41733Re: [FH] Re: Tino passed away this morning
- Mar 9, 2011I was so sorry to hear of Tino's passing Wendy. It's so hard. It was what I worried every day would happen to my Winston. It's so so hard to see them in pain like that. It was my biggest fear. Winston ended up going from other causes, and my only consolation was that I didn't have to go through an episode like your'e describing. I know you did the right thing though. To have them in pain like that, like you said, is not an option. We have a responsibility to protect them from pain as much as we can. You did the right thing.
I know we'll see them again. Sometimes I can still feel Winston with me -- sitting squarely on my chest the way he liked to at night. I miss him all the time but I do think his loving spirit will always be here and I know Tino's will too.
Sending big hugs,
At the height of laughter, the universe is flung into a kaleidoscope of new possibilities. ~Jean Houston
--- On Wed, 3/9/11, Carol <czyonov@...> wrote:
From: Carol <czyonov@...>
Subject: [FH] Re: Tino passed away this morning
Date: Wednesday, March 9, 2011, 10:25 AM
Wendy, I am so very sorry for your loss of Tino and do appreciate the excruciating pain you are feeling now.
We lost our Tootsie just over a year ago under similar circumstances. It was the morning of January 1, what a sad way to start the new year. I had given her her morning meds and then gone upstairs to get dressed but had to come back down for something. As always, I checked on her whenever I'd been apart from her for even a minute. She was in the same place I'd left her - under the end table in her bed, but she was stretched out with her mouth wide open and eyes wide trying to breathe. I remember that she was salivating and I thought she was trying to vomit but was perhaps choking. I quickly got her out from there and tried to get her in a sitting position - she started breathing again so I layed her down on the floor and ran to get my husband who was in the shower as he/she had such a special bond. We quickly dressed and ran her to the emergency center. She was in excruciating pain, to even touch her caused her such great pain.
At the ER, her body temp was down to almost 95 I believe and they said she was bloated - don't know why. Tootsie's health problems were (given in order of discovery): crf, multiple stones in her kidneys, one ureter, and her bladder, bone spurs in many places which made it impossible for her to walk at times and caused great pain which we tried to control but were not always successful in keeping her slightly comfortable, extremely high blood pressure which was controlled, severe heart arrhythmia. They offered to do xrays to try to figure the bloating but said that it seemed her systems were shutting down. Her last year her body had caused her such great pain there had been times if I'd wondered if she really wanted to continue but just couldn't bring myself to suggest it.
Whether she'd thrown multiple clots or perhaps suffered ureteral blockage (Dr. Chew, at OSU, had said she was a miracle that she'd not done that years ago) I guess we'll never know. I don't think I'd ever have been able to make the decision to help her on her way to the bridge without there being some major event - and this was it. Perhaps it was her gift to me to make that decision easier for me to reach.
Take care and may his memory be eternal.
carol and mellie
--- In email@example.com, Wendy Solem <wsolem3@...> wrote:
> It's been a while since I've been o the site, I have been so lucky with my boy
> "Tino". My luck ran out this morning. He went into congestive heart failure
> over the 4th of July and I almost lost him then, I was very lucky they were
> able to save his life and he was doing quite well on all his medications.
> This morning I got up at 4am to go to work; Tino was still alseep on the bed.
> He woke with a start and screamed in pain. he began to vomit and "swim" across
> the floor, he was unable to stand. he was writhing in pain on the floor and
> open mouth breathing.Urinated and defecated on himself
> His legs were splayed out in all directions.
> The ER vet said that it was a thrown clot .
> I couldn't let him suffer, he was thrashing about and screaming in pain. I made
> the choice to let him go right away and ran him to the ER, I and am absolutely
> Just last night, he ate all of his food and Joeys and insisted on sleeping on my
> lap, he was happy and comfortable.
> This all happened within an hour. The Dr was lovely (she also has a blk and wht
> tuxedo) and she said that after seeing this about 50 times, she has only seen
> one recover and Tino was in such agony.
> I knew that he had to go, suffering was not an option for him but after telling
> everyone else to trust their instincts and never second guess themselves, here I
> am wondering if I could have done anything more or was his quality of life
> really over in a such a fast second.
> Thanks for listening, I am trying to be grateful that they pulled him from the
> brink on the 4th of July and trying to take comfort that he is no longer in
> pain, but its easier said than done.
> Thanks all for all the support this group has given - it's been invaluable
> Wendy and "Joey"
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