Well, it seems my touch of corruption has cleared up. Loohan checked a
piece of quartz I had picked up outside and had handled for a while
and it was clear of negative corrupted energy. I wasn't surprised
when he told me I wasn't corrupting things with my touch anymore,
because I've been working on it, and for the first time in a long time
picked up an object and could feel some very negative energy emanating
from it. That was a good thing, because it meant I could "feel" again,
and it's been a while... I can't remeber exactly when I became numb.
Anyway I've been working on it in this way.. First of all Loohan was
kind enough to help me and remove a bunch of parasites, AND put a stop
to an attacker who was really bothering me, to put it mildy. This is
why I have faith in Loohans abilities. I have experienced first hand
the incredible effects his wielding his crystals and gismos can
accomplish and like the saying 'the proof is in the pudding',.. I can
honestly say, I have seen some genuine pudding in Loohans kitchen.
After being relieved of constant attack with Loohans aid, I wanted to
discharge all the nego stored up in my being.
I spent Long hours in contemplation, trying to figure out how I got to
this stage of having corrupting energy and for one thing, I know I
haven't been real happy for a long time. I have dedicated years to
'fighting evil'.. 'knowing my enemy'.. and being on top of all the
sick new ideas and actions they constantly come up with, though it it
mostly the same-ole same-ole, in a new setting.
Our lives and minds are geared towards knowing all this negative crap,
and it is true that you attract what you think.
So I knew I needed to take a break from keeping on top of their antics
above all other things.
I knew the woods are very healing for me and it finally became warm
enough out there for me to venture out hiking.
Taking off your shoes and socks and walking like that is the best way
to discharge negative build-up. The ground acts as a natural
accupressurist as it hits those spots just right on all parts of your
feet while you walk on all her bumps. The sun beating down on you
pushing all the neg down and out your feet and filling you with a
brilliant new cleaned and cleansing light. The earth aborbing the
discharged negative energy through the feet , and naturally
neutralizing and recycling it with ease.
I also sat/layed down on a rock in the large stream and asked the rock
to pull the negative energy out of me, and send it into the water it
was sitting in and downstream over the waterfall and dissipate the
negative energy into neutrality, through the moving water.
After doing that, I also ran across something that read.. if you have
sorrow or grief, you should place the palms of your hands on the earth
and let it out through your hands,,, which sounds right to me.
I know I have to gear my mind to a more positive and joyful frame of
mind because I am too empathic for all the warrioring 100% of my time.
I was forced to be a warrior in life.. started out a peace-maker type
personality and sometimes it's hard to remember the real me.
I know I need more joy and to have more 'normal' human interaction
other than this addiction to warriorship and my next move.
I had been overwhelmed to the point where it is almost an impossibilty
to have a 'light' .. whats considered 'normal conversation' with
people. Not with all this serious business that must be payed
attention to!
So, I've forced myself to chill out, spend time with old/gold friends,
hiking , laffing, keeping the conversation on positive topics, and
catching myself before being mentally dragged back into the nasty
world they've tried to surround my world in and dwelling on those
thoughts.
The other part of my clearing had to do with my prayers. I decided to
give it a shot and hand over all my troubles to God,, you know, like
he said we could because he would handle all our burden for us? Well
thats what I did.
I said to God. " Here,, you take care of it", when referring to
something negative,, an attack, or an attacker that was bothering me
which I couldn't seem to prevent.
If I really just handed it off like that and REALLY forgot about it
with a smile on my lips, and full faith and Knowing that it was now in
the Big Guys hands.. I found much relief. I ignored it because it was
being taken care of. It wasn't my problem anymore. Since I did not
know how to make it stop, I truly gave up trying and sincerely handed
it over to The One who surely could.
Hey.. it worked.
Not every biblical teaching is a crock ;)
So, Now I refuse to be sucked into the nego-world as much as I have
allowed myself to be.
I came into this world to heal.. that was my original intention. To
heal and help. I was NOT an aggressive warrior type person when I
arrived here on earth... It was a foriegn and unnatural action to me
the day I had to first put those dukes up and say "stop the insanity"
back when I was about 8 years old and had cowered in the shadows
instead of jumping in and saying stop this insanity.
I had forgotten who I was before being forced to be someone I wasn't..
and I'm working on remembering the person I was born as.
Somewhere along the way I had to come out with my dukes up and that
was not my chosen way of being.
I Must return to who I am in my core, and though being a warrior is
exciting, exhilarating and addicting,, thats what I believe it is for
me, ,, an addiction leading me away/distracting me from my true nature.
I'm tired of the dukes-up position my hands and arms have to
constantly be in ,, while being "in the know" as to what is going on
in the lives and minds of our most vile enemies.
For anyone who's clogged up with built-up negative energy which turns
your touch into a corrupting one...try barefooted fresh air barefoot
walks in the woods and sun.. good friends and lighter conversations
geared towards something positive.
The corrupting touch is not something "someone else did to you".
It happenes from allowing yourself to become overwhelmed and
preoccupied with the nasties out there and the constant thought
pattern of "how to avert/stop them". It is so distressing to us to
know about these awful creatins and their plans, that it can overwhelm
a normal persons sensiblilities when dwelled on for the years we have/do.
Gotta just let it go sometimes.
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