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  • markwotter704
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      Nondual Highlights: Issue #2905, Sunday, August 19, 2007


      Adyashanti - dialogue evening satsang Aslilomar Feb 2007

      S: So the other thing just recently, I picked up this book by
      Bernadette Roberts and I'm just like stunned, like every page, and so
      I guess one of my questions is she talks about no-ego and no-self and
      she distinguishes those two and I think I always thought they were
      the same thing. I wondered if you could...

      Adyashanti: Well it does get into a bit of hair-splitting, I must
      admit. It all depends on what people mean by those. Everybody means
      something different as far as I can tell. I ask 10 people what's ego
      and I give me 10 different responses. I'm sure Bernadette Roberts has
      her definition of ego and her definition of ego is different from her
      definition of self. So they're going to be different. But there's no
      universal definition of either one. That's the difficulty of it all.
      I mean I think she's making some very beautiful points in that book
      about what she's seen, is very wonderful. It's very true. But when it
      gets to the sort of fine distinctions between the subtleties of
      definitions it gets very problematic because there is no such thing
      as a universally agreed upon definition of either one. And she's kind
      of assuming that there is.

      S: Right.

      A: And there really isn't.

      S: It's like I picked up this book and this little voice inside
      said 'uh-oh this is going to scare me.' Mostly because like I feel
      there's this love affair with God going on.

      A: Ah, okay, I got it.

      S: And she talks about that even dropping away.

      A: Yes.

      S: And part of me is like 'Oh, my God, God has just swept me up.' And
      now you're going to like take that away.

      A: I know.

      S: And something here is curious, like what's beyond even this.

      A: Of course, that's the way you're hooked up. You're hooked up
      reality, for all of what you really are and nothing less. And you
      won't be stopped even if you bump into the best possible state you
      can find. Eventually what you are is hooked up to come back
      completely to itself no matter what that is. It's just the way the
      whole thing works.

      S: And yes that's what it feels like. It feels like swept away. I'm
      being swept away and there's no choice.

      A: Right, there isn't any choice. And you're right and you're
      intuition is correct and you will lose your relationship with God.
      It's correct. And I don't say that to diminish it. I can remember it.
      It's wonderful, it's profound, its very transformational. It's about
      the most extraordinary experience you can have. Right? No self is not
      an extraordinary experience. In many ways it's the total ending of
      extraordinary experiences. The problem is in the description of it,
      all descriptions can only sound negative. If you're going to talk
      accurately, they can only sound negative. But actually the happening
      itself definitely isn't. It's far from it. In comparison you'd never
      go back to anything. Even the best thing that ever happened to you. I
      can guarantee you there will not be an impulse in you that would want
      to go back to anything.

      S: Like something just responds when you say that.

      A: Cause you know that's the truth of you, knowing, okay it's got a
      taste of this and you got yourself unified with reality or God,
      right. That's just a conceptual way of saying it but its one way of
      saying what happens, you got yourself so unified there's almost no
      distinction between you and God. And it's wonderful. It's profound
      and the best possible thing that can ever happen to you. And it's not
      the end of the journey going nowhere. Right? Because the truth is
      actually One so in One the time will come when there's not Union
      because there isn't two.

      S: Right.

      A: We think the only way our minds are hooked up, can only conceive
      when they hear someone say Oneness we can only think of Union. You
      know like when I'm with my lover and we get so close and intimate and
      we lose each other and it's like we're the same thing and everything
      and that must be what Oneness is. Not even close! That's wonderful. I
      like it as much as the next person but it's not the same thing. It's
      One. One isn't close, One isn't Union, one isn't…it's One. Oh my God.

      S: Yeah there's this curiosity here because I do see it embodied in a
      couple of teachers I sit with at home and with you and yeah...

      A: And that's why you're here. That's what brought you here. That's
      the invitation. And of course there's the hesitation because like God
      I love this yummyness. Geez this is just so great. And then there's
      the part of you that knows, well you know,

      S: This too shall pass.

      A: This too and you're totally hooked up for truth and all-the-
      wayness. And that's what's going to happen. That's what's going to
      happen. And that's what is happening. That's why you're here. It's
      already starting to happen, you see.

      S: Can I ask you about one other thing?

      A: Sure.

      S: So I have been having what I call 'terror beyond terror'

      A: Of course you are at this point.

      S: And I'm not even sure if I need to ask anything about it. Like I
      realize there's this idea going on that, every time it comes up which
      is usually in the middle of the night or anywhere where it's totally

      A: Right, right.

      S: Right and there's no light. Like I'll wake up and 'void' is a word
      I hear folks use, probably be appropriate and feeling of being

      A: Uh-huh. Yeah.

      S: And every time when I'm not in it I think, this time I'll meet it.
      This time I won't like run for the light you know...

      A: Right.

      S: And it shows up and its...

      A: I know, I know. And one of those times you won't. You can't plan
      for it. You can't sike up for it. You already know the truth of it.
      The truth is you don't know what's going to happen the next time. You
      really don't. You never did. You can't prepare for it. You've tried
      that. You've tried being ready. You've tried being 'I'll just let
      go.' It doesn't work does it? Cause the truth is you never know. You
      don't know. Right? But you can be assured, it's happening to you. The
      invitation's coming. It will continue to come until the fruit is
      ripe. Don't have any doubt that the invitations will continue. They
      will continue. And the letting go will happen. Just not on your time

      S: Right.

      A: There's really nothing you can do to prepare for it. Right. It's
      just the invitation. I knew it was already happening. I could feel
      it. You feel the void and the self-fracturing and the 'me' is coming
      unglued and God who wants to lose that cause that's the me that's
      unified with God. That's the 'me' that's prostrated on the floor,
      that's blessed out and at one with…No! And then something behind
      there is like 'Yes.' Dragging, pulling, unceremoniously prodding.
      That's' what I call 'fierce grace.' Right. You get the nice grace,
      love and bliss and you know the heart openings and all that. It's
      nice and you let go and you let go and you let go. You don't know
      you're being prepared to really let go. And you don't know that for
      most people nice soft grace usually doesn't do it. You've got to
      have 'fierce grace.' And that greater intelligence knows when its
      time to turn up the wick to 'fierce grace.' And you know it and it's
      like 'void' 'disappearing selves and fracturing egos.

      S: Thank you.

      A: And its all as natural as the rain is.

      S: Right as rain.

      A: Right as rain, as predictable as rain. It's happened a hundred
      thousand times before and it'll happen a hundred thousand times
      again. It couldn't be more right.

      S: Thank you so much.

      A: You're welcome.

      Epilogue: That's probably the greatest gift I think that she did in
      those books is just making that subtle but important distinction
      between a self or an ego that unified with God and a self that is no
      more. It's a useful distinction. At a certain point. Well on that
      wonderful note sweet dreams. (end of evening satsang)

      - posted to adyashantigroup

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