Sunday, April 15
- TIM GERCHMEZ
Good Morning to all the Christs and
Buddhas on the list, the one Christ,
The One Buddha, the empty Buddha,
the full Buddha, the Christ Here.
Here's to the fire that burns away
even the idea that there could have
ever been "ignorance" or "illusion."
The 'Holy Fire' that burns bright and
hot without a trace of smoke, leaving
behind only clear sky, silent clarity;
It burned in ancient times before the
universe came into being, and so there
is only This Understanding:
Prajna Paramita -------> Gate Gate
Para Gate Parasam Gate Bodhi Svaha.
Gone, Gone, Gone Beyond, Gone
Beyond having never left!
Everpresent and Silent is
Understanding... there is
absolutely nothing else.
Nothing else is possible
except this Understanding.
A peace beyond all possible
understanding, Joy Eternal.
All Hail, there never was ignorance,
Never was there a trace of illusion.
There could never be a trace of
bondage anywhere, there never was!
Know this and Rejoice! Clarity!
Absolute Clarity! There is only
this Clarity! Only the Peace!
The Holy Fire burned away the universe
before it ever came into existence, so
rejoice in and as the clarity, silence
and peace that is this Understanding!
Celebrate the flickering vision that
is the universe, knowing itself as
vision, celebration, rejoicing!!!
Dancing, Dancing in the flames, the
flames that burned away "you" and
"me" before time had a chance to
tick, before anything ever became.
There is only Buddha-Nature.
Only Christ to be found anywhere.
Only this Understanding, it is
Everywhere, it is the Only Thing
But even still, it is given here
and now: ---------> go, be free!
If you are interested in reading mystical experiences of others.
Here is the link.
The book How To Know God by Deepak Chopra is also very
insightful. [I am in the process of reading it, I hope the rest
of the chapters are as good as the ones I have read]
REGARDING THE UPCOMING NDS GATHERING
It doesn't look like I'll get to the west coast this year. Last
year in R.I. was unforgettable. I would highly recommend going
to anyone who can. --Andew
"Wish you could make it"... I'm probably going, if you're
curious where it's gonna be held, here's the website:
Hi Tim, Andrew and List Members,
There is a gathering upcoming, yet official announcement is
pending the actual date. Consider this the official unofficial
announcement. The gathering will be at Pema Osel Ling at the
link above. It could be Labor Day weekend, although the end of
September is when it may actually happen.
Planning to attend are Cee (who has visited and reserved the
site), the list member known as Waterlift (who has also visited
the site), Tim, myself, Gene Poole and magical lady friend.
There are many in California, Oregon, Washington, as well as
Michael and Judi in Las Vegas. I'll do my best to bring the rest
of the nova scotia contingent, Dustin, James and Andrew. How
about the southern California - Seattle - Portland - Vancouver
It would be good if people could write me or the list if they
leaning toward attending, so that we could get a feel for how
many will be present. Costs run from $20-50 per day, plus
$27/day for three full prepared and served meals. Camping
available at $25/day.
This will be an unstructured gathering, as was the Rhode Island
get-together. What we found is that things happened. Someone
would 'take the floor' for a little while. However nothing was
planned, and no one was obligated to be part of spontaneously
arising happenings. There were always a couple of people who
wandered off or went out for pizza or something. Write me or the
list if anyone has questions or if you think you are interested
I can only hope you meet "our" Judi at the retreat - calling a
woman "dakini" is an honor :) I know her to be passionate,
loving and caring...
********* Oh god, I wish you could come! I love you so much..
Living on a tiny budget means budget-travel and that's limited
to Europe... The times of $100 for a return ticket to the US are
definitely over - unless in a box :)
Also on a small budget here, but some money is stored in a
Certificate of Deposit.
If US$200 more would bring you any closer to coming, consider it
done. Otherwise, paths will cross 'as the fates allow'.
Much appreciated Tim - that certainly brings closer - when it
will be known when the retreat is held and from which airport to
go there, it will be possible to start looking for
EDITOR'S NOTE: Tim is taking contributions.Tim Gerchmez <coresite@...>
MELODY AND JAN BARENDRECHT
ºyou wrote, in part:
º"Path" will eventually change the course of life.
ºWhen there is sense to change it, it either denotes "doership" or
ºindicates "no surrender" which is
ºthe same. I didn't even chose "spiritual life" - it was the other way
ºAnd what "normally"takes an entire lifetime was compressed into just 8
ºThat could not possibly have happened in any kind of relationship.
ºFinding a job was difficult -
ºwhen there is no more sense to compete, no more urge to "perform".
