sathanas65 - Heretic Priest
is like endless billboards
in the desert
announcing a desert
Be the way you are.
The following story landed one day in my mailbox. I
don't know it's
origin or author, but it is a great pointer to total
acceptance and simply
being who or what you are; even when you're considered
to be a
A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung
on the ends of a
pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had
a crack in
it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full
At the end of the long walk from the stream to the
house, the cracked
pot arrived only half full. For two years this went on
daily, with the
bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water to
his house. Of
course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments,
which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its
imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of
what it had been made to do.
After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter
failure, it spoke to the
water bearer one day by the stream. I am ashamed of
myself, and I
want to apologize to you. I have been able to deliver only
half my load
because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the
back to your house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this
work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.
The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there
were flowers only
on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?
because I have always known about your flaw, and I planted flower
seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back,
watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these
to decorate the table. Without you being just the way
you are, there would
not be this beauty to grace the house.
"The sun with all those planets revolving around it and
dependent on it can still ripen a bunch of grapes as if it had nothing else in
to do." Galileo
courtesy of Xan
There is in the body a current of energy, affection and
intelligence, which guides, maintains and energizes the body and mind. Discover
that current and stay with it. Nisargadatta Maharaj
Art: Aimea Saul: Winter
Stuart Davis: musician, singer, punk
monk and the man who inspired
Ken Wilber's main character in his novel
is devoted to the interplay of
mysticism and art.
from Three Questions
In an effort to get a sense of the vast multiplicity of
apprehensions and perspectives available in the local manifestation
reality, Stuart has personally taken it upon himself to probe the psyches
of select individuals with no less than three (3) penetrating querys,
laying bare the souls of his subjects and the which exposing to public
view in our forum. Not for the weak of knee nor timid of spirit.
Question # 1) Why is there a Universe? In other words,
why does the
Absolute manifest at all, why does the Infinite unfold the
finite, or Reality
Steve Dinan The official poet of
One: Well, speaking as the Absolute, I found the
overall scene in the
Cosmic Cafe rather boring before deciding to create
some guests for
the party. Have you tried having a party by yourself? It
just doesn't cut it.
The witty banter, the tantalizing possibility of
seduction, the groan from
a double-entendre, the spewing of neo-Marxist
embarrassed silence after passing gas and the possibilities
emerge in relative reality are simply infinite. Abiding as the
Omnipresent, Infinite, Omniscient Being is grand for a while, but I was
looking for a little more spunk. A bit more pizzazz. After a bit of pushing
and pulling of the vast fabric of Consciousness voilá I could hide me
from Me. And the games could begin.
Incidentally, this is why I find sex so fascinating. It
was really one of the
premier inventions in that long slog of evolution up
to humanoids. Sex
allows beings to straddle BOTH realities: relative and
are simultaneously separate beings and then, for a moment, we
into each other with exquisite pleasure. The illusion of separation
dissolves. And yet, to experience that rapture, we are still limited to
being a separate self. We are both simultaneously. That's the great
attraction; we're not stuck on either side of the divide; the tedious
sameness of the godhead or the confused anarchy of the dualistic
We become whole and full. That's why if I had to distribute one
postulate that really holds true, it is that "God loves to
have sex with
God." Eros is the fundamental creative juice in the
A friend who is smarter than i shared this elsewhere
many months ago.
Each time i read it, i learn something new.
21 Ways to Stay in the Peace From
Compiled by Mary
The following are simple, yet powerful practices that
can give you new ways of looking at your life circumstances, and in that, create
new possibilities for making choices that will bring you greater alignment with
your personal integrity. These exercises are developments of "The Work(TM)"
which Byron Katie offers in seminars to provide clarity of mind and honesty of
heart which ultimately leads to peace.
1. Reversing Judgements
Practice noticing when you judge or criticize someone
For example, in a grocery store line, you might be impatient
the person in front of you is disorganized and rude. Quickly turn
judgment around and ask yourself: "Is it just as true about me? Am I
rude? (Am I rude sometimes; to others - or to myself?) Am I being rude
inside of me when I think they are rude?" This exercise takes your
attention off the "other" and places your attention on you. Forgiveness
naturally results. Placing the blame or judgment on someone else
you powerless to change your experience; taking responsibility
beliefs and judgments gives you the power to change them.
the appearance of who it is you are looking at, it is
always God disguised,
standing in front of you so that you can know
yourself. Reversing judgments
allows complete forgiveness.
