Re: How Often
- Dear Doris,
The serendipity about birthdays and birthday songs multiplies. In the
message below you wrote about your precious and joyful discovery that
Guru wrote a song about birthdays on your actual birthday - September
23rd - less than three weeks before his mahasamadhi. Part of the
reason that I start this post with the word serendipity and uncanny
coincidence is because I was there when Guru taught the song to
Parvati's singing group as they stood on the sidewalk near where our
weekly 2 mile races finish. It was after he went for an early morning
drive along the 3100 mile race route.
I had a very sweet experience while he was teaching it and in a reply
thanking you for wishing me a happy belated birthday, I wrote back to
you about this song -- not knowing that it was written on your actual
birthday. In message #20660 on October 10th I wrote to you,
"Recently Sri Chinmoy composed a new birthday song in an early morning
meditation with Parvati's singing group near the finish line of our 2
mile races in Queens. I do not remember the words exactly but it
starts "My birthday (4 times) then something like From God's heart to
my heart he gives me a special ray. Later on I heard that it was
Parvati's birthday on that day. The sun was rising and reflecting off
the windows of the school behind them and through my glasses the light
was refracting with rays that went straight into Sri Chinmoy's heart
and mine, etc. Way cool serendipity. I imagine this new song will
eventually be established in the canon of birthday songs sung in the
centre. It's quite nice."
I looked it up today and see that I was wrong when I wrote last
October that the 23rd was Parvati's birthday - hers was the prior
Thursday. I liked the song so much that I tried to get someone to
teach it to me (unsuccessfully) and as best I could recall it then
sang it to myself while out walking on my actual birthday a couple of
Now I think it is entirely possible that Guru offered me this
experience so that I could eventually share it with you - that it is
for you to feel that you were standing there and seeing the rays of
light (the sun) beaming into your heart and his. God sure is wise and
p.s. can you send me the sheet music to the song off board?
- Dearest Sharani,
I was happy to read that your job will exist at least for another
year. During a year there is so much water running down the river...
as we say in German. "The votes of your heart" made me smile...and
don't forget the poem.
I too started with a second job. I can't believe it myself - I am a
nanny of two sweet Indian children, five and two years old. The main
language they speak is English, but the boy is happy when I speak
German with him. (You can find us watching English children channel
from time to time). Sometimes he speaks Hindi with his little sister
and I clearly see I have to learn Hindi to the
boys' "disappointment." He is of the opinion he would like to speak
with his sister without me to understand. :-) One can say West meets
East - East meets West. It is an interesting exchange.
As for serendipity, I meet with so many coincidences that I sometimes
smilingly shake my head and just wonder... But your message about the
new birthday song was kind of overwhelming. (Sorry, if my report
wasn't 100% correct; Guru was back to New York when he composed the
song and not in Russia anymore).
How often do I think of the place where Guru gave a race-prayer, it
was always so special. A tiny man would be sitting in his car and
slowly and soulfully take the mic from Rupantar meditating and then
start to compose a poem while others would repeat it and again others
like me would perhaps still be gasping for breath after running two
miles. Many people would be gathering around the car and at the end
Guru would give prasad for everybody.
After reading your message I clearly saw myself standing next to you
and in a spontaneous feeling of gratitude I looked and smiled at you.
It was such an overwhelming joy to feel and see Guru and to allow the
sun to enter my heart.
Guru was and is pleasing us in so many ways. But I would love to
please HIM! Birthdays remind us of our promise why we came down to
earth. I so much like reading stories by Sri Chinmoy in which the
Cosmic Gods and Goddesses are involved. These stories somehow give my
own life a wider perspective. (Reminds me of a touching story about a
poor old man who was a devotee of Krishna. These are of course my
personal recollections: The man was so poor that Krishna out of
compassion left a gold coin in front of his house. But this man was
so absorbed in his prayers that he oversaw it).
Guru wrote something about God's Birthday but I can't find it
anymore. It was something like God was born on a particular day and
year but God's actual Birthday is birthless and deathless etc.
(Perhaps it is to be found in the Questions and Answers series).
