The Narrow and Wide Paths
Hello, I am Joseph Yosuk Lee. In 1994, I graduated
from the University of California at Berkeley as a
physics and applied math major. In 1997, I also
graduated from UCI in the materials science and
engineering department with a Master's degree while
I got another Master's degree in the electrical
engineering department at the University of
Southern California. Now, I work at Samsung in
South Korea as a PCB engineer, and I play the piano
I was very devastated when I was an undergraduate at
Berkeley. I realized that I was not as intelligent
as I thought, and I had a lot of pride. I was one
of the top students at high school. At college, I
was average. While I was struggling with a B average,
my electrical engineer friend Tony made a 97% on the
midterm. I, myself, received a 70% average on that
same exam, and even my professor made a mistake in
his own midterm. My professor is an intelligent man
when he is a physics professor at Cal-Berkeley.
Despite this, I felt that Tony could easily surpass
him, although Tony was an electrical engineer and
computer science major. While I did not have the
faintest clue how to solve any of my 7 physics
problems, he could easily solve all of the problems
in the textbook spending only three hours per chapter.
I was very hurt, as well as humbled. I thought that
my greatest friends were my GPA, test scores, and
professors' recommendations until I met Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ became my best friend and He loved me
so much that He gave His life for me.
You are My friends if you do what I [Jesus] command.
I no longer call you servants, because a servant does
not know his master's business. Instead, I have
called you friends, for everything that I have
learned from My Father I have made known to you.
There are many stories of mothers dying while giving
birth to their children. There are also many stories
of men dying for their comrades in a war by throwing
their bodies on top of a grenade. However, Jesus died
for sinners like myself, for strangers like myself,
and for the rest of us, who are chosen. He did it
because He loves all of us as His friends. Grades
and academics cannot love you nor I. Only the Lord
can do that. I depended so much on my happiness on
school that I became miserable when I was not doing
well. At Berkeley, I was alone and did not have many
friends. I used to believe that school was far more
important than family, friends, people, and my own
life. I almost wanted to use some illegal drugs so
that I could enhance my school performance. When I
was at the bottom of my life, I finally accepted
Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior during a church
retreat at the mountains of Santa Cruz. I gave my
testimony about my bitter life telling every brother
in a circle that I study a lot and that my parents
were disappointed in me when I did not make it to
MIT or Harvard. After we left the circle, I talked
to my pastor outside in the dark and cried on his
shoulders during one Saturday night on October 20,
1990, and he comforted me.
After I accepted Jesus Christ, I finally gave up my
pride. I really wanted to share my faith with Tony
and I realized that it was too late. Tony killed
himself by jumping off the Holiday Inn Hotel at
Emeryville, California. To this day, I do not know
why he did it. All I know is that if I had not
accepted Christ, I would have taken my own life.
Tony and I took two different paths in our lives.
God helped me choose the narrow path while Tony
chose the wide and easy path.
"Enter the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and
broad is the way that leads to destruction, and
there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is
the gate and difficult is the way which leads to
life, and there are few who find it." Matthew
So I hated life, because the work that is done under
the sun was grievous to me. All of it is meaningless,
a chasing after the wind. Ecclesiastes 2:17