Forgiveness leads to awareness of one's self,
2. The Three Kinds of Business
Notice when you hurt that you are mentally out of your
you're not sure, stop and ask, "Mentally, whose business am I
There are only three kinds of business in the universe, mine, yours,
God's. Simple! Whose business is it if an earthquake happens? God's
business. Whose business is it if your neighbor down the street has an
ugly lawn? Your neighbor's business. Whose business is it if you are
angry at your neighbor down the street because they have an ugly
Your business. Life is simple, it is internal. So, count, in five
intervals, how many times you are in someone else's business
Notice when you give uninvited advice or offer your opinion
(aloud or silently). Ask yourself: "Am I in their
business? Did they ask me
for my advice?" And more importantly,
"Can I take the advice I am offering
and apply it to my life?"
3. Being in Nobody's Business
After working with the practice of staying out of
other's business, try to
stay out of your own business as well. Hold lightly
whatever you think
you know about yourself. "I am contained within this
physical body. Is it
really true? Can I really know that it's true? What do
I get by holding that
belief?" There is a widespread belief that we are our
bodies, and we
will die. "Who would I be without the belief?"
4. "Detaching" from Your Body/Your
Try speaking about yourself, for a period of time, in
third person, rather
than as I or me. Instead of saying, "I'm going to
lunch", say "She's
going to lunch", (referring to yourself), or "This one is
going to lunch."
Do this with a friend for an hour, the afternoon, or the
Eliminate the use of all personal pronouns (I, me, we). Refer to
and the other in third person. For example, "How is that one (or
one) today? Does he want to go to the park?" Experience impersonally
the body, the stories and the preferences which you think you are.
5. Speaking in the Present Tense
Become mindful of how often your conversations focus on
the past or
future. Be aware of the verbs you use: was, did, will, are going
To speak of the past in the present is to reawaken and recreate it
in the present, if only in our minds, and then we are lost to what is
present for us now. To speak of the future is to create and live with
what is but a fantasy in our minds. If you want to experience fear, think
of the future. If you want to experience shame and guilt, think of the
6. Doing the Dishes
"Doing the dishes" is a practice of learning to love
the action that is in
front of you. Your inner voice or intuition guides you
all day long to do
simple things such as doing the dishes, driving to work
the floor. Allow the sanctity of simplicity. Listening to your
and then acting on its suggestions with implicit trust creates a
is more graceful, effortless and miraculous.
7. Listening to the Voice of the Body
The body is the voice of your mind, and it speaks to
you in physical
movement as muscular contractions - as twitches, twinges,
tension, just to name a few. Become aware of how often you move
away from peace or stillness. Practice stillness and let your body
to you of where your mind contracts, no matter how subtle the
contraction may be. When you notice a sensation, inquire
situation or contracted thought is triggering this physical
sensation? Am I
out of alignment with my integrity in this circumstance,
and if so, where?
Am I willing to let go of this belief or thought that
causes my body to
contract?" Listen and allow the answers to guide
you, and return to the
peace and clarity within.
8. Reporting to Yourself
This exercise can help in healing fear and terror.
events to yourself as if a circumstance you find yourself
in is actually a
news story and you are the roving reporter. Announce
exactly what your
surroundings are and what's happening "on the scene" at
moment. Fear is always the result of projecting a re-creation of
past into the now or the future. If you find yourself fearful, find the
belief and inquire: "Is this really true that I need to be fearful in
situation? What is actually happening right now, physically? Where is
my body (hands, arms, feet, legs, head)? What do I see (trees, walls,
windows, sky)?" Impersonalizing our stories gives us an opportunity to
look at circumstances more objectively, and choose our responses to
life brings. Living in our minds, believing our untrue thoughts is a
way to scare ourselves to death, and it can appear in form as old
cancer, degeneration, high blood pressure, etc.
