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Highlights of Friday July 7, 2000

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  • Gloria Lee
    LARRY Here s a snippet from Sobottkaji: If I am not anything, then what am I? The answer is simple: I am the pure Awareness that is aware of all things, and
    Message 1 of 1 , Jul 8, 2000

      Here's a snippet from Sobottkaji:
      If I am not anything, then what am I? The answer is simple: I am the
      pure Awareness that is aware of all things, and the pure Presence that
      is the Presence in all things. I am the Awareness of Presence, and the
      Presence of Awareness. What could be more simple, and yet so profound
      and so liberating
      What does "the pure Presence that is the Presence in all things" mean,
      and how can it be "not anything"?
      ********* Uh, duh???


      Judi Rhodes wrote:
      > What's Tonglen? Never heard of it?

      Other than experiencing it through those who know it, there
      is an article and excellent links at



      My father has been dead now almost two months.
      It is really different to have my parents dead. Both
      of them. I never really grieved for my mom as I had
      my dad and all his needs. Now they are both gone.
      It is strange to walk the planet knowing neither one of
      them is here.

      They were so much a part of my life. I never moved
      away from them. I never really left home in a way.
      Now they are gone and it is a much different world
      without them. There is a big hole in my heart and yet
      in a way they are not gone. I don't feel as if I will
      never see them again cause I have them right here.
      But I miss their immediate presence.

      It gives me a much broader outlook on life. I see
      life in a much bigger way. The time expanse of
      life seems all as one whole. I travel from childhood
      to old age in a seamless way. It is all one whole.

      I feel very honored to have been present at each
      of their deaths. It wasn't smooth. I mean John
      (my husband) and I were not even sure my dad
      was dead. It was one of those life situations where
      nothing prepares you for it. But we managed. We
      did the right thing. We made him look good. We
      got the kids up and we each said good-bye.


      Rainer Maria Rilke on the death of his father:

      *Within my deepest hope*

      As for myself, what has died for me has died, so to speak, into my
      own heart: when I looked for him, the person who vanished has
      collected himself strangely and so surprisingly in me, and it was so
      moving to feel he was now only there that my enthusiasm for serving
      his new existence, for deepening and glorifying it, took the upper
      hand almost at the very moment when pain would otherwise have
      invaded and devastated the whole landscape of my spirit. When I
      remember how I - often with the utmost difficulty in understanding
      and accepting each other - loved my father! Often, in childhood, my
      mind became confused and my heart grew numb at the mere thought
      that someday he might no longer be; my existence seemed to me so
      wholly conditioned through him (my existence, which from the start
      was pointed in such a different direction!) that his departure was to
      my innermost self synonymous with my own destruction.. . , but so
      deeply is death rooted in the essence of love that (if only we are
      cognizant of death without letting ourselves be misled by the
      uglinesses and suspicions that have been attached to it) it nowhere
      contradicts love: where, after all, can it drive out someone whom we
      have carried unsayably in our heart except into this very heart,
      where would the "idea" of this loved being exist, and his unceasing
      influence (: for how could that cease which even while he lived with
      us was more and more independent of his tangible presence).., where
      would this always secret influence be more secure than in us?! Where
      can we come closer to it, where more purely celebrate it, when obey
      it better, than when it appears combined with our own voices, as if
      our heart had learned a new language, a new song, a new strength!

      (To Countess Margot Sizzo-Noris-Crouy, January 6, 1923)

      Allspirit Website


      MARCIA and DAVE (Manchine)

      > Marcia wrote:
      > Hi Dave,
      > I do get identified when I go to talk about what I see.
      > It doesn't make what I see any less real; it just
      > means ego grabs it up. I am the mouse in the corner
      > who always wants to please. I take care of people
      > and their needs, most of the time because of ego, but
      > underneath it is part of my essential nature.

      It's a real bitch, we, all of us, are born with the problem.
      That's what makes it so complicated. We inherit this stuff. And to
      top it all off, we're made innocent. There's nothing we can do
      about it until it's too late. If we get to where we see that
      the ego's getting in the way, we start to feel guilty or
      try to make excuses for it. That is normal! It's part of the
      essential nature of all individuals.

      > Anyway.......the ego is blind to the treasure. When the
      > ego sees a paradise it is still ego. Only the ego is interested
      > in self-satisfaction. The treasure is not personal. Man's
      > personal paradise fantasy is still man putting himself in the
      > middle. It is ego that the treasure has to be hideth from.
      > And not by ego.

      I completely agree with most of what you say here, except the
      first sentence, and the last two.

      "The ego is blind to the treasure", seems to coincide with the
      sentences that follow, and in that sense I agree. Where ego is NOT
      blind to the treasure, is in the fact that it knows that the
      treasure can only exist without the ego. I think we have to remove
      a disguise right now! The treasure is "the kingdom of heaven" or
      Self. The image of ego and ego's world hides Self.

      Why does Self have to be hidden from the ego? Because exposing it
      would destroy ego?! There are thousands of people who don't even
      want to talk about this, because they "know", deep down inside
      that it's threatening!

      By all means, expose the ego to Self, I say!

      > Gurdjieff said man gets things upside down. I am coming
      > more and more each day to see the truth in this.

      Man will stand on his head to make things look safe.

      > I "take the bait" by taking personally what people say to
      > me. That is my ego. I was an only child; no siblings.
      > My parents were older. I never learned to fight. I do
      > back down. It is easy to punch my lights out. I am one
      > of those sensitive kinds.
      > The difficulty I can see when I read your reply back to
      > me is that many things are mixed together. Your thinking
      > is not clear. You are trying to prove a point and are grabbing
      > whatever is at had. It paints a nice picture but it doesn't
      > feel real.

      I try my best, it's a very confusing point, and the ego is a
      very adept opponent with every thing on its side. One cannot
      help but accept all the reasons one has for responding as they do.
      It's all we've ever, ever known.

      There's a consolation. Many have made the sacrifice, and can
      say with all honesty that they were fools for not doing it sooner.

      The ego amplifies "things". From the viewpoint of the ego, there's
      a lot of things to give up. From the viewpoint of Self we're suffering
      for nothing.


      There is a lengthy continuing discussion of differences between Ramana and Papaji's
      recommended teaching methods with regard to self-inquiry, ego preservation
      strategies and effort vs "no effort." If this interests you, you may want to read
      those messages at egroups. They seem to this editor anyway too many to include here.


      XAN sends

      You are joyous and alive by His breath.
      You move by the power of His love.


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