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1602#1602 - Thursday, October 30, 2003 - Editor: Jerry

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  • Jerry Katz
    Nov 1, 2003
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      #1602 - Thursday, October 30, 2003 - Editor: Jerry
       
       No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience, language & knowledge

       
       
      Jack Kerouac
       
      1. Scribbled secret notebooks, and wild typewritten pages,
      for yr own joy
      2. Submissive to everything, open, listening
      3. Try never get drunk outside yr own house
      4. Be in love with yr life
      5. Something that you feel will find its own form
      6. Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind
      7. Blow as deep as you want to blow
      8. Write what you want bottomless from bottom of the mind
      9. The unspeakable visions of the individual
      10. No time for poetry but exactly what is
      11. Visionary tics shivering in the chest
      12. In tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you
      13. Remove literary, grammatical and syntactical inhibition
      14. Like Proust be an old teahead of time
      15. Telling the true story of the world in interior monolog
      16. The jewel center of interest is the eye within the eye
      17. Write in recollection and amazement for yourself
      18. Work from pithy middle eye out, swimming in language
      sea
      19. Accept loss forever
      20. Believe in the holy contour of life
      21. Struggle to sketch the flow that already exists intact
      in mind
      22. Dont think of words when you stop but to see picture
      better
      23. Keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr
      morning
      24. No fear or shame in the dignity of yr experience,
      language & knowledge
      25. Write for the world to read and see yr exact pictures
      of it
      26. Bookmovie is the movie in words, the visual American
      form
      27. In praise of Character in the Bleak inhuman Loneliness
      28. Composing wild, undisciplined, pure, coming in from
      under, crazier the better
      29. You're a Genius all the time
      30. Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled
      in Heaven
       

       
      I could hear an indescribable seething roar which wasn't in my ear but everywhere and had nothing to do with sounds.
       
      from On The Road, by Jack Kerouac
       
          I walked around, picking butts from the street. I passed a fish-'n-chips joint on Market Street, and suddenly the woman in there gave me a terrified look as I passed; she was the proprietress, she apparently thought I was coming in there with a gun to hold up the joint. I walked on a few feet. It suddenly occurred to me this was my mother of about two hundred years ago in England, and that I was her footpad son, returning from gaol to haunt her honest labors in the hashery. I stopped, frozen with ecstasy on the sidewalk. I looked down Market Street. I didn't know whether it was that or Canal Street in New Orleans: it led to water, ambiguous, universal water, just as 42nd Street, New York, leads to water, and you never know where you are. I thought of Ed Dunkel's ghost on Times Square. I was delirious. I wanted to go back and leer at my strange Dickensian mother in the hash joint. I tingled all over from head to foot. It seemed I had a whole host of memories leading back to 1750 in England and that I was in San Francisco now only in another life and in another body. "No," that woman seemed to say with that terrified glance, "don't come back and plague your honest, hard-working mother. You are not longer like a son to me -- and like your father, my first husband. 'Ere this kindly Greek took pity on me." (The proprietor was a Greek with hairy arms.) "You are no good, inclined to drunkenness and routs and final disgraceful robbery of the fruits of my 'umble labors in the hashery, O son! did you not ever go on your knees and pray for deliverance for all your sins and scoundrel's acts? Lost boy! Depart! Do not haunt my soul; I have done well forgetting you. Reopen no old wounds, be as if you had never returned and looked in to me -- to see my laboring humilities, my few scrubbed pennies -- hungry to grab, quick to deprive, sullen, unloved, mean-minded son of my flesh. Son! Son!" It made me think of the the Big Pop vision in Graetna with Old Bull. And for just a moment I had reached the point of ecstasy that I always wanted to reach, which was the complete step across chronological time into timeless shadows, and wonderment in the bleakness of the mortal realm, and the sensation of death kicking at my heels, and myself hurrying to a plank where all the angels dove off and flew into the holy void of uncreated emptiness, the potent and inconceivable radiancies shining in the bright Mind Essence, innumerable lotuslands falling open in the magic mothswarm of heaven. I could hear an indescribable seething roar which wasn't in my ear but everywhere and had nothing to do with sounds. I realized that I had died and been reborn numberless times but just didn't remember especially because the transitions from life to death and back to life are so ghostly easy, a magical action for naught, like falling asleep and waking up again a million times, the utter casualness and deep ignorance of it. I realized it was only because of the stability of the intrinsic Mind that these ripples of birth and death took place, like the action of wind on a sheet of pure, serene, mirror-like water. I felt sweet, swinging bliss, like a big shot of heroin in the mainline vein; like a gulp of wine late in the afternoon and it makes you shudder; me feet tingled. I thought I was going to die the very next moment. But I didn't die, and walked four miles and picked up ten long butts and too them back to Marylou's hotel room and poured their tobacco in my old pipe and lit up. I was too young to know what had happened. In the window I smelled all the food of San Francisco. There were seafood places out there where the buns were hot, and the baskets were good enough to eat too; where the menus themselves were soft with foody esculence as though dipped in hot broths and roasted dry and good enough to eat too. Just show me the bluefish spangle on a seafood menu and I'd eat it; let me smell the drawn butter and lobster claws. There were places where they specialized in thick red roast beef au jus, or roast chicken basted in wine. There were places where hamburgs sizzled on grills and the coffee was only a nickle. And oh, that pan-fried chow mein flavored air that blew into my room from Chinatown, vying with the spaghetti sauces of North Beach, the soft-shell crab of Fisherman's Wharf -- nay, the ribs of Fillmore turning on spits! Throw in the Market Street chili beans, redhot, and french fried potatoes of the Embarcadero wino night, and steamed clams from Sausalito across the bay, and that's my ah-dream of San Francisco. Add fog, hunger-making raw fog, and the throb of neons in the soft night, the clack of high-heeled beauties, white doves in a Chinese grocery window . . .
       

       
      The above excerpt has been added to the Kerouac page: http://nonduality.com/jack.htm