9. Literal Hearing
Practice listening to others in the most literal sense,
what they say, and do your best to resist falling into
interpretations about the information they share with you. For
someone might compliment you on how beautiful you are, and you
interpret that as an implication that the person has ulterior motives. Our
interpretations of what we hear people say to us are often far more
painful or frightening than what people actually say. We can hurt
ourselves with our misconceptions and our thinking for others. Try
trusting that what they say is exactly what they mean: not more, not
less. Hear people out. Catch yourself when you want to finish a
for someone either aloud or in your mind. Listen. It can be
amazing to hear
what comes out when we allow others to complete
their thoughts without
interruption. And, when we are busy thinking we
know what they are about to
say, we are missing what they are actually
saying. You might want to
consider these questions: "What can be
threatened if I listen and hear
literally? Do I interrupt because I don't
want to really know what they have
to say? Do I interrupt to convince
them I know more than they do? Am I
attempting to portray an image of
self- confidence and control? Who would I
be without the need to
possess those qualities? Is there a fear of appearing
Would people leave me if I heard them literally, and no
in manipulative games?"
10. Speaking Honestly and Literally
Speak literally. Say what you mean without
justification, without any
desire to manipulate, and without concern about
how another may
interpret your words. Practice not being careful. Experience
freedom this brings.
See yourself in a balcony, watching your favorite drama
about you and
what distresses you. Watch the story on the stage below.
you have seen this drama performed hundreds, perhaps thousands of
times. Watch this until you find yourself becoming bored. The
are having to exaggerate their parts to keep your attention.
Notice when you
get honest with your boredom, you get up from your
seat, leave the balcony,
exit the playhouse and step outside. Always
know you can re-visit. Who would
you be without your story?
12. Watching a Second Version of the Play
Write your story from the eyes and mind of another.
Write as many
different versions with as many different outcomes as you
what you notice.
13. Exercising Polarity
If you find yourself dwelling on a negative thought,
practice going to the
opposite positive extreme or polarity. When you catch
back into negativity, choose again to return to the
positive polarity and
be present with your conscious choice; feel the truth
of it. There is only
love, and what doesn't appear as love is a disguised
call for love. It is
your birthright to live in the positive polarity of
love and truth.
14. Self Loving Process
Make a list of everything you love about someone and
share it with
them. Then, give yourself everything that is on the list. You
recognize that what you love about someone else is just as true of
Then allow the fullness of it to be expressed in your life.
15. Coming from Honesty
Practice moving and responding honestly. Laugh, cry,
speak as it is genuinely true for you in each moment. Be a child
act in full integrity with your feelings. Don't let beliefs
integrity. For example, practice leaving a room honestly
manipulating those you leave behind with a polite excuse. Live your
truth without explaining yourself.
16. Asking for What You Want - Giving Yourself What You
Ask for what you want, even though it may feel bold or
People don't know what you want until you ask them. The act of
is a validation of the awareness that you deserve to have what you
want. If others are unable or unwilling to accommodate your request,
give it to yourself.
17. Awareness of You
Recognize that the one in front of you is you. Beyond
and personalities is the essence of goodness, which is you.
Remembering your presence in all form will bring you immediately into
the present moment, in awe of the fullness therein. The person before
you will become an opportunity to know yourself. The heart overflows
with love and gratitude, humbly saying, "Oh yes, this person or situation
is here for me to learn about who I am."
18. Self Gratitude
For a simple twenty-four hours, stop looking outside
validation. On the other side of that you become the experience
19. The Vanity Mirror
If you want to see who you are not, look in the mirror.
Use the mirror
once a day only. Who would you be without your mirror?
20. Beyond Justification
Begin to notice how often you explain or justify
yourself, your words,
actions, decisions, etc. Who are you trying to
convince? And what is
the story you are perpetuating? Become aware of your
use of the word
"because" or "but" when you speak. Stop your sentence
Begin again. Justification is an attempt to manipulate the
decide to be still and know, and BE CAUSE.
