Monday, August 19, 2002
There will always be one place on earth,
needle of a compass will not point north, and another from
which all directions "are" north. From my own view point
we are speaking
of the mystery of the seventh direction.
(please excuse me for appearing
smarmy or cryptic as it
is not my intent, just an unavoidable aspect of my
At the edge of the land.
At the edge of the sea.
At the edge of the day.
At the edge of tomorrow.
At the edge of yesterday.
At the center of the six directions.
The mystery of the seventh is revealed,
as the heart song of the many
Aubusson tapestry: River in One: Yael
Lurie, Jean-Pierre Larochette
Robert O'hearn and Mazie Lane submissions
and MazieBob Oneheart sharing
Question: How did awakening and liberation
Adyashanti: I had my first what
traditionally would be called
awakening experience when I was 25 years old.
very powerful and full of emotion and release and joy and
and all that it is supposed to be full of. But, because
there was so much
emotion involved, it obscured the
simplicity of awakeness itself. Like so
many others, I
continued to chase certain ideas and concepts of what
awakeness was supposed to be. That caused years of
over time I had the same experience
reoccur, but each time with less and
less emotion. I could
see more and more clearly over time what was the
essential element. Then finally an awakening occurred
the moment of awakening, there was no emotion
in it. It was just the pure
seeing of what is. When there was
the pure seeing of what is, unclouded by
content, it was obvious. It was very obvious that
consciousness recognized itself for what it really is - aware
before any emotion or thought or manifestation.
Question: Would you say that this is the
point at which the
distinction between awakening and liberation occurred?
Adyashanti: No. Even though there was a
incredible sense of fearlessness and release from not
confined to the dream of a separate "I", I started to
discontented with that. I didn't know why I
felt discontented, and it didn't
bother me in any way. The
discontent didn't touch that freedom, so it didn't
but I was interested in it.
Then one day I was sitting reading a book,
and I folded the
book to put it away and realized that somewhere in some
magic time, something had dropped away, and I didn't
know what it was.
There was just a big absence of
something. I went through the rest of the
day as usual but
noticing some big absence. Then when I sat down on the
bed that night, it suddenly hit me that what had fallen away
identity. All identity had collapsed, as both the self
in the ego sense of a
separate me, and as the slightest
twinge of identity with the Absolute Self,
with the Oneness
of consciousness. There had still been some unconscious,
identity or "me-ness" which was the cause of the
discontent. And it all
collapsed. Identity itself collapsed,
and from that point on there was no
for little me or for the unified consciousness me.
just fell away and blew away with the wind.
Question: When you noticed that the identity
and was gone, what remained?
Adyashanti: Everything just as it always had
was just the lack of any "I", personal or universal, or the
fundamental unconscious belief in any identity or of fixating
any place. The mind can continue to fixate a subtle
identity of self even in
universal consciousness. It can be
so incredibly easy to miss. To say "I am
That" can be a
very subtle fixation of consciousness.
Question: It's still a landing, a form of
Adyashanti: it's a slight landing, a slight
grasping. It's very
subtle. But when it collapses, you are even beyond "I am
That". You are in a place that cannot be described.
Question: And that is what you call
Adyashanti: That is what I call liberation.
Really, in the end,
what you end up with is that you don't know who you are.
You end up in the same place you started out. You truly
don't know who
you are because it's impossible to fixate
the self anywhere.
Question: But this not knowing is not the
Adyashanti: It's not the same not knowing of
the not knowing that comes from recognizing that the
whole issue of a self, personal or absolute, is fantasy. Both
and the Self are interpretations upon perception,
and nothing more. And when
the interpretation ends,
thought ends. When all identity collapses, you
abide in the
unknown. There is no tendency left to fixate identity
anywhere - even in a universal somewhere. So, you are left
the mystery as the mystery. It is only then that you
can be truly and
absolutely free of all concerns. There is
nothing to say. What can you say?
There is nothing to say.
Sound of OneHeart
Each night i long to sing with this body
pressed against yours,
moving like a melody remembered;
a rhapsody rushing into the Heart.
i want to sway like a palm frond
on a sandy Mayan beach,
held in your hand conducting music
This clarity is the progeny of the exquisite
your touch, the way you wrap The Love You Are around
It is the clarity of the touching itself,
recognizing it is what is
being touched, even as it touches.
