, my time was still taken up with caring for
Pebbles, remembering her pills and potions and everything else. This time,
I have a lot of time on my hands. It feels so strange. I find myself
thinking, "It's time for Pebbles' pills" or this and that. It is so strange
to not have the worries I had in my mind constantly
about Pebbles' health. I still find myself saving messages about subQ
fluids and drug and supplement information. Then I realise, I don't need
that anymore. It's strange.
Lucy is sustaining me. I love her so much! I am in the process of
getting Lucy onto more of a home diet, now that I have more time, and
researching what kittens need in terms of nutrition. And I am facing a
familiar problem, finding things in Australia that overseas are so easily
available. I am looking for a commercial food for occasional convenience
feeding which has human grade ingredients and no iffy preservatives. Not
easy. If anyone lives in Australia and is able to buy such foods, could you
please e-mail me.
I will be staying on most of the groups, perhaps a bit later going web
only for some, but I want to keep in touch with you all. You have been
Heaven sent and I love you all.
Pebbles sent me her first Rainbow yesterday at a particularly
difficult time, at a moment when I felt totally alone. I felt her spirit so
strongly. Thank you my Angel.
Love, Voula and Lucy and my Beautiful Angel Sachie and my
Magnificent Angel Pebbles.
(Sachie's tribute page, and photos of Sachie and Pebbles.)