21. The Gift of Criticism
Criticism is an incredible opportunity to grow. Here
are some steps on
how to receive criticism and benefit from it. When someone
are "wrong, terrible, sloppy," etc., say, either in your mind, or
that person, "Thank you." This thought immediately puts you in a
where you're available to hear and to use the information in a way
can serve you. After the criticism, ask yourself, "Do I hurt?" If the
answer is "yes", then know somewhere within you, you believe the
criticism also. Knowing this gives you the opportunity to heal that
portion which you find unacceptable within yourself. If you want to
cease to be vulnerable to criticism, then heal the criticisms. That is the
ultimate power in letting go of every concept. Being vulnerable means
you can no longer be manipulated for there is no place for criticism to
stick. This is freedom."
Art: Aimea Saul: Washing
NDH reader responds: Earl
I have seen RamDass on retreats ( where he, like I, was
a student and
have heard him talk - before the stroke). He has come a long
his days as a high-priest of the drugged -out movement and credit
due for the useful teaching he has done as well as his personal major
reformation. That said, we should also consider the fact that out of the
60s came a terrrible legacy of idealizing extreme narcisism, hostility to
government, worship of group rights as opposed to individual rights
extreme disrespect for logic and factual analsis instead of
touchy-feelyisim, etc ( excuse the neologism). He is right that those
thoughts are around today and seem to dominate our universities
political correctness has virtually destroyed freedom of speech.
of the 60s want free speech only for their own point of view
demonstrate, often with violence, to prevent others from speaking
mind. I had to say these things because, regrettably, none of the
interested in the spiritual side of life who appear on your site
this point of view, except perhaps to ridicule it.
Mind Body Spirit by Eva Yaa Asantewaa
For Adults Only Radical
Revisions of the Spiritual Life January 8 - 14,
Beloved, gaze in thine own heart," Yeats advised. "The
holy tree is
growing there." Yet many seekers of spiritual growth seemas
another poet, Pamela Sneed, would saymore afraid of freedom than
slavery. We yield our power to glamorous, sometimes unscrupulous
figures or invest big bucks in the promise of Enlightenment
Made Easy or
search for a spiritual family to lavish us with the love we
crave. Now controversial authors Mariana Caplan, Andrew
Harvey, and Alan
Clements reveal their own longings and crises of the
soul while challenging
Americans to wake up and grow up.
Mariana Caplan: Halfway Up the
Mountain: The Error of Premature
Claims to Enlightenment (Hohm Press,
.... an angry, unsparing dissection of self-deception
teachers and explorers. admits that she herself has stumbled
nearly every misstep along the spiritual path, all colorfully related
new Do You Need a Guru?,
... she detailed her strategy for "conscious
... We have a tremendous possibility for the
development of a spiritual
culture of integrity in the West," she said. "But
in this age of fast food
and Disney World, spiritual warriors need
skepticism, and a willingness to struggle."
Andrew Harvey: The Sun at Midnight: A
Memoir of the Dark Night; The
Direct Path (2001)
... Today, Harvey considers the guru-disciple system
toxic. He advocates that seekers forge their own direct path
Divine through prayers and practices originating in everything from
mystical Christianity to shamanism.
What frightens Harvey now is the ascendancy of the
agenda since 9-11, and its dire consequences for all humanity and
nature. "We are going into a period of the dark night," Harvey
proclaimed in a recent talk at Soho's New York Open Center. "We are
co-creators, not mere slaves, and we are left free to choose either the
world of cruelty or the world of love."... "The future of the planet hangs
on two wordsmystical activism. Without it we burn out, dry out,
disheartened by the onslaught of evil and ignorance." Religion, he
declared, is "bankrupt." The new age? "A narcissistic coma." And
"Nothing less than the mafiosi of the soul."
Alan Clements: was the first Westerner
to become a Buddhist monk in
Burma. In Instinct for Freedom: Finding
Liberation Through Living, his new
book, he was also, he says, "more addicted to more
substances than anyone
I ever met in my life, with at least 10 different
'me's' inside crying for
center stage." Today, having left monkhood and
celibacy far behind,
he's no longer even a Buddhist, he says. "I'm a lover
of freedom." Like
Harvey, Clements totally rejects the guru model. "It's the
out of Asia, commodified and turned into income. Open the
and look at God yourself without a filter!"
