I apologize to those of you who feel that my language is too strong. However, I can assure you, sometimes the word "fuck" is altogether appropriate. And, I'll add, most of the people I find interesting are not so milquetoast that they fear the use of dropping the f-bomb, when necessary. You craft your professional presence as you wish, and I'll craft mine. But, I've got a story to tell -- and, it has to come out. I'm not sure what form this is going to take, and who is going to help me get it out. But, I'd like some help from a bold voice who can really write; dialogue and plot. I'm a scholar, not a novelist.
I'm going to try to attach my dissertation on this email. Sometimes a historical study is just a study. And sometimes, it becomes three-dimensional. Please try to refrain from passing judgment on me, until I find the "correct" way to express about 18 years of utter legitimate confusion. I have seen things that scholars shouldn't see (in Latin America, specifically), and I am now in post-Soviet Kazakhstan (which is equally intriguing).