Well, before I start small talking I better stop here. Only one more
thing. At the memorial week in October 2007 I was happy to meet a
fellow student from New York who is also celebrating her birthday on
that particular day Guru composed the new birthday song. She came up
the stairs at Aspiration-Ground and I couldn't resist to say hello
and whispering, "I am so happy to see you", she smiled and whispered
back, "Thank you." I remember there is a video on which Guru calls
her on the phone on her birthday and sings Ekbal Shudhu Bhalo. I so
much love it.
Wishing you happy celebrations
P.S. It is my pleasure to send you the music and lyrics of the song.
Either I will ask someone to scan it or will send it by mail -
honoring the good old times.
- Dear Doris,
I was touched by your moving description of Guru giving race prayers
at the finish line of the Saturday morning races. I have only been to
a Saturday morning race once since when he was still on earth and I
must confess it was a bit of an emotional hurdle. Luckily time heals
all. I'm thrilled you were able to visualize being there for the
teaching of the song. Hearing that really lifted me.
Your new second job as a nanny sounds delightful. I think you are
quickly turning into a real polyglot! I will miss not seeing you in NY
this April. I hope you are able to come sometime soon.
- "Time heals all
But I say, "No!"
It's love - divine.
There is no past,
There is no future,
It's all now.
It heals all
- My own favourite Saturday Race Prayer experience happened in
2002. I was in New York early as part of the Housing Team,
cleaning and preparing houses for the Celebrations. We had
just about finished and Celebrations were about to start. I
think it was 8th August.
On the Friday I had phoned home. There were some tricky
problems. I was afraid I would have to go home to sort them
out and I would miss Celebrations. As a result I went to the
race in tears. I was late and the runners had already
started, but Guru's car was parked by the sidewalk. I stood
on the opposite side just looking at Guru and crying and
crying. I couldn't stop the tears. I did not want to go. I
did not want to leave Guru's presence. I couldn't see Guru
clearly because the light reflected on the car window with
the reflection of the trees, but I could feel that he was
aware of me. I was trying to meditate but the helpless tears
After some time the race ended and Guru gave the prayer. It
went straight into my heart. Some time later I asked someone
for a transcript of the prayer. I was surprised and checked
with other people because all that I had heard was not there.
It was still a very significant and wonderful prayer and I
felt it was uniquely mine as it answered my grief so
I think it was later, at Aspiration Ground , that Guru set
this prayer to music and made it a song. I have tried to get
the music ever since and some day I will get it and learn it
as a song. But for now I just try to include this prayer
regularly in my meditations. (If I have made a mistake,
please correct me and if you know the music please share it
I will write this most sacred prayer here and then write the
extra lines that I 'heard' but were not heard by anyone else.
Surrender, surrender, surrender,
I must surrender
My life, my heart and my very breath
To the Will of my Lord Beloved Supreme
At every moment.
If I succeed
Only then will He claim me
As His Own, very Own.
(Then the extra lines that I heard were:
And I will see Him
And be with Him
Wherever we may be.
I was wanting to stay at Guru's presence in New York and not
have to be away from him geographically. But you can imagine
how important and significant this prayer has become for me
now that Guru is no longer in the physical world.)
Needless to say, Guru also worked a few other miracles at
that time. I had no outer message from Ashrita but my son
came to Celebrations a few days later with news that he had
been able to put the problems on hold so I could deal with
them when I returned after Celebrations - so I was able to
I have been really longing and crying to come to the Holy
Ground this April. Easter was early so the school holidays
did not coincide - and money is difficult at the moment. But
I believe in miracles and have been praying for one. I'm
writing this at 2.30 am on April 12th and in a few hours I
will be going to the airport. I am able to come just for two
days - so I will be at Aspiration Ground on 13th. There is
only one word: GRATITUDE.
- I was so happy to see you there Durga Mata!
I did not get to speak with you, but I saw you glowing during our
walking meditation on Sunday.
I have the same difficulty as you with our school holidays not
coinciding with Celebrations, and I have to do some interesting
acrobatics to get there even for 3 days, but I have never regretted
for a second doing those acrobatics, because Guru can give you what
you need in as little or as much time as you have.