... his spoken-word performance Spiritually Incorrect
preferred method of insurrection, melding sociopolitical views,
individualistic spirituality, and a personal, discomfiting rawness that
can be felt across a room. Clements says he uses his performances to
"question the systems that birthed me and challenge the boundaries of
Spiritually Incorrect is "my way of saying how fucked
it is to have a
spiritual life; it fucking hurts to be alive todaymost of
the time," says
the man whose 32 years of Buddhist practice have landed him
broken heart and a feeling of marginalization, neither of which he
regrets. Authenticity trumps happinessyou know, that thing that
Americans feverishly pursue. "We have to have respect for remorse,
guilt, shame, transgression, worry, judgment," Clements asserts.
are healthy signs. Allow them to stay."
From of Tom Kenyon's
Passage into the Holographic Universe
Another part of the mystery, in regards to brain
function, came into
focus when I came across the recently published work of
Newberg, M.D., author of Why God Won't Go Away. Using advanced
neurological monitoring devices, Dr. Newberg was able to identify an
area of the brain that seemed to be crucial in mystical experience. He
and his associates looked at brain activity in various meditators. Some
were Christian mystics, some were yogis, some Buddhists, etc. Dr.
Newberg collected meditators like some people collect baseball
gave each subject a button. When they touched into the
deepest state of
meditation they were familiar with, they would push it.
This marker would be
set against the "real-time" readings of the brain
to see if there were any
commonalities in brain states. And there was.
Regardless of the tradition,
spiritual lineage or methods of meditation
used, the same area responded.
This common point in the brain was
identified as the orientation area.
neurological center is responsible
for orienting us in space. When
we walk across the
room, for instance,
the orientation area coordinates
sensory information to help us avoid
bumping into things. During such
moments the orientation area is very
busy routing sensory signals.
Its cells are very active.
But during states of meditation,
the orientation area went to sleep!
Its cells were simply not processing
sensory information. It was, in other
longer attending to the
perception of external space.
I think that this radical shift in the
orientation area is probably due to a
attention. By design,
meditation is a process of attending
to internal space. One lets the
perception of external space drop
away. And what's left are experiences
from the source of internal space itself
This is poem sent to the Advaita y Zen list by
Skogen. I translated it
and added a piece about silence
from B. Roberts.
Silencio Así como del fondo de la música brota una nota
vibra crece y se adelgaza hasta que en otra música enmudece,
del fondo del silencio otro silencio, aguda torre, espada, y sube y
crece y nos suspende y mientras sube caen recuerdos, esperanzas,
pequeñas mentiras y las grandes, y queremos gritar y en la
desvanece el grito: desembocamos al silencio en donde
A great poem, Skogen, the depth of this poem lets us
see the peace
Octavio achieved. Forgive the punt ( Paz means peace in
You have a great talent to pick poems. You should publish your own
Silence As when from the depth of music,
A note vibrates grows and wanes
Until in another music blends
In this way, pours from silence
Another silence, a steeple, a sword
That soars and grows and lifts us
And while it
soars, it lets go
Of memories, and hopes,
Of lies big and small
And we want to cry and in our throat
Dies the scream:
And we end in the silent
Where all silences are mute.
This is from the book 'The Experience of No Self "by
Roberts. A book worth
"Through past experience I had become familiar with
types and levels of silence.
There is a silence within; a silence that descends from
silence that stills existence; and a silence that engulfs the
universe. There is a silence of the self and its faculties of will,
memory, and emotions. There is a silence in which there is nothing,
silence in which there is something; and finally, there is the silence of
no-self, and the silence of God.
If there was any path on which I could chart my
experiences, it would be this ever- expanding and deepening
On one occasion, however, this path seemed to come to
an end, when
I entered a silence from which I could never totally emerge.
But I must
preface this account by saying that on previous occasions I had
upon a pervasive silence of the faculties so total as to give rise to a
subtle fear. It was a fear of being engulfed forever, of being lost,
annihilated, or blacking out and, and possibly never returning."
Art: Aimea Saul: Contemplation