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  • andrew macnab
    ________________________________________________________________________ xan: ...It s amazing how many people are terrified of an honest expression of
    Message 1 of 1 , Oct 23, 1999

      ...It's amazing how many people are terrified of an honest expression of

      An honest expression of feeling is the most terrifying
      monster of all. It also guards the deepest treasures,
      doesn't it?


      Thanks for the many responses to my question about what is the
      problem. They all seemed to suggest that whatever is the cause of
      unhappiness, it's my fault. How can that be??? I didn't do any thing;
      I'm just sitting here.

      yeah with an attitude, shining one ;-)

      It's not your fault.
      How illusion began is a mystery.
      It is your opportunity to be part of the Awakening.

      It isn't a matter of "anyone's" fault; it isn't even a
      construction fault. Think of unconditional happiness "the
      other way around": who would care to go on living "as usual"
      when unconditionally happy? Life would grind to a halt
      completely, with all creatures just belly gazing :) So there
      is a reason why unconditional happiness isn't accessed at the
      flick of a switch. Just sitting is quite OK, it reminds of the
      muddy pond with rotting leaves etc., stirred up by the winds
      of thoughts and emotions. When the winds subside and the mud
      has sunk, a piece of the bottom can be seen and it appears to
      be made of the purest gold. Then, a big clean up follows,
      taking many years.

      there is no denying that depression sucks. the mind spins on occasion,
      settles on occasion. its all monkey mind. in the midst of it all, it
      doesn't matter how we feel-----although easier said, than "done" when
      missing the conscious connection with Being. its there alright, we just
      miss the forest for the trees at times due to lifetimes of social
      conditioning and security, survival issues deeply engrained. grace is
      responsible for being awake to truth, whether we feel connected to it or
      not. perservere. be with like minded people who understand and
      when you can.

      HEY, peon knows of no better medicine than "just sitting".

      I see no fault being assigned to you. I didn't hear such suggested
      in the responses I read, simply indications related to being aware. I
      guess it's all a matter of interpretation. If just sitting and doing
      nothing is working, and if there is no unhappiness "caused", then there
      is no problem, and nothing that needs to be done.


      I don't understand the "who am I" question/practice. I suppose the
      usual response is "not this, not this" (not this thought, not this
      feeling, not this body), but it makes sense to me to say I am both
      subject and object. Why limit it to subject only? Thanks for your
      boundless enthusiasm.

      Whatever might be the "usual" response matters not at all. Discovering
      the wordless, non-conceptual answer is where subject and object

      You could read the dialogues of the father of self inquiry as
      "Who am I?", Ramana Maharshi, for more understanding.

      inquire as to the questioner, who is the ego who bothers to ask.
      pin point the ego and it vanishes like a shadow. what is left is the
      answer you seek.


      ... Perhaps no one knows anyone, including knowing ourselves.
      Neither seriousness nor humor seems to help at this point.


      ...Frankly tonight I'm kind of sick of people talking
      about love and enlightenment and happiness, all the
      while hitting another with a stick, as if for entertainment.

      Tonight I feel hypocrisy all around me. (Shall we
      assume that we all understand that 'the external is a
      reflection of the internal', and proceed from here?)
      I know it's all a 'mirror'. I'm just sick of the

      I'm sick of people saying words of love, and 'teaching'
      and 'enlightenment' and 'still point', and all the time
      I'm feeling this passive aggressive 'jabbing'.

      Who loves me enough to really talk to me straight
      tonight....without laughing at (or taking what I say
      as an affront) what's moving thru me tonight?...


      I'm pondering this question:

      What do we do when we find someone
      on the forum/life irritating or wrong or
      wish they would change or shut up or
      go away?

      Change, shut up or go away ourselves.

      Three impossibilities.

      How could "I" leave, since there is no "I" to leave? If "I" were to
      "you" would leave, for are not "I" you? What is there but the One? Are
      there "levels" of nonduality?

      Then bless and thank that
      person for
      acting as a mirror and helping us with the incentive to lose more ego.

      Bless you . . . and thanks, for giving more people the incentive to lose
      more ego than just about anyone else on the list!