I'm sure that you went back to England beaming from ear to ear!
- Hi Doris,
Since you had recently offered to send me the sheet music to the new
happy birthday song written by Guru last September, I wanted to let
you know I just got a copy of it. There is an article about this song
in the second issue of the newsletter edited by Projjwal called
"Inspiration-Sun." Although this is the second issue, it is the first
time I see it. I bought it at the sideshow and am still reading all
the fascinating articles inside it. I learned in this new issue about
the first time Guru started playing the Western Flute in Australia in
1975 and how a kangaroo was mesmerized by his playing when they were
at a nature sanctuary.
There are so many fascinating articles like this one about the history
of Guru's flute playing and Tanima wrote an article about the
composition of the Happy Birthday song on September 23rd - the last
song he taught at the 3100-mile race course. She said the new
tradition will be to sing the first happy birthday song with the
rainbow dreams lyrics, then the new My Birthday song with the rays in
it and lastly the traditional Happy Birthday song. Have you seen the
newsletter too? Now I'm wondering how I can get a copy of the first one...
- Dear Sharani,
I sent the birthday song two days ago by air-mail to you.
The first issue of Inspiration-Sun has been sent to you today. Yes, I
received the second issue. I was happy to read Tanima's account.
Liked your post about the original bird drawing...#22490 :-)
- Hello Purnakama,
Thankyou for your sweet message,
I've not had much time to read Inspiration lately so I had missed this
Post - and one by Nirmala. I am short of time so I hope you can take
my reply to her as also a reply for you.
The only time I've ever come to New York like this before, during
term-time, was one weekend in June, some years ago. I will try to
write about it in more detail sometime as it was very special. But the
funny part of it was that on the Saturday night at Aspiration Ground,
having arrived that afternoon and half asleep from jet lag, I slipped
while stepping down from one bench to another on the bleachers, when
Guru called for Prasad. I hurt my toe.
I had come by Air France - the only flight that could get me to New
York on Saturday and back for school on Monday - The flight back from
New York was delayed so I couldn't catch my connecting flight from
Paris to Birmingham Airport.
In a panic I phoned my son and asked him to ring my school and say I'd
slipped and hurt my foot, so I couldn't drive. He said that I was in
London still, getting it checked at casualty. It gave me the perfect
excuse to be late to school. Later that week, when I did indeed get it
x-rayed, it turned out that I had broken my toe. So everyone at school
was very sympathetic. I limped around with a very special secret smile
in my heart. If I'd not slipped on the bleachers I would have been in
a lot more trouble.
Have you ever had to come up with an unexpected reason for being late
- Great story Durga Mata!
I have had some very interesting things happen with regards to
coming to NY.
In Canada we have a holiday called Labour Day, the first weekend in
September, and schools in many provinces do not start the school
year until after this weekend. My province was an exception.
We always started sometime in the last week of August just before
the Labour day long weekend.
My first several years going to August Celebrations we started late
enough that I could still go for Guru's birthday, and still make it
back to start school on time.
Sometimes I would arrive home on Midnight of the 28th and have to
get up and start the new school year the next day!
One year I was not so lucky and we had to start school on the 26th
of August. I was tortured! I had to miss Guru's birthday, or I would
lose my job. As you know schools are very strict about extending a
I didn't know what to do. I couldn't miss Guru's birthday, but I had
to go back.
I was told that in the past exceptions were made for teachers who
really had no choice, but I was still tortured.
With a very heavy heart I left Celebrations early and went back to
But then, a miracle happened.
When I got back to school I found out that our Provincial Government
had changed it's policy, and that starting the next school year, our
schools would not begin until after Labour Day, which meant that I
would never have to miss Guru's birthday again; and I never have.
I am forever grateful for a few forward thinking politicians!
When I see you in August, please remind me to tell you the story of
Guru's 40th April 13th Celebrations, my father's death, and the
craziness and miracles that occurred as both of these events
coincided when I was supposed to be in school:)