> you're a male whose significant other has been raped
Actually true. And Kim has always kind of downplayed it, though I
think it still moves within her profoundly on some level. She says
she's had her chakras balanced and seems at peace with it. Hasn't
gone into it with me very emotionally over the years. I suppose she
had made her peace with it before I came along and didn't really want
to dwell on it.
> Interesting for word play
Yes, I was doing word play, hoping play would lighten things up. But
it was just causing irritation and more hurt feelings.
> not a symbol it is a fact. Worried about the shadow dance and so
somehow you confuse the dance with reality and protect one for the
Something like that. Child wish to hurry to get to get others out of
suffering. Book heavy with how-to's.
> Choosing to kill because one was killed...whether it be in this
lifetime or the other is creating another oneupenance
I think we agree here. Good word: oneupance. I was actually feeling
kind of attacked by some of the list's responses to my brain/word
play. That felt a little ironic, but I can see I was setting myself
up for a comeback, having been essentially disrespectful, missing the
mark of heart being with heart.
> In my saying I trust what happened to me could also be
something that I had to overcome within myself. And how I look at it
now was that I realized I had been 'choked' in a sense. I had been
silenced but I have overcome that. I have always felt the angels
absorbed the pain of the events for me as I was too young to
understand. I never felt the pain of it nor the rage or hate of it.
You were a lucky little girl in a way, having that kind of
protection. The psychic said to me yesterday that I had a very
radiant angel in emerald green behind me always there with me, but
limited because my heart had been choked back over past lifetime and
negatively reinforce in this life. She said it was time for heart to
take its place, that low in spirit meant coming from heart level and
then radiating out from there. Not to do, not to fix, but to be the
light that is in me. Let that move out naturally from within its own
> If anything happens like this to the young children around me I
will make sure the man pays his price according to the law.
I wonder if that will bring the learning he's after. Sometimes it
seems to be that law punishes but doesn't teach very well.
> I suppose it depends on one's taste for drama,
Dude. Man that's messed up.
Again, my head trying to justify how we get into these fixes, how
they are even a possibility for Earth life to have to go through this
stuff. And head not being comfortable with big emotions that don't
make sense to it, it tries to reduce things down to a simple reason,
to feel better that this isn't an inherently crazy domain that's out
to get us just because it's malicious to the core. It wonders why
emotions are so strong when thinking could evaluate and categorize
and box things up all simple and tidy. So, my limited seeing starts
to think maybe we like drama on some level. I notice in myself times
when dirty dishes left too long at the sink creates waves of
disappointment and resentment and a lashing out of emotions. Later, I
think I could have handled that so much less emotionally, more
graciously, more simply sticking to the facts, making requests,
seeing everyone at their level of development. Where does this rage
come from? I sometimes think that feelings betray the peace, or that
maybe we set up this world to afford us chances to experience intense
feelings, so in some way we bring that on, as though we create
ourselves into a world that can give us these kinds of intensities,
for the experience they can bring us.
I remember once our daughter was about 7. We were in the car and her
brother was in the back-seat behind her playing with the lever to
move the seat back and forward. Rosie was having fun at first and all
was well. Suddenly she turned into maximal upset over it. Had a field
day of emotions. Once things settled down, I asked her if she were
really mad at Ben for the seat being moved around or was she actually
wanting to experience really big emotions. She thought about it for a
few seconds and said she thought she wanted to experience big
emotions, and she smiled. I thought that was kind of revealing.