ESAs and a response to A.R.E.
- I'd like to respond to Sharon's and Randy's notes. Thank you first of all.
There is a great deal I might say by way of the cult behavior of the HI
network in Eckankar. But I'd first like to be careful that I don't fall
into the same trap of solipsism that is the cornerstone of the Eck
mentality. These people cannot judge because they have no basis on which to
arbitrate truth (or any of its variations). I need to remember that, and be
extremely careful, as I venture into this process of speaking out.
What I say is entirely from the perspective of my own knowledge and
experience. I'm not qualified to globalize and say "This is how it is."
First, as far as my dishonesty on A.R.E. Of course I was dishonest. I was
there for one reason--to observe--to watch the responses of the Eck
followers to various stimuli and situations. I put out what I felt I needed
to in order to get telling responses. I don't feel bound by the moral
double standards of others. I have enough of my own thank you! This isn't
to say I didn't express myself honestly. I did much of the time--especially
when expressing my sense of spirituality, and my take on certain subjects
like Eck Masters and PT's invention of Eckankar. I even posted a series of
messages about the mythical (and necessary) role of "the trickster" in the
inception of things. I figured some people might catch on. I guess they
eventually did. Good for them!
As far as attacking me. I understood that slander will continue and even
intensify when I signed my message here with my identifying signature.
These people have no regard for facts. They simply need to win. That's ok
with me now. Their evaluation of me as a human being no longer has any
psychic leverage with me. I can say without hesitation--I am flawed. I am
a scorpion. I am an ignoramus. They can strike any way they care to. It
merely reflects their own vehemence and shallowness.
When I stopped participating on the list, I thanked them and told them I had
attended for a specific reason and thought I had gotten what I came for.
They knew I had intent. Anyway, that was a number of years ago. I still
had more to go before I was totally convinced that Eckankar as a path was a
loss. I still held out hope there might be something salvageable for me
personally, though I was fairly certain that nothing much had changed for
the better in the organization.
In fact, the kind of inane debates that went on in that forum was proof
enough that the lunatics (so to speak) had indeed taken over the asylum.
As far as Sharon's question about ESA sessions. The ESA program was
certainly an idea for a service that may have been useful for many students.
And I believe that in fact it does provide some comfort for people to have
an ear to listen to them. Make no mistake though, it does serve double duty
as a way to keep a finger on the pulse of things. Eckankar harbors an
almost obsessive fascination with a mythical state called "balance". This
"balance", of course, more often than not translates into maintaining a
compliant, unimaginative, and highly conventional way of experiencing and
understanding the world. It is never actually defined, but most certainly
it is seen as a static state that one must consciously maintain. This
equates to a habit of repression of genuine impulses and individual
expression. There is no awareness of spiritual process, and the often rough
seas that must be crossed for a person to find one's own true center.
Originality, individuality, and the trials of initiation are given lip
service, but only dimly understood. Individuality, imagination, and
unconventional perspectives are seen as marks of aberration.
As far as payment, it was my experience that payment was indeed not insisted
upon except in the special sessions with the LEM or the eighth initiates. I
never "charged" and don't know of anyone that did. It's a great way to draw
people into the sacred trust, to open them up; to get a view on things.
Let me say here also that the use of the ESA as a watchdog program as far as
I know, is limited to a small group of extremely influential ESA's (and
their more extensive network of drones)----this is the ESA Council most of
whom are former RESAs and whose membership is largely unknown. A hidden
system of stratification is used so that every level, most often believes
they are fully involved in what's "really" going on. (Here comes a run-on
sentence!) These ESAs not only use any information (true, erroneous, or
unverified) that flows into their whirlpool for political purposes, and for
protecting whatever it is they feel they need to protect, they are also the
ones who have access to the initiates reports that get sent in. In certain
cases, they will take on a person's "case" using this information in order
to attempt to influence, control, or recruit them as drones. Thus, the
uncanny knowingness they sometimes seem to display. I don't think it's fair
to compare Eckankar to Scientology in all of this though. Eckankar, for the
most part is more complex because of its endemic unconsciousness. Chronic
denial has it's long-term "benefits". It allows you to remain "sincere" in
the midst unconscionable abuse. You can ask me. I can tell you all about
that! But, in the end I spent several years in a deep depression,
struggling to regain my self from psychic complexes I had internalized
through the Eck teachings, as well as all the patterns of mind-numbing
subterfuge I unwittingly stepped into in my service to Eckankar.
In a way, these people need enemies, so they create them and cultivate them,
not on a conscious level of course. They create enemies by believing their
occult machinations are truly hidden and above the law. The ostrich hides
it's head and believes it goes unnoticed. I doubt I would feel the way I do
now, if Eckankar leadership held policies that honored the unique
spirituality of each student, rather than attempting to hammer down any nail
that sticks out. Anyway, I don't consider myself an enemy these days. I no
longer hold anger or rancor toward these people individually. I do feel I
understand them better now that I'm coming to understand my own journey
through Eckankar, and certain other pathological relationships that I have
allowed to violate me.
My anger, which still flares brightly is at myself, for not listening to the
voice of my better angels, as Abraham Lincoln might have described it. And
it's compounded by the deep disappointment that is necessarily a part of
shedding the illusions of maya on life's journey. I still ache at having
not trusted my heart. So much damage might have been avoided--to myself and
to others whom I have damaged in all this.
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- Mick Roche wrote:
"Let me say here also that the use of the ESA as a watchdog program as
far as I know, is limited to a small group of extremely influential
ESA's (and their more extensive network of drones)----this is the ESA
Council most of whom are former RESAs and whose membership is largely
unknown. A hidden system of stratification is used so that every
level, most often believes they are fully involved in what's "really"
going on. (Here comes a run-on sentence!) These ESAs not only use any
information (true, erroneous, or unverified) that flows into their
whirlpool for political purposes, and for protecting whatever it is
they feel they need to protect, they are also the ones who have access
to the initiates reports that get sent in. In certain cases, they
will take on a person's "case" using this information in order to
attempt to influence, control, or recruit them as drones. Thus, the
uncanny knowingness they sometimes seem to display. ."
I find this fascinating. Can you elaborate on the operation of the ESA
Council? I've never heard of this group. Who are the people that have
access to initiate reports? How does this drone thing work?
- Hi Mick,
Myself, I do not feel it's dishonest to do research... I did
some myself the earlier part of this month on a.r.e. I posted
"eckankar produces machines" just to see what response I'd get.
In another post, "What is eckankar" I replied that it is a
mind-emotion control cult that appeals to many with a deeply
seated inferiority complex because it constantly bolsters and
feeds the super ego of eckists.
To get around a.r.e for a while reminded me of how, at one time,
I was conditioned to think and to respond... like a machine.
When I threw all that negativity their way they all acted in a
predictable, programmed manner and out comes the eckankar dictionary,
and the shariyat and Strangler By The River, (intentional strangler).
eckists simply cannot acknowledge or even see that their thinking
and feeling is done for them.
At times I fed undeserved praise on the eckists with the predictable
result of satiated super-ego. And so, I say call your "dishonesty"
research, which is a God-given right we all have.
eckists like to eat shit sooooooo... I feed 'em with a shovel
-Lots of Healing my friend :D