Recognizing there is nobody there.
Nobody being touched.
Just the touching, touching.
This is for everyone, All are Lovers.
Some feel this touch upon their mind. Some
feel this touch
upon their body. Some feel this touch upon their heart.
Some feel this touch upon their soul.
Every being feels this touch.
Everybody is this touching,
This OneHeart Sound.
"For the mind in harmony with the Tao, all
With not even a trace of self-doubt, you can
All at once you are free, with nothing left
to hold on to.
All is empty, brilliant, perfect in its own
In the world of things as they are, there is
no self, no
If you want to describe its essence, the
best you can say is
In this "Not-two" nothing is separate, and
nothing in the
world is excluded.
The enlightened of all times and places have
In it there is no gain or loss; one instant
is ten thousand
There is no here, no there; infinity is
right before your
This time, I thought I'd try something
different. Instead of
around the house like an idiot trying to distract her
from her own crying, I
decided to try plain quietness, and
stillness. I nestled her against my
neck, making low,
soothing sounds, and rubbed and patted her back
patiently. She disintegrated further though, screaming so
hard into my
neck that I had to check to make sure I wasn't
smothering her. I wasn't, and
so I continued for a few more
minutes like that, until I thought I felt her
gearing down a
Then I held her up in front of me to look
her in the face. Her
whole head was red, she was crying sadly but more
and her eyes were squinched up tightly, squeezing out
tears. I laughed, and held my forehead against
hers, looking right into her
eyes. "You're okay, silly," I told
her gently. "You're gonna be fine. Let's
just calm down and
take some deep breaths together." Her eyes opened a
little, our faces so close that we could barely make out
eyes clearly, and after another minute or so,
she stopped crying altogether
and panted her gasping
breaths that she uses to recover from a huge fit. I
her back to my shoulder, and she was fast asleep within
30 seconds or so. This time, the whole process
lasted 5 minutes from start
photo of Dustin's daughter Zoe
Journal Entry - August
19 - tosime
Focus on deeper physical relaxation,
acceptance and practicing attention.
I practice attention by waiting alertly for
the next stimuli.
I practice acceptance by not reacting to
up. A wide variety of things come up. I assume that
whatever comes up is a direction on a path. When I react
something it dissolves and I loose that path.
When I fully accept what comes
up, I am taken along that
path. Today's path took me to two waves of bliss
were different from other waves (hard to describe since
few words that are accurate enough).
Physical relaxation is so deep I notice I
sometimes drool. I
am learning not to react to this as part of the
I find observing the memory creation process
Things that happened the previous day are "associated"
linked with different things so that if I ever think of the
these things it
will automatically bring up what happened
The skills and attitudes I develop during
very useful in day to day situations because they help me
to stay calm, stay focused and understand the deeper
processes that are
happening in my mind.
Dear Tony, This is a beautiful example of
is about and how it segues and benefits our moment to
moment life. Thanks for sharing. Bob
every self-seeking motive
as soon as it is seen
and you need not search
for truth -
truth will find you.
cee: i kept
trying to figure out how "my" consciousness is
the same as everyone elses,
but, if the "my" dissolves, that
is not really a question.
nome: here's a
funny thing. within the limitlessness of your
own consciousness, where we
really don't see a boundary
or a size or shape, within that consciousness
appears as it were a wave an illusion of certain ideas. one
those ideas is "i", some of those ideas make up what
you commonly call a
personality or a mind-- whatever
seems to mark you off as a separate being.
you are the consciousness and you have these
ideas of a
separate being, and then marvelously enough you imagine
stand as the separate being and refer to the
consciousness as if it were
your possession. isn't that a
funny thing? that's very strange.
first we set something apart from ourselves,
then we step
into it as if it were ourselves. and look back at ourselves,
thinking that we are a stranger to ourselves. but none of
that is true,
none of that is actually happening. there is
really no such thing as "my
consciousness" or "your
consciousness". "mine" "your" etcetera, these are
ideas, and all ideas or thoughts are inert.
the consciousness is the living part. now if
you look right
directly into your consciousness it doesn't have an "i" or a
"you" or a "yours" or anything else like that.
upstream of all thought, in your
consciousness where you
know nothing other, where you know no thing
there is no illusion.