      Thanks, for showing me how NOT to communicate, and for demonstrating
      what a real ass a person can be, so I can avoid being that way myself.
      Bless you for your ignorance, rajasic personality, nastiness, overblown
      and unnecessary insults. Now I know how not to behave on a mailing
      Thank you for tempting this ego to respond to your insults with insults,
      and helping to delineate it, so it can be gotten rid of all the faster.

      Why get rid of it?

      For me, on list or "real life", I experience the irritation or
      frustration as fully as possible. I don't separate myself from the
      experience by "blaming" it on something outside of me. I seek to
      interact with this "other person" in whatever way seems wisest in the
      situation as I perceive it, and that rarely involves being reactive to
      an emotional state ("mine" or "theirs").
      There is a difference between awareness and reactivity, and for me,
      noticing this difference assists me in interacting.

      Hi Xan, glad you asked!

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      If misidentification is a form of dishonesty
      "I am this body, this name, this career ....."

      then misplacement of blame is also dishonest.
      "My discomfort is your fault."

      If this truth is known
      "I am undefinable, unlimited Being."

      then honesty of personal expression
      knows there is no outside causation.
      "I got really bugged when I read your message.
      It's my personal pattern and thank you for
      reminding me of what I have kept excluded
      from the truth."


      I can tell you my experience of this point. When
      'stepping beyond it' stopped working I learned to
      just face it. To be simply fully present with
      whatever shows up that seems to be excluded
      from the purity of wholeness is miraculous.


      "It doesn't feel like enough" is my first response to
      your suggestion. I do that..... but then I start to
      get aggravated that 'nothing's changed'. I get aggravated
      not that external events are unchanged, but that 'I' still
      want to be different, and am not.

      Listening to my thoughts just now, I'm hearing a lot of
      self-judgment. I'm hearing my self say that it's okay
      to be accepting of whatever comes 'out there'....but it's
      still rejecting of whatever arises 'within'.

      I'm seeing right now that I reject the part of me
      that is 'rejecting'.

      <..taking a big gulp and a deep breath..>

      Thank you, Xan. It's one thing to 'know' what
      one's shadow is, and another thing to 'touch it'.

      I have thought of this as letting the finite and the infinite touch.
      Of course, it's only a mind trick that thinks anything has been
      held apart, but since it is, another trick can begin the undoing of it.


      ...All I know is that if I trust, accept and know myself, I
      don't have the need to protect or defend myself, for no one
      can hurt me without my participation and without my
      permission. I think it extremely important to recognize that
      I am the one who is hurtful to me, not another individual.
      It is my choice to be hurt by another or their opinion.

      I love the different ways you all say your wise shit!
      Most of us here have learnt the tough lesson that, to accept
      others, you must accept yourself, and the best way to accept
      self is to exercise your freedom to "not agree" with others
      and be who you are.

      When we are all truly accepting of self, we can indulge in a
      lot more "friendly disagreement" which I think we need in
      order to grow. Accepting others does not mean I have to
      agree with them. Reality is infinitely richer now that I am
      not holding myself to any one particular explanation of it.

      Obviously, there are still fears and unfaced issues within
      me but I no longer project those out onto other people and
      see *them* as threats to my peace of mind. Honesty (with
      one's self) opens us up and lets vitality rush in...


      About humor: I always thought "laughing at oneself" was a cover for
      the truth, i.e., that we all only care about ourselves first and
      and value our self higher than anyone else.


      ...There is much more to intelligence than intellect, than the
      use of thought. We even know this in our human life - there is
      perceptual intelligence, movement intelligence. How much more so for
      the universe -
      the intelligence to "grow" a solar system. This is more than an
      "intellectual accomplishment"! Pure awareness extends far beyond the
      realms of thought, and yet with such awareness, thought's dimensionality
      expands greatly.


      I'm wondering whether, when on death bed, there'll be the
      feeling that lives today are in some ways missing something.

      For there is plain silence. Either one has yet to come to
      that silence or already has and still has energy to prattle
      about it.

      There is that deep silence to come to. That is the final
      stage prior to death (it is inseparable from death) and it
      finds one utterly alone, if even for a moment.

      I don't know of anything to come to except the silence that
      eats all identity.

      Anyone who's come to it and still has that energy to prattle
      might look around and say, Enlightenment is wasted on the
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