Re: A Beginning, an End, and an Eternity and God's creatures
- Dear Sharani,
I am all admiration for the way you gracefully slipped back into the
pool, even carrying with you all the light of the retreat back to
us! Welcome home, we missed you!
P.S. Would you like to join Purnakama, Doris, Beverly and me for
online-tea at Purnakama's place? (see #21342, for instance)
--- In Sri_Chinmoy_Inspiration@yahoogroups.com, sharani_sharani
> Dear Sumangali,
> Your words of encouragement for ongoing and especially new bell
> ringers feel like the perfect first place to share a few words here
> now that I have returned from ten days on retreat.*
> Since I usually share here frequently, my not using the Internet
> while brings an altogether different perspective. I came homeInternet
> and read a host of illumining, thought and soul provoking messages
> from the silent reader point of view because I didn't use the
> but once on my trip. Now that I'm out of the flow, it truthfullyfeels
> somewhat daunting to dive back in and do a few laps -- yes you'llfind
> some swimming and ocean imagery from me with so much time inthe
> the idyllic waters of the Caribbean fresh in my being. :-)
> The shoe is suddenly on the other foot. Putting that first toe in
> water can be tough. Then if someone writes, it must be hard ifequally
> dialogue does not flow from it. Sumangali wrote,
> "It means a lot when someone takes time to say how they feel, and
> sticks their neck out to do so: either in an original message or in
> response to one written by someone else."
> I often sincerely wish time permitted thoughtful replies to all who
> share here even though I know it would be a time-consuming task. I
> find myself remembering Subarnamala's beautiful message #20940 about
> oneness during the Memorial Week and regretting that I never replied
> to it specifically.
> She shared this with us on November 3rd as a reply to Suren's
> powerful post #20822 on oneness after Sri Chinmoy's mahasamadhi:overcome
> Sadly she has not written since then - I miss the peal of her bell.
> Luckily Suren is still writing.
> Even though I'm ordinarily chatty here, I truly struggled to
> a sense of intimidation about writing again after I finished readingKind
> most of the messages I missed while away. Then my thoughts flew to a
> prayer recitation by Ashani's prayer group I was lucky enough to
> participate in. The morning of the day I flew home a group of girls
> led by Ashani recited 50 "My God-Hunger-Cry" prayers from memory.
> of true to form as an American (one of only a couple in the group),I
> needed a little remedial instruction on the goal of blending andfelt I
> melting all as one voice because I was reciting a little too loudly
> during the practices. Ironically, my loudness was not because I
> knew them thoroughly, more just a quest to convince myself of whatout
> came next through sheer exuberance.
> I suddenly thought of my own stereotype of Americans in a kind of
> frontier mode (Hey I even have pioneers who went by covered wagon
> West in my family history) going along a little oblivious to therest
> of the world and slightly over eager and zealous in one very bigand
> country. That spirit sometimes creates a strong independent streak
> that "too many chiefs and not enough Indians syndrome." :-) Inplaces
> like Europe, there are so many countries adjacent to one another andlowered
> the European Union fosters ever-increasing cooperation. None of the
> European members of our group needed coaching on the one voice from
> many method we strove to achieve.
> I tried to quickly mend my ways and learn by their example. I
> my voice and redoubled my efforts to feel oneness within the group.with
> This immediately intensified a feeling of sweet soulfulness and
> harmony. By the time of the performance, I was blessed to deeply
> experience that sense of oneness that far surpasses my individual
> self. My voice didn't even seem to be my own and I hardly recognized
> it. The surface me was not the one who spoke that's for sure.
> Somehow I feel that there is a lesson for hesitation to write and
> share here and the feelings we glimpse in deep meditation or in
> singing and reciting Sri Chinmoy's utterances.
> Perhaps it is partially the feeling that the deepest beauty comes in
> oneness and fulness. The more people that share here the sweeter the
> Perhaps it is also the feeling that if some posts engender a feeling
> that what we might share is a tiny hill in comparison to their
> loftiness, it is rather the opposite. When we blend as one voice
> true banishment of a sense of superior or inferior, only then doesthe
> deepest beauty again flourish.key
> And finally perhaps it is just another expression of the intensified
> yearning for community, family and oneness that has become a real
> in our lives since October 11th. In this forum, that takes the formof
> wishing for silent readers to become at least fleeting bell-ringers.strive
> And just like how in the prayer recitation it was so special to
> for oneness without any one voice standing apart, the more voicesthat
> could chime in here would truly herald victory.sky.
