Here is a passage on doubt from "The Divine Hero" by Sri Chinmoy,
page 136, which left a special impression upon my mind and heart. I
especially like the last two sentences:
"In the spiritual life we constantly fight. We do not fight against
an enemy outside ourselves, but we fight against our own inner
enemies: fear, doubt, anxiety and worry. In comparison with doubt,
all other obstacles pale into insignificance. If a seeker is making
very fast progress or when he has gone a long way in the spiritual
life, even then he may be a victim of doubt. I always say that doubt
is slow poison.
"You are God's chosen child. When you go deep within and accept the
spiritual life, you have to feel that doubt is the worst thief in
your life. It is taking away all your precious inner wealth. Also,
doubt is your worst enemy. Why? Because doubt starts doubting
itself. Today you doubt someone and tomorrow you doubt yourself.
Today you have come to one conclusion and tomorrow another wave of
doubt is washed away. No, it has only been replaced by another doubt.
In life, everything depends on love. Unfortunately, some people love
doubt. Outwardly they say they hate it, but inwardly, unconsciously
or consciously, they cherish it. They feel that if they do not
doubt, they are not wise. When the mind doubts someone, it feels
great satisfaction in becoming the judge. The moment we doubt
someone, we feel that we are a step higher than they are. This is
absolutely wrong. In the spiritual life nobody is superior and
nobody is inferior. We are all instruments manifesting different
aspects of God's multiplicity."
Now you see why the last two sentences I like the most!
One of God's instruments,