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36630Re: August 30, 2000 - May 30, 2007

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  • Gretchen
    Jun 2, 2009
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      Nala,
      My heart ached as I read this. I am so sorry for your loss.
      Gretchen

      --- In feline-heart@yahoogroups.com, nala nala <nala_zq@...> wrote:
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      > Two years ago today I lost my wild kitty girl.
      > Her exuberance, her curiosity, her vivacity
      > now gone.
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      > "A rapid heartbeat," he said.  "A high strung cat."
      > "But nothing concerning."
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      > "A rapid heartbeat," she said.  "A nervous cat."
      > "Do not be alarmed."
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      > "A murmur," he said. "Does she play, is she active?"
      > "Oh very much so," I said, "she dances and twirls."
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      > "A murmur," he concluded.
      > "But nothing concerning."
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      > "A murmur," she said.  "Does she need rest, is she tired?"
      > "Oh, not at all," I said, "she flies on the ground with leaps and bounds."
      >  
      > "A murmur," she concluded.
      > "Do not be alarmed."
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      > "Mild concentric hypertrophy, enlarged papillary muscles,
      > left ventricular outflow tract obstruction," she said.  "Does
      > she play, is she active?  Does she need rest, is she tired."
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      > "Oh, not at all," I said, "She plays with her sister, and 
      > chases the moths and the birds."
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      > "A textbook case," she concluded.  
      > "Early stages, but certainly concerning."
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      >
      > "She doesn't play, she isn't active," I stated.
      > "It's quite alarming."
      >
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      > Another echo, another exam
      > "It is unusual for a case to progress so rapidly," she said.
      > Another radiograph - she climbs up my torso to get away.
      > "We will start diuretics"
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      > Another echo, another exam
      > "I've never seen a case progress so rapidly."
      > Another radiograph - she climbs up my torso to get away.
      > "Look at her breathing!" I said.  "I've never seen this before!"
      > "No EKG!  Lasix IM, STAT!"   She said.
      >
      >
      > She quit eating.  
      > She quit drinking. 
      > She has no interest in life. 
      > Fingertips slathered in food
      > Syringes filled with sustenance.
      >
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      > The vet consults the cardiologist.
      > Try to reverse the prerenal azotemia.  
      > Ooops, too much fluid!  Severe CHF.
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      > She perks up and purrs at my visits.  
      > "She still wants to live" I said.
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      > 3 days of oxygen with slow IV drips.
      > Constant infusions of lasix and reglan and ifs.
      > "She's getting fractious and hard to control"
      > "Good!" I said.  "Perhaps it's time for us to go."
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      > Now she is home, but won't eat and won't drink.
      > I decide on an e-tube, I can't really think.
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      > It's been two months and then three and then four.
      > We made it to the sixth month, but then no more.
      > She ran to the window, cried out, and collapsed on the floor.
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      > I held her in my arms. She drew her last breath.
      > I cried out, still holding her, and collapsed on the floor.
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      > May 30, 2007
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