º There are no rules regarding "Path" -
ºbecause it can't be chosen - what can happen, is 'missing' an
ºopportunity - but it will represent itself again, much
ºlater, when the resistance to take such opportunity has been broken
º"gradually" - which is a result of
ºaging too :)
ºWhat you say here really strikes a chord.
ºThese last couple of days I've been looking
ºat many of the ways "the sense to change it"
ºarises for me -
ºprimarily around no longer having the
º"urge to perform".
And probably the question arises "how to function without
ºOne example: I have always been known
ºas one with a creative talent when it comes
ºto home decorating. I had a real talent for
ºtaking 'nothing' and making it look quite
ºgood. My sister came to my house the
ºother day and was rather shocked to see
ºthat my living room wall is still only half
ºway painted, months after the project
ºwas begun........and an occassional chair
ºsits in that same room only half upholstered.
And how did you feel, seeing her state of mind?
ºThis body-mind continues to experience
ºthe stress of 'having no urge' to complete
ºor even begin most 'home improvement' projects
º....and is continually bumping up against
ºvarious and sundry other "I shoulds"-
ºwhether heard from within, or from family/society.
ºThe apparent choice continually pops
ºup: to follow 'the flow', or do what is 'right'
Man isn't designed to live a solitary life like a tiger.
Just look at the life of Ramana - he was taken care of
early, after it was discovered he was a realized one.
And he had more company than for instance Tim.
When in a network of caring, action will take place
without the questions you are putting.
ºThe point has come, however,
ºwhere without the 'fuel' to accomplish
ºsuch projects......without the 'fuel'
ºto do so much of everyday 'homemaking'
That is the 'masking activity' of 'illusory self'.
It is powerful as to turn love into hate, like into
dislike and 'dilute' love to 'less than skin deep'.
Ignore it - the dishes have to be washed, the wall
has to be painted, the house has to be cleaned.
ºall that's left to do is notice and
ºwatch these many voices of 'doership'...
º....just watch these thoughts dance upon
ºthe stage, and then fade away.
ºThus "deconditioning" proceeds....
ºnot out of choice, or intention,
ºbut as the natural outcome of
ºa kind of 'energy paralysis'
ºto 'do' otherwise.
Perhaps you are interested to know why St John of the Cross
had his "dark night of the soul". He was quite alone, outside
what I call a 'network of caring and sharing'. And it made the deconditioning
to something that could have been interpreted very differently.
Deconditioning is a process - it doesn't dictate how to function.
In other words, the 'background music' will determine 'mood'
º'K' is quite the sly One,
ºand no doubt 'works'
ºeach individual differently.
The sequence of deconditioning can greatly differ among
individuals - but one thing is clear: it concerns the same
"layer of the onion". When it is 'cleared', all so called
"human properties" that were thought to be absent or
"transcended" will be "back" :) but without the former
potential for attachment and clinging. That explains
in a certain extent the "abusive" behavior of some teachers
who went to the USA. So the advice would be,
just keep functioning 'as usual' :)
JUST THIS AND JAN BARENDRECHT
i do agree with you guys that "That" must be the first priority,
however i disagree that the form of ones life must change. In my own
case i life a full, active life, with many good friends, a family,
children, and a more than 9-5 job. And this has been this way for my
adult life. This has not interfered at all with "That" being "top
priority". I have found that the "doing nothing" you speak of is not
necessarily related to the "external". I'm not saying anything
negative about your "path", I'm just saying it can be different than
All are blessed
Oh - things work "the other way around": "Path" will eventually
change the course of life. When there is sense to change it, it
either denotes "doership" or indicates "no surrender" which is
the same. I didn't even chose "spiritual life" - it was the
other way around. And what "normally"takes an entire lifetime
was compressed into just 8 months. That could not possibly have
happened in any kind of relationship. Finding a job was
difficult - when there is no more sense to compete, no more urge
There are no rules regarding "Path" - because it can't be chosen
- what can happen, is 'missing' an opportunity - but it will
represent itself again, much later, when the resistance to take
such opportunity has been broken "gradually" - which is a result
of aging too :) But then, life-energy can be insufficient....
But don't worry, such 'missing' can only be seen in retrospect,
when thoughts "crystallize" into "results" rather fast... Which
means, hardly anyone will notice that...
you could say that
the "seeker" is the concept
that conceptualization uses
to give itself an ongoing
meaning and intentionality.
Without the seeker, concept
simply appears, dissolves.
To seek "not" while
*is* is, is likened
to searching for
food by locking
oneself in an
Beating your head on rocks
is likened to making a bloody
mess where everything is
originally clear ;-)