Saying goodbye to Muggley
- Today at 4.15 (UK time) I'm taking Muggley to the vet's surgery, to go
to sleep for the last time.
Since yesterday when I brought him home from the RVC, he's changed
from a 'real cat' to a sad little thing who just lies there. It's
getting harder to make him purr, and even when he does, he still has
that big-eyed anxious look, and I can see that it's difficult for him
He's lost all interest in food - I tried everything I could to tempt
him, and when I tried to force feed him, just to keep his strength up
for today, in the hope that he'd feel more like eating tomorrow, he
just spat it out, and got so upset I had to stop.
When I put him back in his bed, he just lies down straight away, and
closes his eyes, though he never looks relaxed.
I can see he's going downhill, even since early this morning, and I
can't bear the thought of him getting to the stage when he's
struggling to breathe, aned gets frightened. Especially if it happened
in the middle of the night, or when there was no one there for him.
I just hope I'm not making the decision too soon, but I just can't
bear to see him like this.
I know I'm not going to get through this without breaking down in the
vet's surgery (I'm crying already), and I'm worried that he'll pick up
on the fact that I'm upset, and it'll scare him.
Thank you so much for all your friendship and support - it means so
much to me
Love, hugs and purrs
Carina and Muggley (still fighting, but so very tired)