> May I finish with one of the prayers we recited that is exquisitely
> "My aspiration-heart is breathlessly in rapture in the blue vast
> It has seen God's signature."each
> My "God-Hunger-Cry" prayer - Sri Chinmoy
> *In their essential core, these days offered vivid and powerful
> opportunities to deepen our oneness and heart's connections with
> other along with the certitude of Guru's inner guidance in our livesbaring
> even if no longer supplemented by his outer physical presence.
> I honestly feel no less transformed from the experience than
> any other Christmas trip. My ordinary human mind is still awed and
> overwhelmed by such an experience. More on that will have to wait
> until the entire trip is over.
> - In Sri_Chinmoy_Inspiration@yahoogroups.com, sumangali_m
> <no_reply@> wrote:
> > Ten days late, *thank you* for this kind message, Purnakama. Your
> > chiming is music to my ears. Sometimes it is not so comfortable
> > one's soul to the whole world. It is more solace than you mayknow to
> > find that my words sometimes find a safe harbour of kindness.and
> > Just because someone might find it relatively easy to put their
> > thoughts and feelings into writing, does not mean those thoughts
> > feelings are any less vulnerable in a public arena. It means a lotneck
> > when someone takes time to say how they feel, and sticks their
> > out to do so: either in an original message or in response to onecould.
> > written by someone else. I don't do this myself as much as I
> >even if
> > To any silent readers out there, I hope we hear from you soon,
> > it's just to say hello. I know even that might not be easy(really, I
> > *do*), but it might just be worth the effort. It's sometimeslonely
> > out here on the public limb :-)round, I
> > I love the sound of many church bells ringing together in a
> > love the sweetness of many hand bells playing a tune; so muchmerrier
> > than one tolling into a void. Oneness seems more important nowthan it
> > ever was.
> > Sumangali
> > Bringing some bells and bidding you ring, dear World (even
> > Go on, I dare you
- Dear Sharani,
Thank you for bringing some glimpses of your trip; although, as you
say, the outer details are pending, the inner light you have received
shines brightly through your greetings. It is most encouraging (in
fact, a great relief) to hear that you have received as much inner
nourishment as on previous trips: further assurance that Sri
Chinmoy's inner presence may be as tangible as his former outer
Silence may so often breed doubt that one has been understood. Your
anecdote is an absolutely perfect parallel, offered with such warmth
and humility. It spoke my own sentiments much more clearly and
powerfully than my message to which you replied. Thank you so much.
* * *
Dear Silent Readers,
I absolutely respect your divine right to remain silent, and I am
sincerely grateful for your strengthening presence in this group.
My invitation was meant only as encouragement to those who remain
silent out of timidity. I meant only to tell you that I myself am
naturally timorous; it is only through God's Grace and Sri Chinmoy's
inner and outer encouragement that I have managed to overcome it to
the extent of saying anything at all in a public space. I still have a
long, long way to go, but any baby steps taken thus far have brought
me nothing but progress.
Mind you, ask me to speak alone publicly, or sing into an
audience however forgiving and you will see the trembling mouse in
me. If you feel that way about writing, you have my full sympathy, but
more constructive than that: my prayer that you feel encouraged to
join this choir of bells, if you are so inclined.
With best wishes to all
- Dear Sarah,
After I entered my tea order in my reply to Vasanti's message, now I
read yours! Sorry about that. As you can see in that message, I'm
drinking Decaf chai with pumpkin flavored soymilk in it. Then there's
always blueberry rooibos tea at Ketan's Panorama Cafe beckoning as well.
Today I saw my first snow - what a wonderful experience. And how odd
when only two days ago the whiteness surrounding me was the softest
delicate sand on the beach or the froth of a wave. Here are some
pictures from my trip
--- In Sri_Chinmoy_Inspiration@yahoogroups.com, sarah_inseattle
> Dear Sharani,
> I am all admiration for the way you gracefully slipped back into the
> pool, even carrying with you all the light of the retreat back to
> us! Welcome home, we missed you!
> P.S. Would you like to join Purnakama, Doris, Beverly and me for
> online-tea at Purnakama's place? (see #21342, for instance)